The support caught him before gravity could reclaim him.
Shikamaru instinctively stiffened the moment Haku slipped beneath his arm, not out of distrust ābut he couldnāt remember the last time someone had helped him without expecting something in return. The motion pulled sharply at the fresh stitches, earning a quiet hiss through clenched teeth, yet he didnāt shrug the smaller man away. At the moment, pride weighed considerably less than blood loss.
āYouāre stronger than you lookā he observed after a few unsteady steps, the words spoken with the detached curiosity of someone whose mind habitually catalogued details, even now. Hakuās frame was lean, almost delicate ābut there was practiced strength beneath it. The kind earned through repetition rather than size.
His breathing settled into a slow rhythm as they walked, though each inhale remained shallow. The meadow rolled gently around them, green and alive beneath the sun āpainfully at odds with the memory that refused to leave him. Every rustle of grass threatened to become another scream.
Donāt think about it. Donāt.
The shadow at his feet obeyed āit clung close to his boots instead of wandering outward, unnaturally compact, as though caged by sheer force of will.
āNemuraā¦ā he repeated quietly, committing thr unfamiliar name to memory. A village. Civilian. Remote. Exactly the sort of place someone like him should never enter.
His gaze drifted toward Haku as the young man introduced himself. There was something disarmingly sincere about the smile offered to a complete stranger āworse, to a shinobi wearing the insignia of a village that would have gladly hunted the people living in that cabin, had they known who they truly were. For reasons he couldnāt explain, that realization settled heavily in his chest.
āShikamaru.ā It was the first thing hed offered willingly since waking. Though he gave no rank, or surname. Just his given name. Hopefully that was enough for now. He wasnāt really planning on staying. Not for too long.
Silence followed for several steps before he spoke again. Eyes remained fixed on the path ahead. āYou shouldnāt trust me just because Iām hurt, Haku.ā He leaned more heavily against Haku than he cared to admit, his thoughts drifting back to the ravine he couldnāt escape. When he finally spoke again, the usual dry wit was gone from his voice, leaving only a quiet exhaustion.
āIām going to ask you for something⦠troublesome. If you know somewhere secluded āa cave, an abandoned cabin, anywhere far enough from your home and the village⦠take me there instead. Donāt bring me anywhere near the people here.ā his gaze fell to the shadow stretching beneath their feet, his expression tightening almost imperceptibly.
āI donāt know when itāll happen again. Iād like to believe I can keep it buried, but I believed that yesterday, too. I spent years convincnug myself that as long as I stayed calm⦠as long as I kept thinking ahead⦠Iād stay in control. Turns out there are some things you canāt outthink.ā
His voice grew quieter, carrying none of the panic one might expect from such a confession āonly the weight of someone who had already accepted the possibility.
āIf I lose myself again⦠donāt hesitate. Kill me.ā