I am not enough for anyone.

Tegan Harper. Always been a disappointment to everyone. Never good enough, never enough full stop. I can't look at myself. I can't take in what I look like. Level One. BDD. Depression.

[makakoa-kawai-blog]

[Lilith nods] You were the first one to talk to me here, even before the any of the staff.

I’m up for some re-bonding… As long as we don’t have to have pillow fights or talk about our feelings. I wouldn’t be apposed to you braiding my hair though, lord knows I need to fix this mess.

[tegan-harper]

I remember! You didn't talk half as much back then and you thought Wes was sexy. 

Re-bonding eh? Sure I'm up for that. I'll braid your's if you braid mine. [Tegan said laughing softly, laughing... gee it had been a while since someone had made her do that] How have you been?

[makakoa-kawai-blog]

Ahh… It’s the past, can’t do anything to change it, can we? Don’t worry about it.

[tegan-harper]

I missed you, we used to be like... best friends. Me, you, Mal and Nik that was the way things were...

[makakoa-kawai-blog]

[Lilith blinks] I suppose not…

I am surprised that you’re actually talking to me though.

[tegan-harper]

Reconciliation you know. I was a bitch to you.

I'm sorry Lilith.

[makakoa-kawai-blog]

[Lilith sits in the corner of the Rec Room, her knees pulled up to her chest and her head in a book. Her eyes glance up every once in a while, only to scoff and snarl at the various patients entering, and leaving the room.]

[tegan-harper]

Mind if I sit?

[mmorrisseys]

Fangirl Challenge [2/10] female characters: Naomi Campbell

[owen-organized-chaos]

I am okay. Better than before, maybe. I do not know. Do you ever find it hard to know how you feel?

[tegan-harper]

All the time, it's just one of those things when you're locked in an asylum. 

Try and tell me. See if you can gather the right words.

[londonbauer]

It’s fine. Not like you’re as bad as the therapists or anything. They get paid to pretend to give a shit. You do it because you’re actually a decent human being.

[tegan-harper]

Therapists just want to hear bullshit about 'you want to change and you feel like a better person' 

[lara--knowles-deactivated201310]

You know, I’d imagine so. That fact does kind of deter me from wanting to be buddy-buddy with them…

No worries though, cannibalism isn’t my thing. At all.

One can only stay in a room for so long. Either way, I’m glad you’re out and about.

[tegan-harper]

Some are... alright. Marku can be charming once you get passed him wanting to gnaw on your wrist.

Oh good, mind me asking, what is your thing? 

I guess they can yeah. Well thanks I'm glad I did too.

[londonbauer]

You want to know an interesting thing I’ve learned since I got here? Talking about things makes it so much worse. My business is my own, and whining about it to you will do nothing but fuck it all up even more.

[tegan-harper]

Oh I uh... I'm sorry. I didn't mean to f-force myself o-on you.

[londonbauer]

Oh yeah, I’m marvellous.

[tegan-harper]

I might be dim but I understand sarcasm. What's up?

[londonbauer]

Yeah. Well that’s what happens when you put too much reliance on other people, isn’t it? Hurts like a fucker. In the end, the only one you can rely on is yourself.

[tegan-harper]

Yeah. That's it exactly. A-Are you alright London you seem down? 

[lara--knowles-deactivated201310]

Tegan, what a lovely name. And no problem at all, you can’t be everywhere at once, you know! 

Still, the thought is definitely very sweet of you. It must be a bit stressful though, taking up that job by yourself?

[tegan-harper]

Thank you. I just seemed to have been enjoying being in my room recently. 

It's not all that bad, not unless it's the scary ones that eat people... they are hard to greet. 

[tegan-harper]

Made any new friends recently?

London is very nice. A-And that new guy, Z-Zeke? 

[tegan-harper]

Are you two broken up then? Is there anyone else you'd seek comfort in? Scott for instance? Or is there anyone else you like?

Yes. I j-just need a friend right now, someone who will help me through it all. 

[tegan-harper]

Thoughts on Scott?

H-He was my first... he will always be special to me. I... Uh... No comment.

[lara--knowles-deactivated201310]

Well, I’ve been around for a bit, so I don’t consider myself new anymore, per say…

But this is our first meeting, so yeah, I guess I am. 

Lara’s the name.

[tegan-harper]

Oh God how bad of me. Normally I-I am like the welcoming committee. Tegan, nice to meet you Lara. 

[tegan-harper]

If I said you had a nice body would you let me chop it into little pieces and keep it in my freezer?

Um...