Hello! I apologize, for I have abandoned my account for a while! I'm back, but I'm honestly unsure for how long 😅 but I'll explain!
My 18th birthday is in 9 days, and from the time of around Thanksgiving to now, everyone in my life has been getting covid. Unfortunately, I dear reader, have also recently gotten covid and am still recovering from it. I go back to school tomorrow though! During that time period, I've also gotten a very rude awakening, with being threatened to be kicked out of the place im staying, and it's come to the point that I'm moving out on my own, fearing that if I don't they will kick me out. So... I'll be homeless for a good few months, or possibly even up to a year.
My minds been racing with anxiety at the thought of being homeless, and I've lost a lot of people close to me recently as well. I'm keeping my head up though! Despite the shit-storm I've been endearing these past few months, I'm still kickin'! I'm alive and that's all that matters. I'm almost convinced that life's trying to kill me though 😅
As far as the job situation, I still don't have one, and the ones I'm looking at, I have to be 18 for. I think I can manage for 9 more days before I start sending in applications.
I'm just very thankful for the people who are in my life. I have some wonderful friends who are willing to let me crash on their couch when I need to, so I'll hopefully be able to avoid sleeping in my car for the most part. I haven't told my mother that I'll be sleeping in my car at all, as I'm too ashamed to. I'm just happy, that even if I will be living in my car, my friends are willing to let me use their showers, wash my clothes, and help me out with gas money.
Overall... I'm just hoping to get a job, and I plan on working my ass off to get on my feet. I realize that some people aren't as great as what I once thought, but it's not entirely their fault. It's just the way they were raised. I just need to make the best of my situation, and hope that my hard work will pay off. Be thankful that I'm still here and.. healthy, for the most part.
So, dear reader, while I tackle these next few months with the challenges that have been thrown my way, I hope that I find time to come back here, and maybe even here some inspiring words from some of you. I hope all of you, even if in a bad situation, make the most of it and keep going in this uncertainty of life. If not for yourself, for others around you who care about you. It's really hard not to crack under the pressure, but I'll be damned if I give up before I get where I want to in life. I'll keep working towards building a better future for myself, and keep working on cutting off the toxic people I come across, filling the spaces with people who will lift me up. I hope you, reader, can do the same.
Thanks for listening to my stupid lil rant, and I hope y'all have a good day :)
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