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The inside and outside skin, 2017

For me, the city of Seoul, where many people live, feels like a new natural environment for modern people. A city is not an abiotic, but a form of coexistence with the creatures of a city, like a large organism. In the course of various coexistence, cities change their figure due to various factors. I have seen the present Seunsanga which made from many of the plans and accidental things. It is still changing its huge body. While crossing the inside and outside of Seunsangs, it was the skin that came to me most intensely. Everything, including things left on the outside and garbage, and the various types of tarp that concealed and protected it, were out of the constantly changing processes and outcomes of the Seunsanga. In the course of the change, a lot of coincidence comes up with me.

At the meeting, I directly met the skin which molted by Seunsanga. They are already spitting out, but at the same time, they are strongly exposed inside. It looks like a subtle, petty part, but it reveals Seunsanga intensely. In this work I make intimate contact with the skin, but I want to cover it further. I try to give them anonymity once more. They will not be bound to one place or time. I want to release the skins that I have met.

#tios

Liberation and openness, 2016

By accepting my unstable appearance at some point, paradoxically, I was able to relieve some of my anxiety, But I could not completely give up categorizing and suppressing myself rationally. I began to think about liberating myself from obsession with reason. I live in a society ruled by a rational order and can not escape completely in that order. So even if I suppress my reasonably insecure inner self in order to comply fully with the order, symbols continue to be created and circulated in my society, and they constantly irritate repressed feelings and desires. I wanted to free myself from these confused points and dismiss my obsession with the reason I have.

I started this work with questions about my existence and identity since 2012, but I did not want to emphasize it. Through various body expressions and shooting methods, images of work do not stubbornly claim a single meaning or value.Through this ambiguity, I can break fixed ideas that were strictly applied to myself and I wanted to free me from its dominance, and I was willing to accept all of my unstable and constant changes. In this work I float and drift in a world that can not be defined clearly. I do not intentionally control me in the process of drifting, but just open. uncertain space and time, I liberate myself from my obsession with reason, and objectivity and reason in this work can no longer be a firm standard.

I was able to identify myself in this world, not in a fixed order, but in a constantly changing anxiety, not in conviction but in unclearness, not in a firm sense but in a broken flesh. In this work, I am not dominated by a firm rational order, but the boundary with the outside becomes blurred, unstable and contradictory. In the past, I could not acknowledge this contradiction and suffered or compromised myself, In this work, if I admit my subject, not the object, and recognize the contradiction, I thought that I could make my judging criteria free from the alternatives of internal subjectivity and external world. From this idea, I believed that through this work, I could truly break and liberate myself, rather than making a clear conclusion. With this idea, possibility and not limitation. I am only looking at expanding infinitely without concluding my work.

#liaop

it is all about me, 2016

I could not make a complete conclusion about my being because there is a great gap between my rationally definable existence I am constantly obsessed with and my insecure inner world that is constantly changing. In this situation, I continue to make myself rational in my relationship with others I tried to suppress my emotions and desires as abnormal and rationally categorize them. In this process, a deep gap was created between my outer and inner surfaces, whether I had intended or not, Whenever my inner mind emerged, I tried to define them logically and to stay away from the gap.

Since then, in a very wide variety of relationships with others I have experienced many times that the idea and boundaries that I have set up rationally have collapsed. Paradoxically, this has become an opportunity to accept the changing world, myself, and inner irrational feelings and desires as natural. At this point I once again thought about my identity. My social appearance and my inner struggle constantly made me up and made me now. However, it is impossible for both forms to be perfectly compatible. They assert themselves with one deep gap in between.

In my previous work I focused on me as a social being formed by relationships with a variety of other people I met, at this time, I wanted to concentrate more on my inner side. In this work, I did not just rationally explain what the oppressed feelings were wriggling, but just wanted to let it go. But just as I can not grasp the feelings beyond the gap , Even if I do not suppress my feelings and try to erupt, I was trying to show my dualistic attitude that I could not fully reveal because of fear.

#SI

It is all about me, 2012-2015

2012-2013

Since I was a child, I thought my anxiety and emotional innerness, which I could not reasonably explain, was an abnormality that deviated from the normal category.

Therefore, I thought that I could get objective recognition in the social order by showing myself in a rational manner without revealing my inner side in relation to others. And that it was a way to establish my normal existence.

However, the social order is fluid, and the relationship with others in the fluid order is constantly changing, and it was difficult to establish a solid existence in a changing relationship.

On this occasion I began to become obsessed with the rational definition of truth and my being, not my being in a constantly changing society.

However, it was impossible to ignore me as a social being and to establish my existence in a thoroughly reason - centered way of thinking, I fell into confusion. In this confusion I conclude that I can not be sure of anything, and that it is impossible to prove my perfect being, and I tried to express it as a work.

2015

As I said in my previous work, I thought my anxiety and emotional innerness, which I could not reasonably explain, was an abnormality that deviated from the normal category. So I began to establish my existence values through lies. Through that lies, I made a relationship with others and built my own world. But I was afraid of my being blurred in a false relationship with so many others in the world

So I wanted to define my existence. I could not admit myself in my relationship with others. I thought that I was not just a character who was a social being. In that dangerous false world, I thought that only I was true. I always felt great anxiety. So it seemed to me that defining my perfect being was the only way to stabilize me, I tried to define myself by building a stronger wall with the outside. But it failed, and I could not come to a conclusion either in work or in my own existence.

Since then, in the course of many painful experiences, I have been compromised by others and forced to accept others.Here I was able to admit that I was formed in social relations and could not escape from it. And I started to think about me in a lie. In fact, I am a person who is greatly influenced by others. Many experiences of social relations have made me up, and if this relationship collapses, I will become nothing. so I hide my frank inner self because of fear of that. I was afraid of the minor collapse of my relationship with others. Because of that horror, I lied to my honesty and desire, and I made myself suitable for the situation and made a wall between me and my inner anxious as a social being. Of course, all of the various forms I have made in relation to others, and the fear of hiding behind the walls I made are all my own.

The frank figure in me is constantly claiming herself behind the wall, but as a social being I can not express it. And even if I rationally oppress the inner side, they continue to exhale their existence. I began to work with these endless conflicts as natural. Recognizing the distinction between a world in which universal order exists and an insecure myself, I did not completely define my inner irrationality but proceeded my work by accepting it. I wanted to show myself as a social being with my insecure inner figure, Through the stubborn but incomplete wall between them, I tried to express myself effectively.

#ITSAM

It is all about you, 2011-2016

Most of the reasons why I feel fear about something are because I can not fully understand it. I have been living in a constant struggle to suppress my inner irrational things because I fear about that I can not fully understand. Of course, in spite of these efforts of repression, they constantly claim themselves, It is impossible to control it perfectly, but I've been trying to keep them down.

But the dream that I always dream of is the area where the control of reason is not fully understood. Dreams continue to remind me of my traumatic memory and make me painful. I have dreamed for many years of a dream filled with scary things. Because of this, I was rather accustomed to that dream, thinking that it was more real and vivid than reality, and began to confuse dreams with reality.

Most of the dreams call out the object I fear most or the object I miss the most. But the object I miss is shown to me in a terrible form, not the form I desire. But even so, because I could see what I wanted, I wanted a horrible dream rather than a reality.

I have felt endless helplessness because of the process of suffering for years that I did not want or hoped for, In this situation, I was fascinated by the dream I had and the reflection that resembled it. For this reason, I wanted to be more obsessed with my dreams and come closer to it. And I wanted to make a fantastic dream in my work. The reality mixes and creates a dream-like surreal image, I was about to reach a fantastic dreamlike image. But the moment I encountered them through this work, I realized that neither the image nor my dreams were clearly real.

#ITISA

Normal and weird spot, 2010

I had lived in a secluded rural town for a long time. There was a lot of neglected things and places that nobody cares about. Things and places that appear in my work are the ordinary things that are common there.

Then one day, while I was walking around as usual, the usual things that I did not care about suddenly started to look strange.

In fact, it is a place where there is a lot of common things that I do not care about. I started to look strange from the moment I began to care about things that were not seen before when I traveled around this boring place without thought.

In this work, I tried to take a moment when the routine space came to me strangely when I concentrated.

#NWS