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oh crap

[thatmisguideadghost]

Ang limig, bakit parang ang lungkot?

[thatmisguideadghost]

Browsing through my old files, I stumbled upon this—taken on January 15, 2015, ten years ago. Makes me kinda sad remembering the biggest mistake I made: deleting my first Tumblr blog for someone who never even took the time to check on my feelings. I still regret it, because that blog was the only place that truly listened to me. Held all my unsaid thoughts, my pain, and everything I couldn’t say out loud.

I just want to say, Self, we have changed. We chose to walk away from those who hurt us, and we finally learned to stand up for our own feelings. Now, we have someone who truly treasures us—someone who takes the time to understand us. This is the last time we’ll ever delete our blog. We are stronger now.

[thatmisguideadghost]

I don’t know what will happen in the future, but I want you to be there.

[thatmisguideadghost]

Isn’t it obvious? I like you too.

[thatmisguideadghost]

“Yeah, I know I’m a little clingy piece of shit.”

[thatmisguideadghost]

Low-key saving every photo you’ve sent me since day one.

[thatmisguideadghost]

At my age now, I’m learning to appreciate the little things that people do for me. I’ve realized that not everyone is able to extend a hand—not because they don’t want to, but because they might be carrying a world on their shoulders that’s heavier than what we’re dealing with. Understanding this has made me even more empathetic toward others.

Let’s continue to be kind to one another, please.

[thatmisguideadghost]

I'd still choose you, no matter what.

[thatmisguideadghost]

In the brief moment our souls meet, you've taught me wisdom I'll hold for a lifetime.

[thatmisguideadghost]

Crying myself to sleep.

[thatmisguideadghost]

You're making me hate myself again.

[thatmisguideadghost]

I feel like I deserve everything that I get. I keep on messing up, sometimes I wish I wasn't here so that they never happen and things would be better for everyone else.

[thatmisguideadghost]

Are you still my person?

[thatmisguideadghost]

I really thought we were going somewhere… but now, I just feel lost. We used to have a clear path, like we knew what we wanted and where we were headed. But now, it’s all gone. I’m lost, again…

[thatmisguideadghost]

Slowly losing faith in us.

[thatmisguideadghost]

032825 Uncertainty

[thatmisguideadghost]

I miss you, lola.