i am so fucking bored of fandom discourse that is basically just stalking. no matter where i go online, there’s just dumb bullshit about the real lives of actors.
i just want this: i want to read fanfic, i want to write fanfic, i want to watch my show, i want to watch fun interviews.
i don’t want to hear about actors real lives or their friends or their fake instagrams or their parents or grandparents or whatever the fuck the discourse is. i used to have fun on twitter. i wanted to just talk to people about funny fic ideas or how Shane found his first dildo but nooooooooo my timeline gets flooded with bullshit about stuff i don’t care about.
and then awesome, i find more fic spaces, great! but people there are bullying authors. “oh i hate when people write this!” “oh some people shouldn’t have access to ao3” “oh im going to screenshot someone’s fic and blast it on fucking tiktok”
i’m so tired. i’m so tired. this isn’t my first fandom but i miss when fandoms were smaller and weren’t like…. allllllll this.
i don’t even think anyone will see this but if you do, can you tell me i’m not crazy? i feel so alone.
i want to write. i want to hang with writers. i want to meet perverts who love shane and ilya like i do. please. please. please. please get in touch. please tell me if you feel like this. i’m begging. please.
my ao3 is isto4u, come find me on there. let’s be freaks and let’s be friends