The Journey to Eternity

Just then someone came up and asked Him, “Teacher, what good must I do to have eternal life?” Matthew 19:16

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I’m crap at keeping a blog. It doesn’t help that I don’t follow anyone... or have any followers.

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Had such a lovely day with my mum. She took me on an extravagant shopping trip for my christmas present, with delicious food for lunch, and finished off with a sight I've not seen in years; A murmuration (aka, a huge group of starlings swooping about in the air like a wave). Absolutely beautiful and the perfect way to end a wonderful, wonderful day.

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Lying next to him in the dark, just listening to his peaceful breathing. I feel at home. :)

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Sex. No... Making love. It's just... So right. So perfect. Being one with the guy I love is happiness enough to make any day.

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Day 2: Arriving home and knowing that right behind that door is the love of your life.

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Sunshine finally broke out today after days of overcast weather. Was a great lift to my spirits in my lunch break.

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Alrighty then! New year. Fresh enthusiasm. Determined to document the splashes of happiness I find in my life. Not strictly the #100happydays thing but inspired by it. :)

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I still feel like a child pretending to be a grown-up. I hope I can become 'mature' in the true sense of the word rather than the joyless version.

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" 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. 34“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

Matthew 6:31-34 (ESV)

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Happiness I have the most incredible boyfriend. Or as I like to refer to him: My 'Partner in crime'. I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with him.

My God will never give up on me no matter how incredibly foolish I act and am. I only pray that he will enable my silly selfish heart to gain some wisdom through the trail and error that is life. My family are also my best friends. When I see how others struggle with theirs it gives me the perspective to know that this simple fact is a blessing.

Sadness

My boyfriend does not know God... and I am terrified for him. I so desperately want him to know God for who he is.

My family will never understand my decision to sleep with my boyfriend. Or I don't think they will, anyway. Either way, it is a lie I must act out whenever I am with them.

The Future

I will, by the grace of God, become ever wiser and love ever more deeply with every passing day. Life can make you bitter and cynical. I've had a taste of that and it's not who I want to be.

Mike will, by the grace of God, come to know the one who gave everything to save him.

I will keep to the path that I feel God set me on at a young age. I know I will lose my passion for it without Him.

My Life

All the happiness in my life comes from God.

All the sadness in my life comes from a lack of acceptance of God in one form or another. Definitely including my own.

All my hopes for the future rely on God. It is a relief to know that this chaotic and stressful time is all in Gods hands. And he keeps his promises.

" 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

34“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."                                                                 - Matthew 6:31-34

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Protect Feels, Kill Debate

When institutions of higher learning would rather not debate touchy subjects due to not wanting to hurt some peoples ‘feewings’, then you know something is seriously wrong with society.

Frank debate has always been one of the major catalysts for change; it has helped to flesh out concepts, refine ideas and allowed idealogues to see beyond the prism of their world view and entertain the possibility of other avenues.

Remove this tool from people, especially the young, and you run the risk of causing an acceptance of the status quo reflected by a populace overly compliant to the whims of those in power. We already see it happening.

When questions are no longer asked and ideas no longer exchanged, solutions to pressing problems are no longer going to be forthcoming. That can never be healthy for any society in the long run.

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Prove yourself  The message repeated to you for 17 years. You enter the education system barely able to hold a pen correctly and pop out the other end with a Degree. Weary and emotional, you have finally made it. You are proud. Your parents are proud. The institution is proud. The greatest achievement of your life so far. You have Proven Yourself. But wait... Now what? There is nothing. Nobody wants you. They lied. There is no job. You lost days of sleep. You battled with anxiety, confidence issues and isolation. You sacrificed years of your life because they told you it would mean something. But it didn't. So you go down to the Job Center and you join the queue. You queue to beg the government for money. Confused. Resentful. Shamed. You are no more capable of providing for yourself than a stray begging for scraps.

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So you say “Capitalism is the only system that works?”

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#day 7 - went home for the day for a dentists appointment and stayed for dinner with my family. Now speeding back to Mike on the train and appreciating the GORGEOUS clouds! :)

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#day 6 - Ahh! Im so relieved! Thought I'd missed out on grad ball after I left getting the tickets really late. But nope! Even got a place on the same coach as my friends. :D

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#day 5 - first time back at training in over a month! I"ve missed it so. :)

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#day 4 - Yep, it's a picture of the dark. Been an up and down day. I upset mike for the first time ever, and it really got to me that i could be so careless. My happy moment, however, is that he forgave me my thoughtlessness, and is currently snoring beside me in the dark. :)