you’ve lost so many people. some you left on purpose and never looked back. some were taken from you, and you never said goodbye. you are the one thing i will never leave, you are the one thing i won’t let be taken from me. sometimes i am worried that i will say goodbye too soon or i won’t say it at all; i am always worried you will decide i am not worth loving and you will leave. i am so worried that i will lose you like we lost our mother– that you will be ripped from me or torn away or sent somewhere there ISN’T here. i am only ever homesick for the house i have built inside of you, the sound of your voice, the feel of your skin, the echo of your laugh. i am afraid to lose you because i am afraid to ask the one thing every twin wonders: when you die, will i still be considered a twin or will i merely just be a shadow of the part of yourself you left behind? && ANNABELLE AND ELDON PARKER. twin noun [C] uk us /twɪn/ either of two children born to the same mother on the same occasion.
