variations of here

celeste & janina singapore / manila / the internet

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fragment 48, sappho (trans. anne carson) / c in taipei - jan 2020 / i like my body when it is with your, e.e. cummings

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Marc Chagall, Blue Landscape

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The Voyage Out, Virgina Woolf | On A Sunbeam, Tillie Walden | Domestic, Carl Phillips | D.E.B.S. (2004, Angela Robinson)

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fragment 48, sappho (trans. anne carson) / c in taipei - jan 2020 / i like my body when it is with your, e.e. cummings

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want, joan larkin

8-bit stories

dakota, forests

tape measures

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dear celeste, 

my only wish for today is for us to be able to sit alone together and i am looking forward to the day when we can do so in person once again.  

charlotte ager / alone, from days with frog and toad by arnold lobel / sarcophagus of the spouses 

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In Trust by Thom Gunn | On A Sunbeam by Tillie Walden

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dear celeste, 

my only wish for today is for us to be able to sit alone together and i am looking forward to the day when we can do so in person once again.  

charlotte ager / alone, from days with frog and toad by arnold lobel / sarcophagus of the spouses 

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kiki’s delivery service (1989 dir. hayao miyazaki)

i think you’re alright, jay som

in your room, 1 march 2020

internet dating, kim addonizio

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janina – happy four months. sleep divides us past from present, one day and the next. i wish you good, comfortable, deep sleep, i wish you restful mornings, so that you will be ready for whatever comes your way.

welcome to night vale

le lit, henri toulouse-lautrec

futile devices, sufjan stevens

lesbian beds, tammy rae carland

a day of summer by betty miles, illustrated by remy charlip

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from because one is always forgotten, carolyn forché

teem (2017), apichatpong weerasethakul

hand in hand, taipei (jan 2020) & manila (feb 2020)

from poem for haruko, june jordan 

hand, manila (april 2020) 

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Roland Barthes, A Lover’s Discourse

Egon Schiele

Hiding, Florence + the Machine

[ janina – over the last few days i have moved through everything in a fog. i wish i could hold your hand today, more so than all other days. i’m sorry i cannot meet your sadness halfway. ]

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fade into you - mazzy star

i want to hold the hand inside you

i want to take a breath that’s true

i look to you and see nothing

i look to you to see the truth

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from because one is always forgotten, carolyn forché

teem (2017), apichatpong weerasethakul

hand in hand, taipei (jan 2020) & manila (feb 2020)

from poem for haruko, june jordan 

hand, manila (april 2020) 

[tendersteps]

Roland Barthes, A Lover’s Discourse

Egon Schiele

Hiding, Florence + the Machine

[ janina -- over the last few days i have moved through everything in a fog. i wish i could hold your hand today, more so than all other days. i’m sorry i cannot meet your sadness halfway. ]

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from because one is always forgotten, carolyn forché

teem (2017), apichatpong weerasethakul

hand in hand, taipei (jan 2020) & manila (feb 2020)

from poem for haruko, june jordan 

hand, manila (april 2020) 

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1. ponyo, dir. hayao miyazaki (2008)
2. blessing the boats, by lucille clifton (at st mary’s)
3. portrait of a lady on fire, dir. céline sciamma (2019) 
4. the water, by johnny flynn and laura marling
5. seaside, georgette chen
6. from portrait of the alcoholic stranded on a desert island, by kaveh akbar

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janina -- happy four months. sleep divides us past from present, one day and the next. i wish you good, comfortable, deep sleep, i wish you restful mornings, so that you will be ready for whatever comes your way.

welcome to night vale

le lit, henri toulouse-lautrec

futile devices, sufjan stevens

lesbian beds, tammy rae carland

a day of summer by betty miles, illustrated by remy charlip

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ethan chua, dila:

speaking in tongues, talking heads

anne carson, interview

chaia heller, after language

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dear celeste, sayang, sinta ko,

i would include that one portrait of a lady on fire frame but at this point i think we both know it so well it no longer needs to be said out loud. in this world it seems that our english can never be enough. because of this i am grateful for all the other words that fill the gaps, and for all the ones that we get to share with each other. 

landscape (mookie katigbak-lacuesta) / syntax, from rapture (carol ann duffy) 

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on diasporic intimacy, svetlana boym

naudline pierre

r/ifyoulikeblank

strawberry blonde, mitski

letter to ana sofía

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from lathe of heaven (ursula k. le guin) / from letters to milena (franz kafka)

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ethan chua, dila:

speaking in tongues, talking heads

anne carson, interview

chaia heller, after language

[tendersteps]

on diasporic intimacy, svetlana boym

naudline pierre

r/ifyoulikeblank

strawberry blonde, mitski

letter to ana sofía