i feel like i need to do one of these esp. after what’s been hailed, “the worst year of my entire fucking life”. for those of you who don’t know, i lost my big brother to suicide in july and i’m actually able to tell y’all this bc i’ve finally accepted that he’s gone, that he’s in a better place and that i’ll never be able to see him ever again. and i’m not looking for pity or anything, it’s just been really hard to cope after he left bc i didn’t know how important he was to me until he was already gone and i’ve been trying to find some kind of solace w/ all of this and trying to keep my chin up for my mom and it’s just….yeah. it’s been a very, very strange turn of events for me. but thankfully, just a couple of days ago, i went to california for the holidays and found so much love and compassion w/ my family and they’ve given me so much grace and kindness and it was like Cameron was there and it was such a goddamn blessing! and it’s been so healing ever since and i just know that 2017 is going to be so, so, so much better! and i know i’m not the only one who’s lost someone this year, or has struggled w/ shit, if it’s personal, or if it’s at work, or at home, or whatever bc it’s been an all around heart break for everyone this year. so this is a follow forever to those who i’ve been following for awhile, or just started to follow, and to those who’ve put me to ease, who’ve given me some peace of mind, not really knowing they were, and to the people who’ve talked w/ me and shared the same love w/ music and artists, and just being a really good distraction! i adore each and every single one of you! even if i don’t really know you! and please don’t ever forget that you’re loved and you matter! and i hope 2017 brings joy and beauty and forgiveness and strength to your life, and i hope brightness follows you wherever life takes you! so….yeah! fucking cheers, my guys!
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