Terra Jewel

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i imagine enclosing you inside of me to keep your body so tight within mine that you can’t leave you’ll be stuck yet so used to the pain that you just can’t leave to tighten your chest with the hurt my heart feels swell your tongue with the words i don’t allow myself to say. to blacken your eyes so deep that from the stories i see in my uncontrolled mind, you will lose your sight

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i’m tired of names titles of people that scare me stories that are made to be judged because judgment is what fuels a society of lost language i dance on nights where i feel lonely i should be dancing right now but you are sitting elsewhere and i am over here in a whole new world that i simply do not want to be in without you

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your light looks like sugar outlining a soul with a lost heart. particles sprinkled around such broadness of a body. i blame myself i tell you as you trace your finger up and down my spine i shouldn’t have come back it’s alright, you say. i’m glad you did.

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gum is stuck in my hair carnival cotton candy stuck to my fingers i lick the stickiness off and listen to the pianos. i see you i hear you, as your voice creates a vibrancy on stage. i feel you, as your hair is brushing against my shoulders making me listen away from the music and toward the lush feeling of seduction. seduction created from anger, walls, and misunderstanding. at least in my opinion, you say. that's just what i think. i feel your hands on my hips when i'm standing on my tip toes trying to get a brighter view pushing me down. my ears feel tired the angels above me, feel exhaustion from chasing the music videos i play in my mind their wings lay in a field of greens, purples, blues and pinks wondering why what they’ve given me isn’t enough. i don’t know what i’m looking for, i reply. but i’m content enough right now, to keep my spirit alive. and though my words will not be enough. that is what i think. that’s just enough for me. enough for who i am at this moment. for who i need by my side.

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[terrathewriter]

i knew i was screwed when i grew to not know the difference between denial of the truth and invalidating an anxious thought

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a soft wind cleanses my palette the more growth wants to embrace me the more i fear change i run and run suffer through the unpleasant patterns looking to find my laughter and comfort thinking i won’t ever have it again as if it was so loud and warm the last time never wanting old memories to forget me convincing my mind happiness only comes from them

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[terrathewriter]

you are too good to me feeding me kisses on my cheeks lifting me into cozy embraces loving me you are too good to me holding my belly at night begging me to let me let you be here for me you are too good roses are my favourite flowers please don’t pick them for me

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your depth of understanding folds into my curves so warmly every touch leaves me in isolation and everytime you say you’re seeing someone else i cannot help but feel sad i cannot help but feel sad

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[terrathewriter]

twisting me with every back pocket twirl using your charm and wishful thinking to get what you want kiss me oh shut up i’m only your lover with a question mark i’ll sit in bed all night wide awake talking to my diary calming my mind with boundaries i plan to set and yet kiss me oh shut up i am the one who always ends up leaning in

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“I don’t want him to want me because he’s lonely. I want him to want me because he wants me.”

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Learning how to be a woman

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[terrathewriter]

"I keep blaming you for holding onto my heart too tightly. Sometimes I wonder if I, I am the one holding too tightly, and you're just staring too directly into my eyes and only seeing breasts."

This is where I cry and think I am going crazy.

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[terrathewriter]

If the ocean promised to keep afloat my skin and protect me with the sweet taste of honey; imagine how sweet I could make a morning’s cup of tea

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"I kiss my knees every night...just to remind myself of how lucky I am to be the keeper of such sweet, sweet nectar."

We are our own queen bees

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"Underneath all of that anger is only pain. Birds know things no human will ever reach the heights of knowing. Grip onto my back, holding tightly around my quilted neck and let my wings carry you over your flowers. Let your tears mend to your garden and embrace the sensuality that comes with being alive. "

Love is only a heartbeat away

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[terrathewriter]

If he only wants you at 2am when he’s lonely, He’s not deserving of your delicate body and sugar coated words

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[terrathewriter]

I don’t want him to want me because he’s lonely. I want him to want me because he wants me.

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Learning how to be a woman

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