The support caught him before gravity could reclaim him.
Shikamaru instinctively stiffened the moment Haku slipped beneath his arm, not out of distrust —but he couldn’t remember the last time someone had helped him without expecting something in return. The motion pulled sharply at the fresh stitches, earning a quiet hiss through clenched teeth, yet he didn’t shrug the smaller man away. At the moment, pride weighed considerably less than blood loss.
“You’re stronger than you look” he observed after a few unsteady steps, the words spoken with the detached curiosity of someone whose mind habitually catalogued details, even now. Haku’s frame was lean, almost delicate —but there was practiced strength beneath it. The kind earned through repetition rather than size.
His breathing settled into a slow rhythm as they walked, though each inhale remained shallow. The meadow rolled gently around them, green and alive beneath the sun —painfully at odds with the memory that refused to leave him. Every rustle of grass threatened to become another scream.
Don’t think about it. Don’t.
The shadow at his feet obeyed —it clung close to his boots instead of wandering outward, unnaturally compact, as though caged by sheer force of will.
“Nemura…” he repeated quietly, committing thr unfamiliar name to memory. A village. Civilian. Remote. Exactly the sort of place someone like him should never enter.
His gaze drifted toward Haku as the young man introduced himself. There was something disarmingly sincere about the smile offered to a complete stranger —worse, to a shinobi wearing the insignia of a village that would have gladly hunted the people living in that cabin, had they known who they truly were. For reasons he couldn’t explain, that realization settled heavily in his chest.
“Shikamaru.” It was the first thing hed offered willingly since waking. Though he gave no rank, or surname. Just his given name. Hopefully that was enough for now. He wasn’t really planning on staying. Not for too long.
Silence followed for several steps before he spoke again. Eyes remained fixed on the path ahead. “You shouldn’t trust me just because I’m hurt, Haku.” He leaned more heavily against Haku than he cared to admit, his thoughts drifting back to the ravine he couldn’t escape. When he finally spoke again, the usual dry wit was gone from his voice, leaving only a quiet exhaustion.
“I’m going to ask you for something… troublesome. If you know somewhere secluded —a cave, an abandoned cabin, anywhere far enough from your home and the village… take me there instead. Don’t bring me anywhere near the people here.” his gaze fell to the shadow stretching beneath their feet, his expression tightening almost imperceptibly.
“I don’t know when it’ll happen again. I’d like to believe I can keep it buried, but I believed that yesterday, too. I spent years convincnug myself that as long as I stayed calm… as long as I kept thinking ahead… I’d stay in control. Turns out there are some things you can’t outthink.”
His voice grew quieter, carrying none of the panic one might expect from such a confession —only the weight of someone who had already accepted the possibility.
“If I lose myself again… don’t hesitate. Kill me.”