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I’m here to report that jam jar cocktails are actually elite. Had a near empty jar of raspberry jam, not enough for toast 🥲 some vodka and cassis in that bad boy (would also work with Chambord. And gin. Or whatever you have really), give it a shake. Pour over ice and top with soda water. it’s giving mixologist. jk it’s not but it is giving Saturday night and not wasting the end of a jam!

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why is Greg James at Taylor Swift’s wedding? is he going to ask her her unpopular opinion???

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thank you everyone who commented on my last post I love you girls in my phone 🩷🩷

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We’re in the trenches rn. I’m very much struggling to find time for myself to even do basic things, like dry my hair, and when I do get to do that I feel guilty for not being with Maya. She’s no longer a little potato who mostly snoozes, she wants to play and practice sitting and be held all the time. I want to do all of those things too, but in order to have good mental health I also need to be able to cook, clean my house, go outside, have 5 mins to stare into the void. Those things aren’t happening.

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gonna sound like a beg, it’s because I am one. my husband’s app is going live on 2nd July, tbis is the instagram https://www.instagram.com/relieve_care?igsh=MXJ1bmdiNm42YXpxNw==

https://www.instagram.com/relieve_care?igsh=MXJ1bmdiNm42YXpxNw==

It’s shit right now because I am in charge and I’m doing it while being the primary carer of a 4 month old :) anyway. if you wanna give it a follow or even! download the app when it goes live. that would be crazy. also if you don’t want to that’s good too. I would very much like it to succeed because I think it will be genuinely useful for anyone with a chronic health condition, but also, its success would mean Adam can quit his awful job lol

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something is in the air because everyone is preg or engaged right now. our friend just messaged and she’s having her second baby?? we’re not old enough for second children sorry!

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left to my own devices, I’m actually very productive. It got to 8am and I thought ok, I could go back to sleep, but it’s actually the coolest it’s going to be all day (27!! degrees!!) so let me get some food in with the baby. so I did that, did the dishwasher, now I’m sat on the sofa watching hayu w a coffee doing the third feed of the morning. usually I’d still be upstairs in bed at this time, but mostly because Adam works downstairs and downstairs is… just one big room… and he has calls constantly so it’s not conducive to having a baby downstairs. I’m never buying an open plan layout house again.

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Adam has had to leave at 5:30am this morning to go to a meeting in Oxford, somehow managed to get up and do all his faffing about without waking the baby. Mind you he literally dropped his stainless steel water bottle in front of her Moses basket and she didn’t stir. 10 mins later and I rotate once in bed, silently and cautiously, and BAM. a little leggy wiggles in the air to say hello

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you solve the mystery of what to have for dinner one night and you think "hell yeah case closed forever" WRONG there is a dinner mystery the next night too

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don’t cancel me, but I think I’m going off coffees with syrups. all it took was 5 months of minimal access to Starbucks but. we did it Joe.

actually that’s a bit of a lie because I still think about their tiramisu latte all the time. bring it back!!

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also a separate post to say I’m really grappling with my relationship with my mum since becoming a mother. it’s 100% more to do with me than her, she’s objectively a good person and I love her endlessly!! all of that to say, here is a list of my gripes with her:

1. She is an extremely anxious person and vocalises her anxieties to help herself deal with them. Unfortunately this then gives me new things to be anxious about 🙃

2. She keeps saying things and then just like, not following through. For example, “what size is Maya, I’d like to get her some clothes”. I respond with “oh that would be lovely, she’ll be in this size next”. Do the clothes ever materialise? No. In the same vein, when I was freshly postpartum “oh we’ll send you some meals from Cook”. never happened. To be clear! I don’t care about getting Stuff from her, I have never asked for anything. It’s that she says she’s gonna do something and then it just…doesn’t happen.

3. When they come down she’ll make backhanded comments about not having seen Maya for ages, that Maya won’t recognise her or that because I’m breastfeeding she can only bond with me (???) but will never then ring me to arrange something. Or, it’ll be “we’re going for brunch with your cousin an hour and a half away from you, you should come, they want to meet the baby”. mind you, this cousin doesn’t want to meet the baby enough to contact me at all.

4. More empty promises, “oh we’ll come over and cook for you when you’ve had the baby”. To be fair, this did happen. Once. we had to do all of the cleanup after, and obviously had to clean our house before/after they came. Thereby generating more work. When they were here there were no offers to do anything other than hold the baby. they’re coming for a week in July and tbh I am dreading it, which sounds bad. It is bad!!

Actually with that last one I have to say, everyone except for Adam’s mum has been absolutely useless. She has done our ironing since Maya was born 😂 but every single other family member of ours has either

not bothered to contact us, or

come over just to hold the baby and been waited on hand and foot.

It’s kind of insane. And I know not everyone’s family is like this, because some of my NCT friends have had family clean their whole houses, cook a meal a day, the whole shebang. A Proper Village. so it does exist, just not over here it would appear.

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I’m actually sooooo nervy about weaning. the guidance is so ??? Like. The health visitor was saying don’t do it before 6 months, the NHS website says that too. but now new research has come out from allergists in the uk saying previous guidance is outdated, and you need to try your baby with allergens from around 4 months if they’re developmentally ready. doing this in Australia has apparently lowered the numbers of children with allergies over the last few years. I’m obviously particularly keen to do whatever I can to help her not be allergic to stuff, given my own struggles w anaphylaxis.

however. what does developmentally ready mean?? Maya is just over 4 months, but she 1. can’t sit unaided yet (how many 4 month olds can?!) and 2. and isn’t arsed about food (I’ve stuck it under her nose for a sniff and she couldn’t give less of a fuck).

The guidance seems to suggest waiting in this situation, but then as days go by I’m wondering if I’m putting her more at risk or allergies by waiting. In the meantime my mum keeps sending me stuff about allergies and weaning which is making my brain go 🚨 because. It’s triggering for me.

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Molly mae read literally one book challenge

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This week Maya has learned to grab Adam’s glasses and throw them off his face, or then start furiously licking them 😭🤢 and has also learned to thwack me on the tit and face while feeding. ow.

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deadbeat group chat member

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Why do I feel like I’m going to get told off all the time for just living my life. There is absolutely 0 reason for it, and yet. Also got to work out why when someone asks me if I’ve done something, my brain goes “well now I am not doing it”. Even when it’s something nice or that I have previously agreed to. Much to confront!

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also I just posted a TikTok LMAOOOOO cringe. but I have (no joke) 40 drafts on there because I recorded some videos when I was pregnant and I’m feeling quite #fuck it today. am not gonna show my bebe on the internet (present company excepted), but it could be a fun mat leave project to do some chatting to camera. Also I really enjoy @tinytinyvolcano ‘s pin videos and got fomo.