Today is Beautiful

Veronica. 20. Side blog. Main blog: blackandwhitewindows Non-recovery things are tagged as #otherstuff so you don't have to see discourse/politics and such if you don't want to

[aaaangel444]

[positive-platypus]

i hear your “slow progress is still progress” and raise you “sometimes you will find yourself making no progress and that is okay”

we’re human and we’re not always going to be progressing every minute of our lives, and sometimes we need extra help to get to where we want to be and there’s nothing wrong with that

[headspacedad]

sometimes its all you can do to hunker down behind your shield on your knees and HOLD that’s no small thing

[edo-vivendum]

Life gets better.

Ten years ago I never thought I'd survive the year, let alone ten. I was deep in my eating disorder. It was the summer before senior year. I was depressed and anxious and hoping my ED would kill me.

Today, I consider myself recovered. I am a semester away from finishing graduate school. I have been a teacher for two years, and I love it. I'm married and in love. I'm planning to start a family. The worst thing in my life is that I'm bored with summer vacation and my classes aren't interesting enough. Things are pretty damn good.

I struggled for years. I didn't just wake up and feel better. It was an up and down journey from when I decided to really try recovery in late 2014, through years of outpatient treatment, some residential treatment, a couple of hospital stays, and many different medications. It was hard, and there were many times when I didn't think I'd get through it. In fact, I didn't think I'd get through it until the moment I realized I was actually getting better (fall 2019). For a while, I thought the only way I'd recover was if I pushed myself every single day to adhere to a meal plan—mechanically brute forcing life. But that passed. It got easier. Then it became automatic. Then the eating disorder thoughts and urges became a thing of the past.

I've had almost five years of being stable in recovery, and life gets so much better. I can enjoy the little things. I can get through hard moments, knowing they're only temporary.

Anyways, keep trying. Keep pushing. Eventually it gets easier.

[neptunes-cunt]

i love you consistent meals i love you steady blood sugar i love you little snacks i love you non-diet foods i love you full-fat yogurt i love you sugary drinks i love you intuitive eating i love you full stomach i love you breaking free from diet culture i love you body that just wants to keep me alive

[healing-is-cool]

This one hurt a bit, as a lot of my humor is connected to my trauma and depression.

But I had this realization the other day. Healing allows you to become a real person, to develop an actual personality, instead of creating one based off coping mechanisms.

[colormush]

[selfcare-journey]

Remember you are a human first. Before you’re an employee, a student, a cook, an artist, you’re a human being who deserves love, compassion, and understanding.

[chibird]

A new year can sometimes feel like a lot of pressure to make big things happen! But you don’t have to make big plans or resolutions if you don’t want to! Live your life the way you want, and make changes at a pace and style that works for you! 💛

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[resiliencewithin]

I am healing for me.

I am not healing for work. I am not healing to return to being a productive member of society.

I am healing for my own stability, wellness, health and contentment.

[socialworker-rebecca]

[savannahlemur]

No No No! 🙀 Don’t take your hands. I feel so comfy. 💕🐊

[johnthedragon]

HOW CAN SOMETHING BE THIS CUTE

[daddywhorebucks]

What a unique dog

[hairstylesbeauty]

[probablyygay]

putting myself first lately … feels fckn great

[zaynsmiles-deactivated20190301]

no one tells you that Adulthood is faking it til you make it and finding joy in things like cleaning out your closet or managing to buy candles 50% off

[romanticnihilists]

[positivelyg4y]

[thegoodvybe]