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mmmm but indulging myself gives me such a rush

… this might have been one of those, as i’ve called it, terrible ideas

#every now and then i get the urge to talk to x but i really shouldn’t and it really was my own decision to put distance between us which #led to several tremendous albeit expected arguments which detrimental effects to whatever was going on #and i don’t know who in my life believes me at this point when i say i really had no such intentions #and i don’t #know #what i want at this point #i kinda want things to go back to normal and speak to them normally and all but then again i really don’t wanna do them this favour #and also #all my friends who care for me too much will be seriously disappointed in me

first things first addressing the elephant in my own room, the one i’m forced to stay in, the one i have locked myself in and melted away the key only to use the remains to make shackles and put my own hands in. I feel as if i have all the freedom in the world to do as i like but I am uncomfortably caught in between, who i am and who i’ve been, in contrast to who i am expected to be and who i genuinely think i should be. All of my decisions are second guessed by myself and everyone else, all I do I regret and whatever i want to do seems like a terrible terrible idea.

#k rambles #whatever

i have been notoriously attracted to the idea of regression these days, and this, dear reader, is the epitome. Brought back my tumblr blog no one knows about to complain and nag and overthink. Cheers

From the thought cauldron

in another life we are sitting together by the beach

i pick up a rock and throw it in the water,

its slow tapping parallels the soft touches of a lover

in another life you’re the person i hold dear, there’s no remorse no obstacles no fear

in another life you’re by my side,

fighting my battles, eradicating my demons and fright

in another life when my demons win and i gasp for air,

you’re there by my side

whispering prayers on my skin and petting my hair

in another life you’re not on your own,

i’m real and breathing, flesh and bone

in another world,

when i’m not disqualified at being yours,

when our battles are over,

when we’ve won all our wars,

please hold me close, drop the weapons,

the war is won, the future grows

#poems and quotes #my poem #silly words #poetry #text post #my silly thoughts #no one hurt me i’m just angsty and a doomer #aesthetic #wordsnquotes

i wanna post silly writings but then i remember my main is a dnp blog

fryeshiverbigman-deactivated202

hmm... *gets in evil bed and holds my evil stuffed animal* evil night.. *turns off my fucked up evil lamp*

#literally me no one gets it #aesthetic #my chaotic evil entp ass

dresdendoja-deactivated20190516

mamoru

yes I DO live under a rock and her name is the Moon and she is always smiling but she teaches me nothing

marctanphoto

#aesthetic

fromdarzaitoleeza

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of SylviaPlath

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"I wish I knew what to do with my life, what to do with my heart...I do nothing all day, boredom settles in, I look at the sky so I get to feel even smaller than I already feel and my mind keeps poisoning itself uselessly." ]

#reaaaaaaaaal