Kobi, Goodbye my baby
Yesterday (April 14, 2019) at about 10:52pm my beloved dog of 14 years died of old age, which I hope it really is so.
My dog was given to me by my by my bestfriend and neighbor, J. It was supposed to be his sister but because the puppies are up and about it was deduced that someone must have taken the female puppy. Other puppy siblings were already given and/or died at birth which left us with a small, sleepyhead male puppy.
that sleepyhead will take anytime he gets to sleep and at night try everything he can (which he succeeds) to escape the house and return to his mom to breastfeed.
His name is derived from the C of caramel because of his fur color and Moby snack which my younger brother and I were currently eating at the time we took him. It was supposed to be "Coby". But when we got him vaccinized, my father wrote to his certificate, "Kobi" instead.
He is a very smart dog. He can leave the house no matter how much we barricade it. And to make it worse, one time when he is out with his escapades, he was taken away.
Luckily, my father recognized this furry light brown pink-nosed puppy when he went to one of his pals for a drinking night. It seems on his pals' little son caught it and took fancy of it.
I got him back after that.
Kobi's birthday is about a day from now which is at April 16.
How I wish you could've waited a little more so we could celebrate.
I miss you so much I can't sleep
I am sorry for everything I have done.
I have hurt you many times and neglected you.
I'm sorry that in this past few days past few months, I rarely to never touch you. Just because I am scared of your fleas.
I'm sorry I don't let you on walks just because I am lazy. I am going to change that.
I'm sorry I didn't even look at you or even touch you one last time before you get buried away. I just can't do it. I can't take it my love.
I wanted you to still look the same in my memories.
hoping that when i go out tomorrow you will still be there and i will give you a nice bath and you will go and follow me wherever i go even if you cannot hear or see anymore.
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Kobi is 14 years old, thin, wobbly, has cataract, is deaf and is plague with tons of lice.
I convinced myself that I tried my best. but I know it isn't. my efforts, my money were not enough.
I am so sorry.
If ever you come back to me like in the movies I will do my best this time and work hard, give you a better life.
I love you so so so so so much~ And I miss you already.
My "lolo obie", my "obie tots", my "woobie dobie"
rest in peace and be happy in heaven with Sumo.
thank you for always listening to me and being there with me always. you are my first and best dog. i love you
