This is my 1st time writing something. I mean it’s not like I haven’t tried it before, I did but it never turned out to be as good as I thought it should be so as I can open it to the world. I never really had the self-esteem issues until I was 16, which is when I got into college. First day of my college was pretty confusing. I thought I knew exactly what I was doing until I didn’t. I thought making friends in college would be as easy as I did in school and I was right. Making friends was easy but making the real friends was quite challenging.
My first day, first lecture at 7:15, I enter into the classroom; take a sneak peak of all the people I’ll welcome into my so called “new life”. I being, or more like assuming that I’m this ‘hipster cool girl’, tries to find the crowd that I would fit into and eventually goes down and ask to sit beside this pretty girl, short,(and by short I mean real short cause I’m 5.2 )with brown hair and just 1 streak of golden or bronze highlight ,which is particularly what caught my attention and bright red lipstick. A little talk with her instantly made me realize I was nothing like her. Nothing like any of the people I tried to be friends with. And they were nothing like what I thought they would be. So the feeling of self doubt suddenly hit me; was I suddenly this shy girl or just not cool enough anymore? Was it because of the way I talk? Or was it because I have acne? Etc etc… And this thoughts bothered me a lot more than it should have had. That was the 1st rock thrown at my self esteem and I blame no one but me. From there I went on to explore more about people around me. This short road trip of 2 years took me quite some time to learn to practice self-love and on my journey I got more rocks thrown at me, I threw some rocks back, I took shelter under some, defended myself with a smile to cover that up but it was all worth it. I achieved a lot out of this but my greatest achievement out of this 2 years was I found the 3 or as u can say ‘2 and a sometimes ‘ most amazing ,smart, funny and cool friends with best memories to last for a lifetime.
So the moral of my story is pretty simple and pretty obvious:
The 1st thing I learnt was u cannot be out there judging people for judging others. That makes you nothing but a hypocrite. You gotta live and let live. And for that you gotta live in harmony and make peace with all kinds of people.
2nd is that there are people with different opinions and just because they got an opinion which does not agree with yours, does not make them wrong and u have to understand that. You don’t have to agree with them but u also don’t have to criticize them. You gotta respect their opinion and respect them as a person for having that opinion.
The 3rd and the most important…Might be a cliché but so important…I cannot stress this enough..”YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF”…It’s ok if you are not like them, actually it’s great that you are not like everyone else because you don’t have to be. Remember you are born different, you were raised different, you learn different things, you got different interests, and you made different memories…so what is the point in being same like everyone else now. Also, stating ’everyone else’ has got no meaning to it since there is no ‘everybody else’…No 2 people are ever the same. There are just bunch of people pretending to be same to stick together and form a group calling themselves the society. Because everyone is insecure and everyone wants to fit in; to be a part of this huge, great crowd just to feel acceptable and loved. May it be a lie but people would kill for the feeling. And for that feeling, people overlook the truth. The truth that we are all weird and none of us fit in cuz none of us is meant to fit in. Not even the identical twins r the same. They grew up all the same but they still see things differently. They got their own vision, their own dreams, all together their own different minds. And that is what makes all the difference .This differences within us that we are made to believe to be abnormal, unusual, weird and all other sorts of things are nothing but major reason for why we are so special and always have been. So my major lesson would be “HUN,YOU DO YOU”. Make mistakes-learn from it, do embarrassing stuff-smile through it, let yourself fall-build up through it, and let yourself go-grow through it. And on your journey help people and let people help you. But do not let a single being step on you just because you do not fit into the picture they paint. So…BE YOU!! And every next time BE BETTER VERSION OF YOU!!
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