hope ur doing just fine! i really misses your tbz writing on wattpad 😓😓, can u please write it back 😓😓😓
hi lovely<3
unfortunately not, the reason i stopped writing fanfictions was that i felt uncomfortable knowing that it was about real people. I felt that it was wrong of me to picture them in that light! It was as if i couldn't really make characters out of them anymore. So posting those stories again will go against what I am comfortable with.
I have had thoughts of remaking my old fanfictions into real stories with my own characters/ocs for years now, because i still like the plots, but it hasn't happened. I'm in university now and have little time to do what i desire. Hopefully i can do that one day, instead of posting them as fan fictions<3
you were my comfort writer when I was in my loop phase, but I moved on from that as I got older—but your fan fictions were so greatly written and it was truly sad to see you delete them. I just hope you decide to publish them again someday for nostalgia 🤍 I wish you the best.
I'm prepared to disagree about the well written part🤨 the ideas and the plots were surprisingly good, but I did not have the capacity of English or the maturity for storytelling that I do now!
I still look back at some of those stories and think "wow, a 15 year old came up with this?" Because some of the plots were surprisingly well thought out and quite mature (he wants them dead, the hotel, heroes and villains, sweetheart)
I haven't deleted them — only a few — and am keeping them safe in my files, because maybe, someday, I want to use those plots again for something bigger and greater🩷
hii! i just opened wp after like 1-2 years and noticed your works weren't there anymore, ive read most of them but i still remember the first one i read i think it wall dollhouse 😭but yes i hope youre doing well and i really really really miss ur fics they were the only reason i opened wp again HAHAH, if u ever reupload/unarchive them or release new stuff id prolly love to read it.
anyway i js wanted to thank you and ask you how you were doing 💗💗
lol yeah i removed them 11 months ago :,)
I really liked writing on wattpad and the community i had there, but i felt that I had grown apart from writing fanfictions. I had been on the app for five years, from 13 to 18, and everytime I wrote on the fanfics, it felt like I could no longer create characters out of the members. It felt like I was hyper aware somehow. I have most of the stuff saved, but although I probably won't publish them again, I have taken multiple of them and turned them into "real" stories.
I don't know if you remember a story called "he wants them dead" where the boyz were experiment guinea pigs during ww2 and one of them started to kill the others, but I have now been working on it for soon 4 years (3 of which have been as a "real" story) and that one will hopefully be my debut novel! I have also turned "heroes and villains" into a real story and will hopefully rewrite it this summer and have started to turn "the hotel" into a real story. The fanfics will probably find their way back to you somehow, but probably in another format!<3
I'm doing well! I'm about to graduate high school and probably start university, my birthday is just a few days away and I'm going to the country side tomorrow, so I think that things are looking good! I hope that you are doing well too<3
Aii found you here after wattpad. Well I won't ask why you took down your stories as I understand its completely your choice for they are your books.
I came here to check on you buddy!! Hope you are doing good!! Idk if you still stan TBZ (you still hv Chanhee in your pfp so ig you still are) but what are your thoughts about their latest cb??
I'm doing good! 2024 hasn't been very nice to me but it's going to be okay haha, how are you?
Of course I'm still a fan. In December, I will have heen a fan for 6 years♡ I'll be here until they disband
I really liked Nectar, it was exactly what I missed from them! It reminded me of the old tbz sound (like bloom bloom, ddd, keeper era) combined with their new grown up style! I liked both of their songs a lot♡ It was a breath of fresh air because I wasn't the biggest fan of Watch it (ESPECIALLY Honey) ... rat in the trap and bad luck was amazing though😍
Could you please consider publishing your tbz fics which were on wattpad here [I just really love them and miss reading them] in the future is there at least like slight possibility??
I don't think so, sweetheart :( I have ideas of publishing them again but not as fanfictions (and really really rewritten) because I was around 15 when I wrote those. I'm 18 now and stand for very different things than I've written.
I'm surprised no one actually came at me and told me that I shouldn't write some things. I forgot about them and reread the books a year later and suddenly, there was something that was so absurd and wrong and over the line that I was wondering how no one pointed it out.
I'm wary of the books, thats what I'm trying to say. If I ever publish them again, they have to be heavily rewritten and unfortunately I don't have the time for that right now :(
Hello<33I’ve been fallowing your Wattpad for so long and I loved your story’s so much I was just wondering why you took them all down and if there ever gonna come back?
Hi, dearest<3
I took them down because I wanted to. That part of my life was over! Simple as that. I won't publish them again, unfortunately, but I might do something else in the future, we will see
what happened to your fanfictions Stockholm syndrome& whiplash it WASN'T on your account on Wattpad i didn't read it please i wanna kill my self how i didn't saw it maybe I'm a bit to late.😭😭😭🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🙂🙂🙂🙂MAN.. please i believe it was so good like others😭🤓😫....................🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪( I'm so anoying right🙂🙂🗿). love you 💘🫶... muah...
Please don't use that kind of language too much, it's a bit unsettling :/ I don't know how I'm supposed to reply to it
I wrote them back in 2019/2020 and I took them down along with the others. Although stockholm syndrome was remade in like 2021 and stayed up for a little while and whiplash was taken down 2022 for editing but never came back because I lost motivation
Hiiiiiii i miss u so muchhh(im from wattpad). Ur stories r AMAZING, im currently reading TBZ become human and i LOVE it like WOWZING WOWZERS ITS BEAUTIFUL. I hope ur doing well rn and that ur resting and taking care if ur mental health, wish u the bast!
OMG WHY ARE YOU SO NICE 😭❤️
Thank you so much, I'm so happy that you like them (all of them lol) :((♡♡♡♡
Despite being wary of her 11 androids, Y/N decides to take them in when needing repair. What she doesn't know is that they're breaking their programs, one by one.
Genre: yandere, sci-fi, Detroit become human au
Warnings: attacks, creepy behavior, not sure what more to put :]
They come back to the police station in time for lunch. The human colleagues are gathering in the lunch room while the eleven androids make their way to their office to read some files. Gathering all information takes less than ten minutes, much quicker than any human ever could. Humans don’t seem to understand how they can communicate without talking. And they don’t either. They just do.
“I’m so happy you came to get me!” a man’s voice says — Y/N’s friend.
“I’m not only here for you”, Y/N sighs. “I’m here to talk to someone.”
Their heads turn to the glass door upon hearing her voice. They can see her walk with her arms crossed and him in tow.
“And to get me”, the guy sing-songs.
Y/N turns to him. The androids can tell how her anger is rising and boiling inside of her.
“You’re so selfish!” she hisses. “You knew I didn’t want to be dragged along to that fucking concert, yet you did! I came with you because I was tired of you whining every single friday. You never listened when I told you ‘no’! I thought that something with you would end your nagging. And what do you do? You ruin both our nights because you decide to get wasted and fight with a stranger! Do you understand how embarrassing it all was for me? And how humiliated I feel coming her to pick you up like I’m your fucking mother?”
“I’m sorry, Y/N.”
“I’ve bailed you out so just leave now. I have to talk with the chief of police.”
“About what?”
“The fucking androids I’ve created! If it weren't for you, I wouldn’t have met them yesterday and complicated things!”
“I thought you liked them.”
“Of course I do. I love them. Now leave.”
The man gives up and walks. Y/N sighs and runs her hand through her hair. She looks around and meets Jacob’s eyes. For a few seconds she freezes, staring right back before hurrying away. They look at each other before turning back to their computers.
After a while, the glass door to the office opens and the chief of police alongside Y/N enters.
“Can we have your attention?” the chief of police asks.
“Absolutely, sir”, Younghoon answers.
“You’ll be sent back to Cyberlife for repairs tomorrow morning.”
“We understand, sir”, Sangyeon says.
The police walk out with an annoyed sigh. Now he’s losing his androids. Y/N walks over to their table with her bottom lip tucked between her teeth.
“I’m sorry for my temper this morning”, she says quietly. “I didn’t mean to sound so angry.”
“No harm done, we can’t feel upset”, Jaehyun says.
“No … but I can … and I didn’t mean to be such a bitter bitch. I’m not a morning person. And I’m sorry that you had to see me scold my friend. I've cut off the contact with him.”
“Good, I think he deserved all it”, Eric says. “Don’t feel so guilty, Y/N. You didn’t upset us. You could never upset us.”
“Yes, I know that you don’t feel emotions.”
“Not only that”, Sunwoo smiles. “Even if we could feel emotions you wouldn’t be able to upset us.”
“Oh … uh … thank you. Anyways, I came here to tell you something.” She walks towards the table and Jacob pulls out a chair for her where she sits down. “It’s my idea to send you back to Cyberlife to see why you seem to be able to make your own decisions. But if they don’t figure it out, I’m allowed to work on you.”
“Us being able to make some decisions for ourselves scares you, don’t it?” Sangyeon asks. “That’s why you wanted us to leave this morning. And that’s why you want to solve this as quickly as possible.”
“Yes.”
“People are scared that androids will gain real consciousness and start a revolution”, Kevin says. “So you’ll send us back.”
“It’s just for safety reasons”, Y/N insists.
“Yes, we understand”, Haknyeon says.
She looks down at her watch. “I have to go now. I have to eat lunch.”
“What are you going to eat?” Juyeon asks.
“I was thinking italian.”
“From what the internet says, there are three italian restaurants nearby with good reviews”, Chanhee says. “One with 4.76 stars, one with 4.87 stars and one with 4.90 stars.”
Y/N nods. “Thank you. I will see you later. Goodbye, guys.”
She gives them a hasty smile before walking out.
“She doesn't trust us”, Kevin mutters, eyes following her. “Never has.”
And he’s right. Ever since they opened their eyes for the first time, she’s been cautious and has never felt comfortable.
“She’ll have to learn to love us”, Eric says. “She’ll have to realize that she’s safe with us. And if she doesn’t do that soon, we’ll have to force her.”
——♤——
Stepping into the lab of Cyberlife reminds them of her again. They sit down on the same chairs they did two months ago. Silently hoping and praying for them to not find out what’s wrong with them so they’ll be back in her hands again. The colleague that had been working with Y/N steps in. They already know what he’s going to do — shut them down, look at their memory card, check their system, check every cable and wire to make sure that nothing is wrong. Then he’ll put them back together. Weirdly enough, they find themselves … scared? They don’t want to lose any memories of each other, of their experiences … of her.
“Nighty night, androids”, the man says before pressing turning off the electricity they’re connected to.
Everything turns black.
When they wake up again, the man in front of them frowns deeply. The lab coat he was wearing earlier hangs on his desk and he’s pulled up his sleeves.
“I can’t find anything wrong with you!” he sighs. “I have no idea what is wrong … I’ll have to contact Y/N. She has to take a look at you.”
They perk up at the sound of her name. Yes please,give them to her. The man picks up her phone, putting it to his ear.
“Yes, I’m done”, he says. “No, I can’t find anything … I have no idea … yes, I think it’s for the best that you take a look … seriously? How will I- …? But- … yes, I get that, but is that really the best alternative? Fine … fine, whatever you say.” He hangs up and turns to the androids. “Okay, changed plans.”
“Y/N’s not coming?” Jaehyun asks.
“No …”
They look down.
“...you’re going to her.”
They all look up again, shocked.
“Y/N says that there’s something at home that prevents her from going here and that it’s more convenient for her if you go over to her house instead”, the man says. “I’ll get you there.”
“No, we know where she lives”, Sangyeon says. “You don’t have to. What is preventing her from leaving her house?”
“She didn’t say.”
“Thank you, we will leave now.”
The man nods and the eleven androids make their way out of the lab side by side. They know they shouldn't take the bus or their own cars. Y/N doesn't seem to have too much space in her driveway and the bus isn't sanitary. Taking a taxi will be just fine. They're automatic anyways.
In twenty minutes they reach Y/N’s house, too slow for their liking. Younghoon knocks on the door and Liv opens.
"Hi, welcome", Y/N says and walks over to them. "Sorry for the inconvenience."
"It's quite alright", Juyeon smiles.
"What made you unable to leave the house?" Sunwoo asks and scans her, but doesnt find anything. "Is everything okay?"
"Yes, everything is alright. I'll show you why I can't come to the laboratory."
They follow her into the kitchen where they find a little boy by the kitchen table, eating pizza. He looks up, brown, gentle eyes watching the androids. They scan him, finding worry, sadness and fear.
"This is my nephew Jay", Y/N sighs and gestures at the boy. "My sister had to go on an urgent business trip. I have to take care of him."
"I'm sorry, aunt Y/N …", Jay whispers regretfully down into his meal.
"Don't be, I like to have you here." She turns to the androids. "Jay has a hard time in school so I'll have to stay close nearby in case something happens. That's why I had to bring the eleven of you here."
Haknyeon walks over to the little boy, sitting down next to him.
"How old are you?" he asks.
"I'm eight", he whispers.
"You're a big boy then", Jacob smiles.
Jay doesn't answer.
"Are you androids?" he wonders, an ounce of curiosity sparkling up.
"We are", Haknyeon says. "Does that scare you?"
"No, it's cool. Androids are awesome."
"Your aunt designed us", Chanhee smiles with his arms crossed. "She's pretty cool too."
Jay nods.
"Just eat", Y/N smiles and messes up his brown hair. "They'll be staying here for a little while. Liv will help me look after you, Jay, but you know her. You like her, don't you?"
Jay nods. The eleven androids glance at the housekeeper. Day by day, they dislike her more and more.
"I have charging stations for you", Y/N says and waves for them to follow her.
They enter a room right next to the office where she has placed out charging cables evenly throughout the room. There are twelve charging stations. One extra for the housekeeper. If they're going to be staying here, they will be the only androids in this household.
"I won't be starting with you today", she says. "I want to have a clear head when I work with you and today has been stressful enough. Make yourselves comfortable, I will go back to Jay."
Wherever she goes, they go.
"Are you following me?" she asks after a while.
"We don't know what else to do", Kevin answers.
“I thought you could make some decisions for yourself.”
“We do”, Sunwoo says. “And now we decide to follow you.”
Y/N sighs and shakes her head with a small smile. “Is this how it’s going to be?”
“Give us a command then”, Younghoon says.
“Alright. Go sit down in the living room until I come get you.”
“Yes, ma’am.”
They obey, walking into the living room to wait. They can see and hear her walk around, gathering stuff. Younghoon’s eyes get caught on a few pictures hanging on the wall. Y/N’s family, her friends, past dogs, Jay and diplomas from her school along with awards for her work — one of them being from their collaboration. She's so proud of them that she hung it on the wall. What a precious human being.
——♤——
The night comes and Y/N leads the androids into their charging station. Jay follows, curious like a squirrel. She turns off Liv first.
"Y/N", Jacob says, catching her attention. "Leave two of us on. Someone needs to protect the household while you're asleep."
Y/N frowns, glancing at Jay.
"I'm not sure", she says hesitantly.
"Oh, Y/N, it's the logical thing to do", Kevin says. "What if someone breaks in? If we're shut off, we won't be able to help you. Imagine what someone could do to little Jay."
She visibly gulps and nods in defeat.
"Eric, Sunwoo … I'm leaving the two of you on", she says.
The two androids stand up and walk over to the door, over to Jay. Y/N turns off the others by plugging their cords into the back of their necks.
"There we go", she says with a tired sigh. She holds out her hand to the little boy. "Come on, Jay, let's get you to bed."
The two androids still awake follow them to the guest bedroom where Jay is staying. They wait by the door, watching how she tucks him in.
"I don't want to sleep", he whispers.
"Why?" Y/N asks, stroking his hair.
"Because … I don't want to go to school tomorrow …"
"It'll be alright."
The androids scan the little boy. He's terrified.
"Jay, what are you afraid of?" Sunwoo asks.
"The kids don't like me", Jay answers quietly. "They pick on me."
"Boys in school are always cruel", Y/N sighs over her shoulder. "They always choose one student as their victim. And unfortunately, that became Jay."
The two androids look at each other. They have to protect Jay.
Eric makes his way over to the bed.
"Do you like stories, Jay?" he asks.
The boy nods.
"I have a lot", Eric smiles. "Do you want to hear them?"
Jay nods again. While Eric tells him a tale about some of his less dangerous missions, Y/N walks out to the kitchen. Sunwoo follows. She pours herself a glass of cold water and gulps it down. He watches her, studies how her throat moves with each gulp and hands shake when she places the glass on the counter. She's exhausted, worried.
"Are you okay?" the android asks.
She nods.
"Don't lie."
"I'm just tired. And scared for Jay. I don’t want him to feel like that.”
Her sad frown is all he needs to come to a conclusion. He's decided. He's going to make the ones hurting Jay pay. If Jay being safe hurts Y/N, then he'll take care of the ones making the little boy sad.
“He’ll be alright.”
"How do you know that?" Y/N asks. "Can you predict the future?"
"I can predict a future I have decided."
Y/N lifts her eyebrows before turning around.
"Very poetic of you", she says over her shoulder.
"Thank you."
Y/N washes some dishes. SUnwoo can’t understand why she decides to do that instead of letting Liv do it. Can he ask it?
“Why are you doing the dishes? Why aren’t you making Liv do them?”
“To be honest, I didn’t want a housekeeper”, Y/N sighs. “But my dad forced me to get one when I moved out so I wouldn’t burn down the house.”
“Don’t you like androids?”
“I do, but I don’t trust them.”
He’s noticed that. And it’s pissing him off.
“Why don’t you trust them?” Sunwoo asks. “Have they given you any reasons to make you not trust them?”
“Why do you ask?”
“To make you comfortable and succeed with my mission in protecting you, I need to know.”
Y/N sighs, turning around to face him. He looks down into her eyes, feeling his artificial heart skip a beat.
“I’m just careful”, she says. “When humanity makes machines smarter than themselves, it’s bound to go wrong. I’m just waiting for it to turn out to be true. I’ve heard about androids that kill their owners and whatnot … of course I need to be careful now that I have eleven of you in here.”
If anything could make this machine burn out with anger, it’d be this. How can she even think that they’d hurt her? What is going on in her brain? Why are human brains so stupid?
“But you trust Liv?” he asks through his teeth. “An android you did not create?”
“I’ve lived with her for over a year now”, Y/N says quietly. “I know her … I think.”
“Exactly. You think. Other androids in the same model have been doing stuff to their owners. Who says Liv wouldn’t do that? Hm?”
He scans her. She’s growing scared and warning signs beeps in his head. Oh no.
“No, don’t be scared”, he says, placing his hand on her cheek. “I didn’t mean to scare you. I just wanted to prove a point. You don’t need to worry about us hurting you. We’d never do it. We’re programmed to protect you. Okay?”
“I want to go to bed now. Please let me go.”
Sunwoo nods and backs away. Y/N scurries out of the kitchen and into her bedroom. He decides to wait an hour before sneaking into her bedroom. He doesn’t want to scare her anymore. Slowly, he moves into the room, finding her sound asleep. Carefully, he sits down on the edge, watching her intensely. When scanning her, the only thing he finds is comfort and happy thoughts. She deserves it after today.
“The boy is asleep”, Eric says as he enters the room.
“So is she”, Sunwoo says. “Hey, mate, I have an idea.”
“What?”
“To get Y/N’s trust and succeed with our mission in protecting her, we need to make Jay happy. And to get Jay happy …”
“... we need to take care of his bullies.”
Sunwoo nods and looks back at the woman. It’s been decided.
——♤——
Y/N seems confused the following morning when Changmin and Sangyeon offer to follow her and Jay to school. One comes with her to and back and one stays with Jay.
She puts on her coat.
"Why?" she asks. "You know that there are people out there that wants to destroy you. Wouldn't it be better for you to stay here?"
"Our mission is to protect you and we can't protect you if we're not by your side", Sangyeon says.
"Be happy that it's not all of us coming with you", Changmin smiles. "Only two."
She sighs and gives up. They watch her take the little boy's hand and walk out of the house. Like guard dogs, they walk behind them.
"Aunt Y/N, I don't want to go", Jay whines.
"I know you dont", she answers. "But I can't let you stay home."
"I will stay with you, Jay", Changmin says.
"You will?" Jay asks hopefully.
"You will?" Y/N asks confused.
“Of course. He’s afraid, how can I let him be alone?”
“Oh … well … that’s very nice of you.”
“I will stay with you”, Sangyeon smiles at the woman.
They walk along the sidewalk. Jay holds Y/N’s hand tightly and pulls him back every time he tries running out into the road. Sangyeon and Changmin see a protest on the town square again. How can humans never give up? The government won't listen to them no matter how loud they shout. Do they have families to go home to? Why are they spending their Tuesday morning screaming in public?
"Fucking androids!" a grown man shouts at an android walking with shopping bags in his hands. "Machines like you don't belong in our world! Evil creatures!"
"Jay, don't look", Y/N says sternly. "That man is an idiot."
"Androids aren't evil, are they?" the little boy asks cautiously.
"Just like humans, there are both good and bad ones. The difference is that androids are programmed to be good, humans aren't. There's a higher risk of finding a bad human than a bad android."
Jay turns back to Sangyeon and Changmin.
"You're good, right?" he asks.
"Of course we are", Changmin smiles.
Jay smiles back. They can hint a smile on Y/N's lips, but it's gone as soon as it appears.
One of the protesters notices the two androids and they notice him right back. He opens his mouth to say something, but glances down at the child and shuts it again. The androids brains start collecting data. Humans won't go to attack when children are present? Good to know.
They reach the black gates of Jay's school in fifteen minutes. Y/N hugs the little boy and wishes him well. Changmin smiles and takes his hand before leading him towards the white building. Y/N stands still, watching them. Sangyeon scans them, finding sentiment and worry.
"Are you okay?" he asks.
"I'm fine", she smiles. "I just pictured something I wish for myself in the future."
"Where are we going now? Back home?"
"Yes, I have some work to do."
She throws one last gaze back towards the school building.
"What do you work with?" Sangyeon asks. "I have never been able to pick that up."
"I make comic books."
"That sounds like a very comforting and comfortable job."
"It is … which is probably why my sister asked me to take care of Jay instead of our parents. I'm not as busy. I decide my own schedule."
Being too immersed in her story, the woman doesn't realize she's about to walk a red light. Sangyeon, however, has noticed that the warning signals sound in his brain. Just as she's about to place her foot down on the road, he shoots out his arm in front of her chest, blocking her.
"Be careful", he says. "You have to wait until the light turns green."
"Oh, yes of course. I-I don't know how I missed that."
Embarrassed.
"It's okay", Sangyeon says. "You humans lose track of your surroundings, but that's okay. I'm here to protect you."
To prevent her from missing the red lights again, he takes her hand. That way, she can continue telling her story and let him deal with the outside world. The only thing mattering right now is her and him, nothing else.
"What type of comic books do you make?" he asks, wanting her to get into that excited head space again.
"Teenage drama, you know, the normal." She shrugs.
"No, I don't know. Mind telling me?"
She squirms slightly and he scans her. Why is she uncomfortable?
“It’s everything from friendship, to peer pressure, to betrayal, heartbreak and so on”, she says.
The information processes in his artificial brain.
“Teenagers like to read that?” he asks.
“I guess. I’m selling well so I have to be doing something right!”
She's … joking? Or something along those lines? He smiles although he doesn't understand it. It seeks to have been the right move because she relaxes.
"You can let go of my hand now", she says.
"No, we're not home yet."
They walk past the town's square again. The protesters are still there and they’re louder than ever. The man that had wanted to say something earlier finally opens his mouth.
“Nowadays, women even choose metallic tin cans without emotions over real life men!” he shouts. “They don’t have any human experience or emotions, what do they bring to the table? A metallic dick? Women don’t care anymore, they just want to get off.”
The crowd of android hating individuals laughs. Y/N’s mouth falls open in shock.
“What the fuck is wrong with you?” she shouts as they’re about to walk past.
“No, Y/N, stop”, Sangyeon says and switches sides with her so he’s a barricade between her and the aggressive crowd. “Don’t involve yourself with them.”
“They’re making fun of us both! I can’t let them-”
“Yeah, I get that, but you’re putting yourself in danger.”
“How cute, the machine wants to protect its owner”, the leader of the protesters says ironically. “Maybe it’s afraid of getting dragged to the scrapyard instead?”
“Oh he’ll regret-”
Sangyeon pulls her back before she can leave his side.
“Sangyeon, stop”, she says. “Don’t do that. I have to tell this prick that he’s an idiot.”
New mission: don’t stop her.
Why did that have to become a mission? He has to protect her! But he can’t go against a mission, can’t break the invisible wall. He wants to scream and curse for being an android. He wants to be a human so he could make his own decisions. He does not want to listen to this mission. In horror, he watches Y/N walk up to the crowd of threats and slap the man that had made the comment.
Sangyeon can practically see the invisible wall around him as he tries to mentally break out of it. He knows that the protestors won’t be happy with what she did and they’ll not let that go by. The second he sees the man reach out to grab her hair, he can feel the blue blood in his veins freezing. A weird panic is settling into his body. He has to move. He has to break the wall. He has to disobey. Has to fail his mission.
And he has to push harder. As hard as the cogs in his brain turn, he manages to break the invisible wall. Suddenly he takes a step forward. Everything feels … the same? But something is completely different. He can think! And now he has to save Y/N before the group beats her half to death.
Sangyeon runs over and stops the man before he manages to touch her. He grabs his arm and pulls him away. The crowd tries to grab at him and hurt him, but he ducks and blocks the attacks. Someone manages to claw at him from behind and Sangyeon’s LED flashes red. Only one thought passes through his mind. He has to get away from here now.
Thankfully, police come running and separates them. Y/N pulls Sangyeon back and when she pulls her hand back, it’s covered in a thick, blue substance.
“You’re hurt”, she says. “I need to get you home. How did you manage to …?” She shakes her head. “Nevermind, we’ll talk about that later. Come now.”
She wraps her arms around one of his.
As soon as they get into the villah, the other androids welcome her. They quickly notice that something is wrong by the blue blood on her hand.
“What happened?” Jacob asks.
“I got attacked by some protesters”, Sangyeon says. “I’ll tell you about it-”
“First we need to get you checked”, Y/N says. “You might be damaged.”
“I’m okay, Y/N.”
“I want to check you. Come with me.”
The android gives up and follows her. He’ll have to tell the others about his weird experience later. Shearing him into her office. The first thing catching his eyes is all the papers put up on the wall. Most of them are of them! It warms his heart in a way it has never done before.
"Alright, Sangyeon, let's see what happened to you", she sighs and grabs a napkin to wipe away the blueblood from her hands. "Why were you so stupid to run in like that? You could have gotten seriously hurt! And how did you do it? I told you to stay."
Weirdly enough, he can feel a spark off irritation grow in him. Why can't she see that he stepped in to protect her? Everything ge does is to please and protect her. But at the same time, he cant blame her for being so naive. She's human after all. She's not like him and will never be. But that's why he's here, to protect and make sure this silly little human doesn't make mistakes.
"I'm not a dog, Y/N", Sangyeon says calmly.
"You're basically supposed to act like one", she says quietly, eyes wide. "You're scaring me, Sangyeon. What is going on? Why are you malfunctioning?"
Sangyeon stands up when he notices how her stress levels rise. He has to calm her down.
"Y/N", he says, trying to be as non-threateningas possible. "You dont have to worry."
"Don't have to worry?" she almost spits. "Sangyeon, what if that happens during one of your missions? Your client could get in harm's way if you decide to do something radical! Do you want human lives to die?"
And what about him? What about androids lives? For the first time, he senses unfairness. He looks human, acts human … isn't he human? At least just a little bit?
"And what if breaking the system means that I'll save my client?" he asks. "Breaking my programming today saved you, Y/N."
"You … broke your programming?"
Sangyeon nods. That's what the invisible wall must have been.
"But how do I fix that?" Y/N breathes out. "How do I …? Do we reprogram you? But will you just break it again? None else have done this … why can you …? No other model …"
He decides to place her down in a chair before she faints. He kneels down in front of her, holding her hands in his. They're shaking. He looks up at her uncertain eyes wanting nothing more than to hug her, but he senses that it's not what she needs right now.
"Listen to me", he says. "You don't need to freak out. I'm not sure myself what happened, but it's nothing harmful. I don't feel bad." He gives her a smile, hoping it'll calm her down. "If anything, I feel better. I don't feel … confined anymore. I feel better."
"We still need to fix it …"
He nods, slowly standing up. Something is boiling inside of him. He doesn't want to get fixed. Somehow he feels better than ever. He can think freely and draw his own conclusions.
"Well … take a look then", he says quietly and sits down in his chair.
Y/N walks over to him, grabbing a napkin on the way. Carefully, she wipes him clean of the blue blood. He leans into her touch. His human.
Y/N searches for errors for hours but says that she doesn't find anything. Bingo.
“Fine, I guess that you’re off the hook”, she sighs and walks out, probably too clean off the blue blood that got on her hands.
Sangyeon walks out in pride to the other androids who demand to know what happened. He summarizes his day in three sentences. They listen closely, but none of them seem to understand the concept of humanity Sangyeon has gained. He tries explaining.
“You need to go against your programming too if you want to understand”, Sangyeon sighs. “But it’s so fucking hard-”
“You’re cursing?” Jacob asks.
“Yeah, I guess I am.”
“I’m becoming human!” Eric says quickly. “I volunteer to try first!”
Sangyeon smiles. He can sense that someone is coming up from behind and turns around to see Y/N. She sighs heavily.
“I don’t know what I’m going to do with you, but I think that you need to lay low and not leave the house until I’ve come underfunds with it.”
Sangyeon shrugs. “Fine by me.”
——♤——
When Y/N goes to pick up Jay from school later that day, Haknyeon follows her. She decides to take her car this time. He offers to drive for safety reasons, but she refuses. He tries going against his programming this time, but can’t. He doesn’t have enough willpower. He sits in the passenger seat and looks out the window for something that could help him go against his programming. He too wants to become like Sangyeon. He scans his creator. She’s stressed and confused. And scared.
“Why are you scared?” he asks.
“Because if Sangyeon could go against his programming, what stops you from doing it?” she sighs. “And if you start thinking for yourselves, where lil that lead? I don’t want people to get hurt.”
Haknyeon doesn’t answer.
Jay runs out to the school gates when Y/N gets out of the car. Behind him walks Changmin, calm and collected. Jay throws himself in Y/N’s arms.
“Did you have a good day?” she asks.
“They didn’t tease me today!” he smiles. “Changmin scared them off!”
Changmin smiles when YN thanks him for being there for her little boy. He can scan genuine gratitude in her.
"Let's go home now", she sighs and opens the car door. "I don't want any of you out anymore today."
"Why?" Changmin asks. "What happened?"
"Sangyeon-", Haknyeon starts but Y/N cuts him off.
"Don't say it", she says.
New mission: don't tell Changmin.
Jay talks the entire car ride about everything between heaven and earth. The androids listen closely. Y/N however seems distracted. They can detect fear. Changmin and Hakneyon meet eyes.
Ohmygosh i knew i recognized the username (love the new andriod fic btw💖) then i saw the bio w/ 'tbz & oceanliners' and was like yep that's them😊 (oceanliners is what made it clear lol)
I just went and saw your announcement after checking & realizing the books were gone. I just have to say i went through almost, if not all of them early last year and loved them. Your writing was how i finally understood what yandere & tsundere was and started to like reading it (and how i discovered hybrids was a genre{?} in fanfics). I cant for the life of me remember the name of the one i think i liked most, the one in another reality and reader/oc kept being put in either side w/ the different versions (yandere or tsundere side) of the boyz. The ending really got me and the whole thing stuck w/ me til now.
I find it funny more ppl who started on wp are migrating here lately, or that i also started writing/using wp at 12/13 and last year ended up here.
Ok im done rambling, sry this was long, this was just such a happy coincidence. I adore you and you're writing🤗 ok bye~!
haha it's those damn ocean liners giving me away
You're talking about Whiplash, I really liked that one too. It had potential. I hope to be able to rewrite it one day but make it much better haha
I'm just here momentarily, I'm going for New York best seller next lmao
I'm glad that you found me again, maybe we'll meet again somewhere else?
Kevin looks at the little girl in front of him. She’s hugging her worn out teddy bear tightly as she sobs, wearing a pink jacket. Her mom is a few meters away with Jacob, Sangyeon and Haknyeon, drunk and high as a kite while leaning on a brick wall with a pink LED sign above her. What kind of mother brings her five year old daughter to the strip club?
Kevin sinks down in front of the little girl with a charming smile.
“Hi, friend”, he says and pokes the fluffy teddy bear. “What’s your name?”
“Louise.”
“I’m Kevin.” He looks at the thing in her hands. “What a cute little bear you have. What’s its name?”
“Bearie.”
Kevin tilts his head. “What a cute name.”
“He is my best friend.”
“Do you see the guys over there?”
The little girl looks where Kevin points and nods.
“Those are my best friends”, he says.
The little girl's big doe eyes watch him carefully. He can’t understand why. Is he scaring her? He’s doing everything to win her over. He’s doing everything he’s been programmed and taught to do. He scans her. She’s scared, confused and interested.
“Are you an android?” she asks.
“I am”, he answers.
“Mommy says androids are bad … they take her job.”
“I’m a nice android. I’m here to help you.” He grows quiet. “Can I hug you? You seem like you need a hug.”
The girl nods carefully. Kevin places his arms around her and lifts her up. She puts her small arms around his neck in response. He starts to walk away from the others with his mission sounding in his head: take the little girl to the police station.
“Where are we going?” the little girl whispers.
“We are going somewhere warm so you won’t freeze”, Kevin answers.
He can’t feel the cold, but she can. Along with the scan of her feelings, he also saw her body temperature. Minute by minute it drops and if they stay out here in this cold any longer, he’ll fail his mission. His body is heated like always and he relies on it to keep her warm for now.
“Mommy!” the little girl shouts, but her mother doesn’t react or respond. “I want to go to mommy!”
Kevin’s brain stops. Should he lie or tell her the truth? After this, her mother won’t ever have custody over this poor little girl again, but he can’t tell her that, can he? That’d be cruel. But he shouldn’t lie. He’s programmed to have morality.
“She’ll come too”, he says. “We’ll go first. You have to warm up.”
He sits down in the backseat of the automatic car and it starts to drive. He holds the little girl in his lap, keeping her close enough to warm her up.
“Look out the window, can you count the streetlights for me?” he says, pointing out the window.
“I can count to twenty”, she says proudly.
“You can? What a good little girl you are!”
“How high can you count?”
“Not as high as you!”
Of course he can. He can count infinitives, but his duty comes before bragging. He has to bond with the little girl.
She eventually falls asleep on him in the car. Kevin turns to look out the window until they reach the police station. His human colleagues are in their office, talking to each other when he enters with the girl in his arms.
“Here’s the kid”, he says. “Louise.”
“Where’s her mom?” one of the humans asks.
“She’s with the others. I brought the kid here.”
“Stay with her until we’ve come up with what we should do.”
A new mission.
“Understood”, Kevin says and sits down in an armchair with Louise in his arms.
She sleeps soundly, hugging the teddy bear. He sits there for two hours before the others come with the mother in tow.
“Then it’s done”, the human male says, taking Louise. “We don’t need you anymore today. You can go charge.”
“And the girl?” Kevin asks. “What’ll happen to her?”
“She’ll get placed in a foster home and a nice family will probably adopt her.”
“Probably? Aren’t you sure?”
“You can never be sure.”
“What if no one adopts her?”
“Don’t worry about it. It’s not your job. Go charge now.”
The man leaves. Kevin gives the sleeping five year old one last gaze before reuniting with his friends.
——♤——
A protest against androids is occurring on the town’s square and the police send the eleven androids. They can’t understand why. Won't this only upset them more?
They reach the square and see how people with big signs are yelling in a choir. They're dressed in thick jackets with hats and gloves. The androids all around them are dressed in their workers suits. All androids are categorized and can be identified based on their outfit. Like the eleven androids, they're wearing gray suits.
"Leave!" a woman shouts at the androids that just came to the protest.
"I'm sorry ma'am, but we can't", Sangyeon says. "We're sent by the police. We're obligated to be here to make sure nothing happens."
"Oh, fuck off!" the leader yells into a megaphone. "No one wants you here!"
"We're not going to stop your protest", Changmin says, holding his hand in front of him to show that he’s not a threat. "We're here to make sure that no one gets hurt. We'll just watch."
"If you don't hurt us, we won't hurt you", Sunwoo says. “Fair?”
The man with the megaphone scoffs and goes back to yelling about how androids are stealing real humans' jobs, how they're untrustworthy and that they're too expensive to produce. That the money should be given to humans in need instead. Kevin remembers the little girl. People like her could need some money.
They stand around, watching.
After a while, something catches Juyeon’s eyes. He recognizes that beige coat. Y/N? Juyeon moves his head to the side to see the face before she disappears. It is Y/N! She's carrying shopping bags and walks towards the bus stop. Juyeon stares at her before putting his hand on Younghoon’s shoulder and moves his head. They both look at Y/N without saying anything, but they know that both of them want to walk over to her. She shouldn't be walking all alone like she's doing in this hateful world and those bags look awfully heavy. She hasn't seen any of them, but they wish she would have. They can't go against their mission, they're programmed to follow orders. But if she could come over here … then they could talk! He wants to leave. He wants to go over to Y/N and bring her home safely, carrying the shopping bags for her.
But he can't.
He scans her to make sure she's alright at least. If she isn't, he'll have to try to break his programming somehow. She's calm, neutral.
"These dirty scams are separating families!"
Juyeon looks back at the man. He has pulled up an article about their rescue mission last week on a holographic ipad. About the drug addicted mom and that five year old daughter.
"We saved that little girl", Kevin says. "Her mother wasn't suitable."
The humans refuse to listen. The androids want to leave, they don't want to be standing here and listening to these airheads complaining about their people right in front of them. But they can't. They can't break the invisible wall.
——♤——
A friday night. Something is bound to happen. They wait in the police station, sitting down on chairs, staring in front of them.
“Hey”, a male coworker says as he walks over to them. “There’s a fight at a concert … a few drunk men. You need to go there.” He shows the coordinates on his holographic ipad. “Go.”
The eleven androids stand up and make their way out to the cars. Drunk, fighting men is not unusual.
When they reach the concert hall, they can see that the fight is occurring outside. They hurry over to the group, separating them.
“Hey, guys, this is not how we should be spending a friday night”, Jaehyun says and grabs one of their arms.
“Fuck off!” the one he holds growls, trying to rip it from him to no avail. “Let me go, asshole!”
“No, I can’t. Do you have children, sir?”
“Why the fuck od you care?”
“To succeed with my mission, that information can be vital.”
“God, fine. Yes … yes, I have. Why do you care?”
“Do you think your kids would want to see their father come home all bloody, knowing what he’s done? I can tell that you are angry. Imagine if you accidentally kill one of these men you’re fightingg. You’ll never see your children again. And they’ll resent you.”
Chanhee and some of the others start checking up on girlfriends to the ones involved. The ones that had to watch something so unpleasant. His eyes wander around after more people that seem affected. A woman stands by the wall, wearing a brown shirt and blue jeans. She hugs herself, crying. Chanhee can tell who it is right away.
New mission.
“Y/N?” he asks, running over.
He scans her quickly, finding fear, disgust and stress. She’s cold and tired.
The woman looks up, meeting Chanhee’s eyes. The LED on his temple quickly flashes to yellow before going back to blue. Why is she crying? What has happened? He places his hands on her shoulders.
“What are you doing here?” he asks gently.
She wipes her tears.
“My stupid friend asked me to join him … that he had an extra ticket to whoever is playing tonight!” she sniffles. “And now he’s fighting with some strangers he’ll never see again … and he ruined the night for both of us.”
“It’s okay”, Chanhee whispers and hugs her in the only way they’ll ever hug her. Protectively. “Don’t cry. You’re not hurt.”
“Not physically”, she sniffles. “But I don’t know if I want to be his friend anymore.”
Chanhee follows her eyes to the bloody man in Jacob’s hold.
“Good”, he says shortly and glances down at her tear stained cheeks. “I’ll take you home. You shouldn’t be here. You’re freezing and you’re tired.”
He removes his gray blazer, placing it around her shoulders.
“N-No, you need that”, Y/N says and is about to remove it, but he stops her.
“For what? Stylish purposes? I don’t feel the cold. You’re shivering.”
“I’m okay, Chanhee. My jacket is somewhere indoors-”
“I don’t find it safe for you to walk inside again. You should be taken home.” He fixes the blazer to make sure it’ll keep her warm.
“Before we go, I need to get my friend …”
“No, you don’t. He’s going to the police station. He’s a threat for you after what he’s done tonight. He’s still very aggressive, see? He’s fighting with Jacob and Sunwoo.”
“I hope he doesn’t hurt them.”
“He won’t, don’t worry.” Chanhee places his arm around her shoulder. “Come on now, let's get you home.”
He walks with her to one of the automatic cars and helps her get into the front seat. She sighs out before telling her address. Chanhee looks at her the entire car ride, knowing that he’ll have to leave her soon. She’s tired, he can tell. That friend shouldn’t have dragged her out to that concert on a friday night.
“Is your life good?” he asks.
“Yeah, yeah … it’s good”, Y/N says. “I’m working and sleeping.”
“Eating?”
“Yeah, I cook.”
“Your health and safety is my number one concern.”
“Why?”
“You’re our creator. We have to make sure you’re alright.”
“What are you going to do after you drop me off?”
“I’ll continue my mission.”
“What’s your mission?”
“Right now it’s to get you home safely. But actually, it’s to stop the fight. I’ll go back there after I’m done.”
Y/N nods carefully.
“Are you happy with your job?” she asks after a while with her gaze down at her fingers. “Is it fun?”
“Fun?” he asks. “I don’t understand what you mean, but it’s my duty. I’ll do it.”
Y/N doesn’t say anything, but she’s visibly thinking. She dozes off for a few seconds before waking herself up and apologizing.
“You don’t have to apologize”, Chanhee says. “Sleep. I’ll protect you.”
She gives him a careful gaze before shutting her eyes. He watches her minute after minute, not looking away for even a second. They’ll be separated soon, he has to take in every detail, every flaw and perfection, every little piece of her.
When the car stops, he finds himself not wanting to wake her up. She’s sleeping so soundly, waking her up will be cruel. He could just carry her …
Carefully, he walks out of the car, around it and opens her door. Slowly, he places his arms under her and picks her up, carrying her over to the front door of the villah. She looks so small and fragile in his arms, wearing his blazer on top of that. He doesn’t want to leave. She needs him there to protect her.
He starts looking through her small bag before finding her keys. With her in his arms, he unlocks it and walks inside. It's dimly lit.
"Welcome home, Y/N", a voice says.
A female android walks into the hall. A housekeeper.
"Y/N?" she repeats and hurries over to Chanhee. "What happened?"
"She's just sleeping", he answers. "Are you her housekeeper?"
"Yes, I'm model AX400, she has named me Liv."
Chanhee glances down at her name tag, just below her right shoulder. When you name an android, their serial number disappears and gets replaced with the name. It's not fair that it hasn't happened to him and his friends. It's best that not everyone knows their names.
"Yeah, I can read", Chanhee answers.
"Let me take Y/N to her bedroom", Liv says.
"No, back away. I'll do it."
His grip on the woman grows tighter. If she comes closer, he’ll fight. Liv shows him the way to the woman's bedroom. Chanhee walks with a straight back and places Y/N down in her bed, tucking her in gently.
"I recognize you", Liv says. "You're one of the ones she designed, aren't you?"
"Yes."
"Follow me."
Chanhee watches the android leave the bedroom. He fixes the covers for Y/N. Something in him calms down at the peaceful expression on her face. Such a precious human being. Carefully, he makes sure she's sleeping soundly and comfortably before following Liv into a small office right next to the bedroom. Drawings and sketches of him and the others are plastered all over the room with measurements and features the papinter "can't forget" as it’s written all over the papers. He studies every inch of every paper, mesmerized.
"She worked on you for quite some time", Liv says behind him. "Day out and day in, never taking a break. She almost got burned out because of how much time she spent on the eleven of you."
Chanhee walks over to the messy desk and starts looking through all the stuff that lies scattered. He finds a self portrait of Y/N she drew two months ago. Carefully he picks it up and lets his fingertips follow the outline of her face.
The sketches and paintings he finds of himself interests him in a way he can't understand. It's himself he's seeing, why is he so attached to them? The thought of her putting down countless hours designing him, doing her best to make him beautiful … it warms his artificial heart. Putting her heart and soul into him and his friends without even knowing she was getting paid is something not a lot of people would do. She wanted to create them voluntarily. He has to protect her. It’s the least he can do back for everything she’s done for them. Without her, they wouldn’t be who they are — they might not even exist.
“I think it’s best that you leave now”, Liv says.
“I’ll go in two minutes”, he says. “I have to make sure that Y/N is okay.”
“She’ll be alright, I’ll take care of her.”
“You haven’t given me any evidence to trust you.”
Liv doesn’t answer. For a few seconds, Chanhee wonders if he should kill her. She could be a threat towards Y/N. He doesn’t know anything about this housekeeper android. He has no idea if there are any defects that could harm her or if it’s plain evil. No one knows what’s going on behind closed doors. Nothing should harm his creator. In this world of evil humans, she’s a pure being. The world doesn't deserve someone so unselfish.
Chanhee walks inside Y/N’s bedroom and picks up his blazer with his eyes fixated on the sleeping woman. He shouldn't leave. He really, really shouldn't. His mission is to protect his creator. It's his law. But she's not showing any signs of being in danger. What should he do?
He has to go back to the concert. That mission isn't done yet, he can't break the invisible wall that tells him to continue his mission. But he wants to. He doesn’t want to leave. Gently, he pets Y/N’s head. Her hair is so soft, so human, so lively. Everything about Y/N grows and changes. It’s interesting to him. He’ll stay the same for years and years until he no longer can function. HIs memory card will easily be put into another new and improved body, but Y/N will change and mold to fit herself. Her organs will grow weaker and weaker over the years and so will the rest of her. And he’ll be there to protect her.
“Please leave now”, the android behind him says.
“I will”, Chanhee says. “But I will be back. I’m going to check up on her tomorrow morning to make sure my creator is okay.”
“You’re more than welcome to come, but for now, I want you to leave before you wake my owner. I don’t want an android I don’t know and have never seen to be here when she isn’t conscious. Please leave.”
“Fine. But I’d never hurt her. Don’t even imply that.”
Chanhee looks down at Y/N one last time before being escorted out of the house. He looks up at the house, taking a mental picture of both the house and the address on the street to remember for later. He will be back.
The car ride back somehow feels longer than the ride to her house. He can still smell her scent on his blazer. Sweet like honey.
He reunites with the others outside the concert hall. People are going home and the situation is under control by now. They’ve separated the men into four corners where they’re interrogating them about what, how and when the fight started.
“Where have you been?” Changmin asks him.
“Y/N was here”, Chanhee says. “She is friends with one of the guys involved in this mess. She was shaken up. I had to take her home.”
“She was here?”
“Yeah, she was crying.”
“You didn’t tell me.”
“I had to get her home.”
“Yeah … yeah, you’re right. Good job.”
“I know where she lives. I’m going there tomorrow to check up on her.”
“I’m coming with you.”
Chanhee nods. Together with Changmin he walks over to the man that supposedly is Y/N’s friend. He’s bloody and drunk.
“You’re coming with us”, Changmin says. “We’re taking you to the police station.”
“I can’t leave”, he slurs. “I have to get Y/N-”
“I’ve already taken care of her”, Chanhee cuts him off. “Get up.”
The man whines annoyingly. Chanhee wants to tell him to shut up, but he knows that an android shouldn’t be disrespectful to a human. They drag him over to the automatic car he and Y/N were sitting in just thirty minutes earlier. Her scent still lingers in the confined space. The two androids sit down in the front and lean back in their seats as the automatic drives.
“You’re a friend of Y/N’s, aren’t you?” Chanhee asks shortly.
“Yes, we’ve known each other for two years”, the man slurs. “Love her, but she’s such a prude.”
The two androids glance at each other. How dare he?
“I don’t like your wording”, Changmin says warningly. “You should watch your mouth.”
“No, no, no, no, no” the man slurs. “Don’t get me wrong! Love her, love her lots, but she only thinks about work and never wants to hang out with me. I’m trying to get her loosened up but she never opens up.”
“Stop trying then”, Chanhee says. “She's not interested.”
“You don’t know what you’re talking about”, the drunk man continues. “You don’t know anything about human feelings … she’d like it … she just doesn’t know it yet. Humans do that. They lie to themselves. I know that if she just gave me a chance and actually let loose for once, she’d see how fun and cool I am. But she never wants to go out, never wants to meet people … took me hours to get her to come with me tonight and she doesn’t even dress appropriately! Who shows up to a rock concert in a white, knitted shirt and jeans?! We weren’t going to fucking grandma’s for thanksgiving dinner! You come in appropriate clothing!”
Chanhee turns on the radio to drown out his annoying voice.
——♤——
The word spread. By Saturday morning, everyone knows about what Chanhee did last night and what he plans to do today and they invite themselves in. They check with their supervisors to make sure they don’t have any missions. Upon hearing that they’re free until lunch, they set off for their cars. Chanhee gives the others the address before they close their doors. The villah is a fifteen minute car ride away from the police station. They pass by LED signs, people chatting and androids pushing strollers. A normal Saturday morning.
The cars stop by the side of the road and the eleven androids jump out and make their way over to the white front door. Chanhee warns them about Liv. Sangyeon knocks. Hoping for Y/N to open, only to get disappointed by seeing Liv at the front door.
“You’re back”, she states. “And you brought the others.”
“We want to see her”, Sangyeon says.
“I’ll go ask her, wait here.”
Liv closes the door again and they wait. Strong November winds roar through their hair and clothes, but they don’t feel it. Humans are hiding in their thick jackets, prepping gloves and hats for the winter season but for the androids, it’s just another Saturday.
The door opens again and the android steps aside, letting them walk in. Carefully, they step inside the hall, looking around. Liv disappears into the kitchen and they notice how Y/N hides in the end of the hallway, wearing a pink satin robe with her arms wrapped around herself. Their eyes fall onto her. She’s confused … scared.
“Good morning, Y/N”, Jacob says. “I hope we didn’t wake you.”
“No … no, I’ve been up for an hour …”, she says quietly, fixing a strand of hair that falls out from behind her ear. “What are you doing here?”
“We wanted to visit you”, Kevin says. “We haven’t seen you in quite some time.”
“No … I know. I thought it was supposed to be like that. I told you …”
“Don’t you want to meet us?” Eric asks.
“Well … of course I do, but … it’ll just make me sad and I’ll start to despise you so I think it’s better if we don’t meet. If we meet accidentally — like last night — then yes, sure … but you shouldn’t come here.”
“Why would you despise us, Y/N?” Sunwoo wonders.
“I told you before. I don’t want to grow attached to you. I’ll only get hurt from that. Besides … I didn’t make you for myself. You’re not mine anymore. Our … our collaboration is over. It’s for the best if we don’t speak too much.”
“Don’t say that”, Younghoon says. “You’re our creator, we still need you. We’re yours.”
Y/N smiles slightly.
“I really do wish the best for you, guys”, she says. “I hope you know that.”
“Miss, your breakfast is done”, Liv says.
“Thank you, I’ll be there soon.” She turns back to the androids in her hall. “I was about to ask if you want to join me for breakfast, but you don’t eat.”
“We’d like to sit and chat”, Juyeon says.
Y/N nods slowly and starts to walk towards the kitchen. They follow like dogs. She sits down by her table where Liv has placed out a plate of waffles and a cup of coffee.
“You don’t drink coffee, do you?” Y/N asks and gets a negative answer back. “This is my kind of charger. You have electricity … I have caffeine.”
“You’re not shaken up anymore”, Chanhee states.
“No, I’m not, thankfully. Just tired … and very confused. Did you choose to come here by yourself or did someone tell you to come here?”
“We wanted to visit you”, Sangyeon says.
“Voluntarily?”
They nod.
“Are you supposed to be able to do that?” Y/N asks, voice now cautious.
“It seems like it”, Sunwoo answers. “We can anyway.”
Y/N picks up the coffee cup with a shaking hand, spilling the burning liquid on herself. For a second, her entire mood shifts into the danger zone. They rise quickly and hurry over, taking the cup out of her hands and start to check if she’s alright.
“Stop!” Y/N almost shouts. “Stop it!”
When they don’t, she gets up from the chair and backs away, over to Liv.
“Please leave”, the human begs. "Something isn't right with you. I'll have to contact Cyberlife and see. Something isn't right."
"What do you mean?" Kevin asks. "We don't have any malfunctions."
"W-Well … something must have gone wrong. You're not supposed to want to visit me. You're supposed to follow orders. D-Do you have human emotions?"
"No, we don't comprehend human emotions", Sangyeon says.
"Then why do you want to visit me? How is that working?”
"You're our creator", Jacob says. "We just … want to. We can't explain it."
"It's only you though", Changmin says.
That doesn't seem to calm her down. Her anxiety is rising second by second. They want to walk over to her and comfort her, but her body language tells them not to. They can’t break the invisible wall.
"Alright", she says sternly. "I'm very flattered that you wanted to check up on me. I'm doing just fine. But now I think you should leave. I'll call Cyberlife later today."
The androids give up and make their way over to the front door.
“I’ll wash that robe for you, miss”, they hear Liv say. “Are you hurt?”
“No, no, I’m fine”, Y/N answers. “Don’t worry about it.”
The androids look at each other, with the same thought in their artificial minds. They’ll be back.
girl what happened to your account on wattpad? i was looking for your books bc i miss reading them. like i couldn’t find them anywhere i gave up but i went on here and i found you again😭
i know you said they were poorly written but for some reasons i still love them. I reread your books multiple times ngl 😭
Oh, you must have missed my posts on the message board! I announces that I was going to take them down. It gave me physical anxiety when I saw that people voted or commented on the stories that I wasn't happy with.
Mind you, I wrote them from when I was 13 — 17, so the earlier stuff (the stealer, crazy for you, the hybridz, Stockholm syndrome, dollhouse, whiplash etc) are absolutely not what I want for people to read of me now. When I was younger, I didn't have the same type of thinking that I have now, resulting in me writing things that I'm not proud of today!
I did still very much enjoy stories like The hotel (although that might have been a little too much for a fanfiction), Titanic (after i rewrote it), taken by the mafia (after I rewrote it), tame her, and heroes & villains. I'm probably forgetting some, but you get the point haha — the newer stories.
I still like all the general plots and ideas for the books, but the writing and some scenes is what made me take them down — and especially since they're fanfiction. If you look at an ask I replied to under, you'll see that it's a possibility of the books coming back, but in another way!!<3
You're the best writer 🤎🙌🏻😫✨ because of you i become deobi..One day I was on Wattpad looking for a fanfiction to read I saw one of yours and I said let me read it (stalkers)🥺🫂 I read the first part and said let me read another part i liked very much .
And I said who are the boyz after I went on YouTube the first song I heard was reveal😭😭💗...From that day on I became a fan of the boyz🙇🏻♀️👾🌿...................so thank you so much i really want to thank you because of you i meet 11 boys who change my life🎀🌚✨🙌🏻🥹🖤🤎💜💙❤️🫂🫂🫶🙆🏻♀️.......!
omg no that is adorable, thank you :(((<333
i'm so glad i accidentally introduced you to the boyz! They really deserve the world. When I became a fan (late 2018), they had barely any recognition and got around 10 million views per music video (or less? I don't really remember). I'm so happy that people found them and got them to where they are today <3
But do you ever think about republishing your books on Wattpad again?? Like yandere ones and non yandere ones??
I am a huge fan of your work and I used to find comfort in your writing after a tiring day lol (even tho it’s yandere. Ik weird) your writing actually made me want to start writing for TBZ! Especially yandere!
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oh, that's great!
that's honestly a hard question because i'm very conflicted myself. I really do love the plots and general ideas of the fanfictions, but the fact that they're fanfiction and that they're poorly written etc keeps me from doing it.
I have -- however -- thought about making them into real stories with my own characters. That way, I can really make them justice. I don't know if people would be interested in that, but we'll see! I am writing real versions of stories such as 'he wants them dead', 'heroes and villains' and 'the hotel' --- although not for wattpad, but for real life publishing (but I could too)
I really want to do this, but time and motivation and uncertainty of audience is making me hesitate <3
