half agony, half aftg

“That's mature,” Aaron said. Neil threw the glass at him.

[teisms]

Long overdue intro post ✨

🐦‍⬛ Hi! I'm Atei/Tei, pronouns she/them

🐦‍⬛ This is my aftg / yapping blog, I tag my fandom posts #tei's + any relevant tags, and my personal posts #teisms

🐦‍⬛ I follow and like from my main ablurofconquerors, where I reblog anything related to my chaotic mix of interests

🐦‍⬛ I sometimes write, ao3: Ateiluj

🐦‍⬛ Kevaaron enjoyer and aaron defender, multishipper, hater of gen ai, anti-censorship, and big fan of minding my business and not yucking anyone's yum

"The human embodiment of the people b saying things so definitively. like man i think it depends post" --my friends

[girlovid]

kevin day should’ve been an ancient greek tragic heroine and instead he got stuck in a self published 2010s contemporary sports/crime thriller… and he didn’t even get put on the woke team so he doesn’t know about estrogen or bisexuality

[fforsythiaaa]

Once when I was in undergrad, someone described something as “problematic” in class and our professor was like, “That’s cool, but ‘problematic’ doesn’t really mean anything. It means that the thing you’re describing has a problem, and in and of itself that’s not bad. Art, especially, should always have problems, or else it’s not interesting and not art, either. It sounds like you’re trying to say that this is bad, but you don’t want to say ‘bad.’ Is that right?”

So from then on whenever one of us called something problematic, he would make us talk it out until we could name the “bad” thing we were hinting at. In this particular class, 7/10 it was some type of oppression, and the remainder was like, “I’m uncomfortable because this is very new/confusing/pushing boundaries that made me feel safe.”

Once we stopped calling things “problematic” and stopping at that, class got way more interesting and... we all had to say, like, “that’s racist” or “that’s misogynistic” or “ew capitalism gross” out loud, which a lot of us had never done in a classroom before. Or we had to be like, “Uhhh... I’m not sure what’s so bad?” and confront our own beliefs and that was maybe even more useful.

Anyway. Whenever I see the word problematic, I can’t help but think of this professor being like, “Good starting point, now let’s get specific.” I think when we have to commit to saying “that’s ___” it requires a lot more careful thought about the truth and impact and complexities of whatever we’re claiming. Sometimes there really is some bullshit afoot, and also sometimes it’s art, and it should be full of problems, because that’s what art is.

[teisms]

Wish i'd had my tonsils removed as a child instead of having tonsillitis every other month as an adult

[teisms]

Last night in my fever dreams i became increasingly concerned about a cake pan i used yesterday and couldn't remember washing so i would wake up every ten minutes in a panic thinking "did i lose it??" no babe you're just hallucinating 😭

[spitzonthefritz]

this is going around twitter rn but im also super curious: please tell me your top four comfort movies that you’re always down to watch bc my friend thinks mine are ridiculous and now we’ve realised everyone’s version of “comfort” is hilariously different

[teisms]

Wish i'd had my tonsils removed as a child instead of having tonsillitis every other month as an adult

[rantabtaftg]

Idk about you guys but i think Kevin does pay attention to his teammates off of the court because he took one look at Jean's cross necklace and clocked it as Renee's

[lillapillas]

Neil hadn’t been kissed in four years

[tumblerislovetumblerislife]

an ao3 author is never late, nor are they early; they post precisely when they mean to

[butchandrew]

ik i rant about the wymack stuff a lot but god it is rough

Neil outright admits he stole Kayleigh's letter and has had it for MONTHS without Kevin knowing. Like, one of the only personal things he has of hers has been at Palmetto this whole time and now is being used against him.

And Neil outs this in front of the entire team and Neil explicitly switches to English saying that Kevin is going to go public about who his father is putting Kevin on the spot while he's actively telling Neil no.

(And this is after Kevin kept Neil's own secret for months on his behalf and literally just got choked out over it)

And like, Neil is right! The identity of who Kevin's father is has been a media spectacle since Kevin was born...because Kayleigh in her lifetime never wanted revealed. Like, Kevin would be outing something his mother never wanted to be public knowledge for several reasons.

The text validates that this is the right choice because Wymack is owed this information and it is "long past" when Kevin should have told him which feels so unfair. Kevin has no idea how Wymack would have taken the news that he was his father (canonically he doesn't take it well) and is literally on the run from his mob cult who wants him dead. If he miscalculated then he could be screwed.

And like, idk, I think if you want anyone to blame maybe it should be Kayleigh? Not Kevin who had no say in his mother's choice to hide it or his parents hooking up in the first place?

I think the worst part is when Neil tells the Foxes and shows far more empathy for their reaction to Coach being Kevin's father than for Kevin himself...and Kevin is doing this FOR NEIL.

And like I get it. Neil is a survivalist who would see this as something to use but the narrative and the Foxes at large all seem to agree this is for the best. That Kevin has deeply wronged Wymack by not telling him. And like...you're telling me none of the Foxes would understand Kevin and his daddy issues? The daddy issues team?

[fudemushi]

If you met someone with the same last name as you, how surprised would you be?

Not at all, it's very common

A little surprised, but wouldn't immediately assume a connection

I would be surprised and assume there was some relation

I would be very surprised that I *hadn't* met this person, we must be related

Does anyone else with this last name even exist?

Voting ended onJun 3

[saiintval]

Comes with a shelter tag that says "DO NOT SEPARATE"

[patitojus]

lazy andriel morning sketch

[magicalalienmoneyperson]

Elodie <3

[twohiddenhalves]

my gruesome twosome

[twohiddenhalves]

you understand

[teisms]

Thinking about aftg and how maybe saving yourself feels impossible but you can be saved and save someone else in turn.

There is wymack and his broken childhood, saving kids everyone else has given up on. But there is also renee being saved by stephanie and saving jean in turn. Andrew saving aaron and aaron saving andrew. Nicky being saved by erik and saving the twins. The kevin of it all. The neil of it all.

Brokenness not as a defining characteristic but as what allows these characters to see it in others. Being helped as the thing that gives you the roadmap to help others. Community-building as the result of doing what we can to spare others the pain we've been through, or at least helping them heal from it like we've been helped by those before us.

No foxes without neil, no neil without kevin, no kevin without andrew, no andrew without nicky, no nicky without erik. No foxes without dan, no dan without wymack. Etc., etc. There is a way out of tunnel and it's hand in hand.

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Voting ended onJun 1