Help I'm dead

meh 20, muslim, she/her

[samwinchesterism]

i don't know what the letters mean but this is early seasons ➡️ late seasons sam winchester character development

[angelmooselion]

Days ago with a drabble, I got the chance to dive into Cassifer/Sam and that touch of abuse, which is a theme I've wanted to tackle in fanfics, delve into it more seriously, in more words than just a drabble.

I enjoy exploring that dynamic because, in my opinion, it was poorly addressed in the series. And far from the ship dynamic, I hate see them as a couple. The dynamic of abuse, of captor/victim, is intriguing, implicit in many moments of the series, but it's always disappointing that it wasn't given the seriousness it deserved.

Besides I love Sastiel, the theme with Cassifer and The relationship wirh Cas post-possesione seems so full of potential for anguish. Are you telling me that Sam didn't have any issues, nightmares, or fear that his tormentor was living with him in the only place he felt safe? And that his own brother and God were okay with that?

I rewatched a little from "The Vessel" and just look at Sam's face. And the way Lucifer winks at him and touches him? Boy

There are things like abuse and sexual harassment that Lucifer implies in many dialogues, but that's another topic.

If I could say that I hate any ship, Samifer is one of them. I could consider it a NOTP. However, it's not that serious to me to demand that those who like it block me from that content, and not to take edits, drawings, or shipping so seriously. Fiction at the end of the day

Just something I wanted to clarify because I'll probably talk more about it. I want to extend that drabble

[melancholy54]

Thinking about how so many relationships Sam has across s1-7 (what I’m on) involve a lot of controlling on the other person’s part. People like Meg, Ruby, even Lucifer; they’re all monsters, and they manipulated him into it, but Sam was also drawn to them, at least a little. Thinking about Sam getting in and/or being drawn to all these controlling relationships because that’s what he knows “Love” to be: imbalanced, all consuming, and difficult. That’s how it was, and is, with the only two people he interacted with consistently most of his life. Never mind his friends at Stanford, never mind Jess, because a part of him always knew that was just temporary, an unattainable escape from what he was always going to do: Save people, hunt things; The family business. And there’s no easy love in that.

[featheredmoonwings]

Here's a thought.

Sam has been irrevocably changed since his coming back from hell (and jumping in of course). So often I find myself looking at later season's Sam, a Sam who's not a firey rebel against what the world wants of him, a Sam who would fight for himself. This is a quietly submissive Sam who can't stand to disappoint Rock No.1. Someone who takes on pain again and again and again because he's so used to it.

Sam from the first seasons it's not the same Sam as the later. This is a broken, traumatized man who excels at being high functioning and I am SO sure of it.

He LOOKS resigned and tired a lot of the time. And it reminds me of hell!Sam begging himself not to remember. hell!Sam knew what he was talking about and what we're seeing in later seasons is his reflection.

And let me throw in a Silmarillion reference because why the heck not. Like the souls of elves go to Mando's halls, Sam's soul needed to go to heaven and heal from all the years of hell he suffered (earthly ones and hell ones). He was not ready to be reembodied in earth and now he's come wrong.

Like 5 different entities warned us about Sam's shredded to ribbons soul. To me, that doesn't sound like a soul that should've been put back in a body.

[creatorofarcadia]

Literally replace hunting with any other risky profession and the idea Sam is selfish for not wanting to hunt kind of collapses. No one would ever suggest someone who doesn't want follow the family tradition of joining the military is selfish because hypothetically, them joining could result in someone not dying. It's absurd.

Season 1 John and Dean are really like, you don't want to die painfully in your 20s/30s after a life of constant fighting with no outside connections? Is this? The height of selfishness?

[nezreblogz]

Zionist or Nazi? Who Said This?

Disclaimer: this quiz is part of a research on perceptions of hate speech and is not meant to hurt anyone's sentiments. We do not seek to ta

i got 12/20

[redtail-lol]

If you use arab.org like I do please consider taking the extra 30-60 seconds to click on ALL of their causes. Palestine is important but so are the environment, refugees, children, women, and the impoverished across the middle east and it doesn't take away from Palestine to click for multiple causes. The arab world faces a lot of problems and they only get worsened by how western nations have oppressed and attacked them. Clicking is small but it generates something and overtime it does benefit the greater good. It takes all of us clicking as often as possible but we can do it! It's really easy and safe and they have proofs on their site on how they do make an impact and are donating your click money

[mauesartetc]

YES. All of them. Every day. Here is the full list of causes.

[leftistfeminista]

Gaza's women are just like any other women: they are wives, lovers, partners and feminine beings with desires, interests, drives and needs. The mocking of their lingerie by dozens of IDF soldiers isn't just a depraved and childish act; it's indicative of a dehumanization trend in which Palestinian women are viewed as entirely alien and otherized - that the presence of lingerie in their bedroom drawers is so shockingly surprising & unexpected, it is worth playing with and showing off as battlefield souvenir. I remember vividly how widespread lingerie stores were throughout Gaza City and how they were such a casual thing. In fact, I remember numerous instances of seemingly religious men with beards and the Quran playing in the background having or operating underwear and lingerie stores and stands, with their wives or female salesladies even helping them with customers.

These images by IDF troops will have long lasting consequences and will undermine de-escalation and de-radicalization efforts, particularly in a conservative society that views female-related spaces, items and topics as particularly sensitive and private/sacred. This isn't about worn out soldiers blowing off steam during battle; it is a sick lack of discipline & lackluster standards & operational security protocols. These images are deeply disrespectful and offensive and further alienate a civilian population that is paying the price for circumstances over which it has no control.

[autism0fadown]

If you haven’t seen, Bisan launched a gofundme and managed to get 3x her goal!!

And while this is amazing, there are still many Palestinians who are experiencing the same conditions as her.

So please to those who can donate, fatfabfeminist on twt provided a link to a document containing a list of people and families who need help raising money as well as links to their gofundme’s!

Heres the link to her post

Link to their twt page

And link to the document

(I put them down here in case u missed the links at the top of the post)

[100blocks-archived]

i need dreamnap to debunk more george stereotypes this is awesome. george is lazy? no he helps dream with literally every video and project. george can’t cook? no sapnap says he’s the best cook in the house. george has a small ass? no he has the fattest ass of the dream team

[tantancantdoshit]

Dreams music is rlly good

[m4ndysk4nkovich]

i will never not feel so bad for ian because of how his parents treated him.

as far as we know, ian was the only one who was physically abused by frank throughout his childhood. frank hated ian the most because he “looked the most like his mother” (and the most like frank’s brother, clayton, ian’s actual dad clayton, but nobody actually ever says that) and ian thinking that he looks/acts like monica seriously effects him later on. frank treats him like absolute dog shit, and we hear ian say that when he was six frank locked him in the basement for days. one of the biggest things about shameless is the “cycle of abuse” and frank’s treatment of ian is ironic because from what we know, frank was the only one his parents ever abused (physically, at least).

and for monica, ian was his favorite. i don’t give a shit if fiona says that lip is her favorite, from monica’s first episode’s it’s been apparent that it’s ian. for example- not giving a shit about any of her children’s accomplishments until it comes to ian, and her eyes light up, or making lasagna “ian’s favorite” (it’s not). but being monica’s favorite isn’t actually a good thing. monica seriously abused ian, too, and people don’t always awknolege that. their relationship was built on manipulation, monica’s victim complex, and neglect. she did nothing but use and hurt him, and whether or not she really loved him doesn’t really matter because either way it just hurt him. and the saddest thing is no matter how far away he pushes her, he’s still attached and he still loves her. we don’t know what she truly put him through as a child, but we can assume that it was hell. from ian’s whole speech to her in 7x09 we can tell that he definitely needed her, but she was never there. this is also apparent in fiona’s monologue in 7x12.

also, in season 11 when debbie tells frank, “you ruined love for me!” that definitely also applies to what ian was saying in season 10 about having frank and monica as role models for love. they damaged him so fucking badly and even though he did get a happy ending, he got totally screwed over.

i get that people hate ian for saying that frank was worse than terry in hall of shame, and i made a whole post about that (here!), and although if we’re really thinking about it, yeah, terry was technically worse; ian still went through so much traumatic shit that needs to be taken into account.

[enixamyram]

Lip has me honestly furious this episode. Like, I legit cannot stand him right now and would happily watch him getting punched in the face on repeat for ten hours straight.

Season 9 Episode 11 Rant.

First he gets pissed at Fiona for the DCFS's visit. Ignoring the part where he hadn't told her about any of it (Xan or the visit) beforehand so she was completely unprepared, he gets mad at her for things she didn't even do. I mean, if anyone, he should be pissed at Debbie! She left the hole in the floor. She left the three kids inside while she was outside pissing about with her brothers girlfriend. I know Fiona was drunk but that issue has nothing to do with the visit getting messed up yet Lip only blames Fiona for all of it. Fiona actually does her damn best to try and salvage the mess that's happening but it's treated like she half-assed it, if not deliberately sabotaged it.

And then with Jason. Fiona literally had no clue about him. How would she? The guy gave no indication as to who he was (like, there has to be some personal responsibility in this - if he had told Fiona he was recovering or in AA, I'm sure Fiona would have immediately pulled back from him). Yet Lip still screams at her for it like she purposely screwed him over for shits and giggles. Again, Fiona's definitely on a downward spiral and needs help to get out of it but that's for her own addiction, not someone else's. She doesn't need to be screamed at for things completely out of her control just because Lip's in a shitty mood.

But this is Lip all over. He's forever putting his own shit and frustration on other people and you know what, he sucks for it. He really fucking sucks and he has no right shouting at Fiona like this when he has been just as much a fuck up before when she was supporting him.

I'm usually open for discussions but I will not take any criticism on this. If Fiona has no clue about Xan, about DCFS, about Jason, you cannot blame her when shit goes sideways because you left her unprepared. It's pathetic the way it's all put on her.

If the writers wanted to make Fiona at fault, they should have actually made her at fault. Have her promise to babysit then ditch for a nap. Have her destroy the house in a drunk rage and forget to clean up. Have her insist Jason would be fine with just one drink because she was having one and didn't want to drink alone. Have her actually be at fault. Don't have her only crime be ignorance and then throw it all on her like she's purposely fucked everything up for everyone else.

[shittalkerxox]

Ian has so many underage/with grown men arcs it's actually fucking crazy. The first is Kash, obviously, where Ian is 14 and sleeping with his boss who's around 40 and married with two kids. The worst part about it is even when people find out about it -no one does anything. Mandy treats it like it's a normal ass relationship, but maybe she can be slightly excused because she's also 14 and kind of known for sleeping around so her views on sex probably aren't the healthiest. Lip finds out and does absolutely nothing, he even pokes fun at Ian for it, which makes zero sense for Lip's character, because later when he finds out there's a female pedophilic teacher living near (arouns s3) , he's the only one who seems to have an issue with it, he even says "He was 14 and she was his teacher." Your brother was 14 and he was his boss but whatever, Lip. Linda, an actual adult who should have done something, allows the relationship to keep going, only telling Ian he could do better whoch has more to do with her dislike for her husband rather than the whole pedophile thing.

Then comes Ned literally the next season where Ian is only 15/16. Again when people find out about it, they seem indifferent to it. Jimmy/steve finds out his dad has been having sex with an underage boy who he's basically been helping take care of for a year and he's more concerned with the fact his dad is gay rather than a pedo. The whole thing is weird af and the show legit never mentions how this isn't normal.

And then the fucking club, I very rarely see people talk about the club but it annoys the shit out of me. Ian is working at a gay bar, serving alcohol (illegal) pole dancing (illegal) giving lap dances (illegal) and "working the back as much as the front) aka, prostitution (ILLEGAL) He films porn and all of the guys he's doing this with are adults, old adults too. When I first watched it i figured Ian must have turned 18 when he was away at the start of season 4 but no, in episode 12 'Lazarus' mickey says something along the lines of "you mean horny? What 17 year old gay kid isn't horny?" Again stating that ian is underage through all of this.

They are all really good storylines but they could have benefited from at least 1 person pointing out how wrong they were. Maybe Steve freaking out more on the fact Ian wasn't 18 and not that his dad was gay, maybe Lip making a bigger deal about Kash or Linda actually doing something, maybe mickey telling Ian how fucked up his job at the club is. Ian doesn't have to see how shitty these things are, but it would be useful if everyone just stopped acting as if it was normal.

And I get that the show is called shameless for a reason and it reflects how poorer areas are more accepting of all these fucked up things, but for how much they talk about how they hate pedophiles and all, they don't do a single thing about it when it happens to one of the main characters.

[xxlovermanxx]

ok part 2 time! Let’s go

Here’s my point cause I’m getting long winded:

Y’all excuse every one of mickeys actions on growing up with a homophobic abusive family, and internalizing that hatred : therefore y’all think it’s fine how he treated Ian seasons 1-3 (which is ACTUAL abusive behavior since y’all want to throw that word around) because of his upbringing

Now when it comes to IAN, y’all don’t want to hear any excuses. Let’s review: Ian’s only experience of bipolar disorder is his abusive pos mom, who’s hurt him and his family beyond belief. Now when he’s at his most unstable, she’s preyed on that and convinced him Mickey can’t love him. He loves Mickey, and in his twisted viewpoint rn- he thinks that by breaking up with Mickey he’s setting him free! Let me repeat: HIS MOM, INFLUENCED HIM. TO THINK THAT HE CANT BE IN A RELATIONSHIP. DOES THAT SOUND FUCKING FAMILIAR??? I’m not saying Monica and terry are on the same level, but you get what I mean??? They both influenced their children wrongly. So when y’all only make excuses for Mickey and treat Ian like the devil incarnate, iTS REALLY FUCKING ANNOYING not to mention borderline ableist, y’all really be doing the most goddamn

And finally to be clear, I am not anti Mickey or anti gallavich, i am anti Ian antis who wanna ignore his struggle. I love both characters a lot, y’all just have favoritism to the point where you ignore facts to try and pit them against each other

Anyway-

[xxlovermanxx]

not to cause drama but like- y’all love to blame Ian’s actions during season 4-5 (honestly 3 and 6 too) fully on himself without any consideration for his situation. Here is this 16(?17?) kid who’s having his first manic break, after experiencing all kinds of trauma with his first love. He’s CONFUSED and SCARED and if we’re talking season 4, he just ruined his LIFE LONG DREAM of being in the army!! He’s desperate to the point where he’s working as a stripper, because he’s BEEN GROOMED MULTIPLE TIMES AND THINKS HIS BODYS ALL HES GOOD FOR!!! and then after diagnosis he is a 17 (again, I think?) kid who just got DIAGNOSED WITH THE SAME DISORDER THAT HIS ABUSIVE NEGLECTFUL MOTHER HAS!!! He has no hOPE he’s afraid he’s gonna be a terrible person he S C A R E D and his family is now all treating him differently. Does that excuse his punching Mickey? NO! But again, they lived in a really fucked up neighborhood where that’s how they knew how to communicate. They were WRONG but that’s what they thought. I’m going to make a part 2 cause this getting long

[tantancantdoshit]

Dream rlly knows how to makes songs that get stuck in your head

Every single song snippet I've accidently heard for just a few seconds had me unknowngly singing it on repeat after

Kudos to him