Here goes nothing..
First of all please be kind, this is my first ever attempt at anything like this.
Where do I start? - today’s been a rough day. Anxiety level 85/100. I can’t seem to take my mind off of the fact that #coronavirus is taking the lives of sooo many people all over the world and there’s nothing I can do about it other than keep my distance, wash my hands and don’t travel unless essential. But still even when in isolation at home, I can’t help but over think everhthing. Does anybody else feel like this is all just a horrible dream and that any moment now you’ll wakeup? I wish it was that easy.
As a young adult that suffers with anxiety and health ocd, I can’t help but assess myself 24/7 and through this end up convincing myself I’m unwell. The slightest niggle in my chest, the pain in my head, the sneezing and runny nose.. it sounds SOO stupid but I can’t stop. I’d like to say my brain switches off from these irrational thoughts when I go to bed, but it seems to Increase..
I count myself incredibly lucky at this very moment in time and I’m greatful to be in a position where I can sit here and type about all this... but somehow anxiety and excessive checking in on my breathing, heart rate and temperature, just won’t stop.
Being able to type this all out on here is making me feel so much better and deep breathing and meditation on YouTube are a saviour too. But I’d like to take the time to say thank you.. if you’ve got this far and not thought to yourself ‘weirdoooo’ then thank you!!
Sending everybody so much love, stay safe all🖤.