freak my stupid baka life

call me 8 vent blog i only post healed wounds/bruises, but ill still tag as sh so ppl dont get uncomfortable pro recovery, i want to get better anti recovery DNI. and stop reblogging my stuff for your cvtsp0 I REPEAT. DO NOT REBLOG

[teen8ngst]

i think… i might be starting to quit cvtt1ng myself. :D!!!

ive found a replacement that hurts more, but does less overall damage to my body and doesnt make a mess. yay! baby steps

to anyone out there struggling like me, you are loved and i know you have the strength to quit! <3

[thedespaired]

Me when I hvrt myself and it actually hvrts:

No but really does this happen to anyone else? I’m not talking abt how $h is supposed to hvrt but like your body is surprised when it does, if that makes sense? Like I’ll cvt and it bvrns afterwards and I’m like “oh ouch ough ouuhhh damn ah Jesus Christ fuck” or something like that. I know that it’s going hvrt which is why I’m doing it but I’m always surprised when it does for some reason.

[teen8ngst]

hate this house so much I hate everybody here

[teen8ngst]

god i hate being alive i hate yhis i cant even draw i ised yo be able to draw to make myself feel better bit i cany even do that

[teen8ngst]

warning 4 suicide under cut

im actually killing myself tonight. god why the FUCK am i so stupid im actually doing it this time i hate this shit. how much motrin does it take to kill someone

[teen8ngst]

warning for suicide on this post

i think i need to kill myself because holy shit being an autistic teenager in an age where anyone can film me at any time makes me paranoid 24/7.

also, shout out to autistics who love themselves for their autism, i can never relate i fucking hate this shit i genuinely want to die

fuck living fuck this school fuck allistics fuck everyone i fucking hate being alive i hate this shit