The "Teesers"
Ok, so lets kick it back to around 8th grade. Right now I'm a senior in high school and its a scary thing even looking at my Facebook post from back then but lets try to remember.
I kinda use to be the biggest douche, swagget, want to be player. I guess it kinda worked out for me back then. Hell i wold say being with a good amount of attractive girls is doing well, but as i moved into the middle of freshman year i released i was a joke. I quickly nocked it off. A little to late for my reputation as a ass hole player as spread around the hole school. All the nice girls i kinda had a crush on hated me and even till this day the girls in my town don't treat me the same. I guess it serves me right. I am not even mad, i understand i deserved it for being like that and hurting so many.
Now that i talked about how i was back then I also wanted to add that i was also kinda a "tees", but i teased girls hearts by letting them get feelings for me that i did not feel back. I used the word love vary lightly. I wold say now I'm getting what i deserved. Sadly this is one of the only things i can't really emotionally handle. One day I'm talking to this girl, me taking every thing she says about me seres only for me to know that she is playing around with every thing i feel. This has happened more then once this year. I wold say a good estimate wold be around four times this year. Four heart wrenching times that i gave every thing i felt to a girl to only have it skipped on. I now feel vary sorry for every thing i did. Its not like i never did not. Just now i feel the conciseness intensely. Though i am not a religious man, please if there is any greater force up there I'm sorry i just want to meet some one nice that we both feel the same about. Well thats it thanks for reading if you did. Bye!