warnings; dis is angsty and a lilโ bit toxic at first but there is making-up afterwards, so uhmm, for warnings, thereโs like one (1) yell and thatโs it, also dragons!
genre; angst, really cute fluff at the end
pairing; choi san x gender neutral reader
word count; 777 (synchronicity!)
summary; sanโs upset and ends up snapping on you, but after he realizes lashing out did not make the situation better, he sneaks back to you to apologize.
*this is not specifically an accurate representation of san. obviously, i try to make his personality fit but he is more of a character in my writing than an actual portrayal.
**this is my first angsty thing help me
โy/n, iโm in the middle of something right now,โ sanโs voice is strained. you can only see his back from where youโre standing at the doorway to the living room of your shared apartment. heโs hunched over his desk, writing vigorously on a piece of paper.
โi know, but we need to order the food within the next 10 minutes or the restaurant wonโt have enough time to make it before they close,โ you sigh worriedly, not wanting to make san annoyed but definitely not wanting any of the workers to have to labor extra hours because your boyfriend didnโt want to stop doing something for a mere two seconds.
โwhy didnโt you tell me?โ san says, sounding irritated.
you look at him confusedly,ย โwhat do you mean?:
โyou never even told me we were going to order take-out tonight. if you had warned me beforehand, maybe we could have ordered before i started writing these lyrics and you wouldnโt have to interrupt me and make me lose my train of thought,โ san says, still leaning over his paper, not even looking at you.
โhow should i have known you were writing lyrics? you didnโt tell me that,โ you said, taken aback at his accusing words.
san leans back and sighs, running his hand through his hair, jaw set dangerously.
โsan, can we just order the food? iโm hungry and i donโt want to fight right now.โ youโre getting a little worried. san is not a happy camper when he loses his temper.
โwhy are you always so dependent? every time you come in here, itโs never to talk or spend time with me, thereโs always something you need. and the second i object to anything, you act like the victim. like youโre the one who has to constantly take care of me, instead of the other way around. itโs so fucking selfish,โ san accuses dryly, face expressionless.ย
heโs so infuriating. he hits your self esteem right in its weaknesses and acts like nothing happens, and then acts like youโre victimizing yourself.
โyeah, because coming in here to order food for the two of us is a selfish move. right i get it,โ you turn around, throwing your hand in the air in frustration,ย โi should just go order food for myself shouldnโt i? because iโm selfish and thatโs what i do.โ
and with that you storm out of the room, slamming the door. you flop on your bed, utterly fed up with him. he always gets like this whenever you try to squeeze yourself into hisย โtight schedule.โ you know that as an idol, he has to work hard, but seriously? he canโt order food because he was writing lyrics? heck to the no. heโs just being dramatic.
you pick up your phone, hoping to distract yourself from the situation.ย
โy/n~โ comes a sheepish voice from the other side of your door. itโs san, surprise surprise, slinking back to make-up.
โwhat,โ you say, not even bothering to phrase it was a question.
โiโm sorry for blowing up. i honestly donโt have any excuses, but please let me in?โ
you sigh, trying not to smile. his voice is way too cute to refuse, and besides, itโs past your nightly cuddle time.
you open the door. he stares at you.
โwhat?โ you ask, now a little embarrassed because why is he just standing there and looking at you.
โiโve missed you!โ he suddenly coos, scooping you up in his arms and running over to the bed.
โoh my god, san, itโs been five minutes since you last saw me!โ your voice is smothered by his sweatshirt.
โi donโt care~โ he says, still using a baby voice.
โmaybe if you hadnโt become a fire-breathing dragon wouldnโt have had to leave,โ you whisper, avoiding eye contact.
his face falls, โbaby, iโm sorry. i donโt know why i did that. i never meant to hurt your feelings like that, i was already irritated from not being able to find the right lyrics and i just snapped,โ he gently lies down on the bed, holding you up against him,ย โyouโre not dependent at all, and even if you were, i love taking care of you. nor are you selfish- youโre caring, forgiving, sweet, angelic, gentle, hilariousโฆโ
you whine at his flattering apology turn your face towards his chest, trying to hide your smile.
he giggles at you, sensing your forgiveness, and teases, โand fire-breathing dragon? is that what iโm like?โ
โstop it~โ you giggle too, trying to push him away but being met with firm resistance from his arms tightening around your body. there is no escaping the snuggly, fire-breathing monster now!
