Hello.. Is there anybody in there?

Just nod if you can hear me.

[thatoneawkwardpanda]

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Hello my little pandas and pand-ettes , even though you don't exist ;o;

I got Google Chrome now so my browser is so much faster and I freaking love it so much -w- Today was a good day, and it got SO . MUCH . BETTER when I got a package from Ana in the mail. She got me a whole bunch for my bday and wrote me a cute letter and I can't wait to write back. I kind of sort of broke up with Jared but I dunno. I don't know what to do now because I want to be with both him and Ana but I don't think that's going to happen >.< Whatevs. I'm about to smoke up before I go out to dinner iwth my dad. I'll be back with more afterwards c:<

[thatoneawkwardpanda]

MEANWHILe

MEANWHILE I'm just over here looking at lesbian couples like "I want *o*" I'm cute enough c'mon gimme a girlfriend to love and hold and cherish for the rest of my life ! ;o;

[thatoneawkwardpanda]

Blog # 1 - Scatterbrained x.x

Today was a super lazy Sunday for my panda self. I still haven't clean the mess we made last night at the party - I'm leaving that to Monday. This morning Sydney, Ruth and I did a wake and bake sesh and then decided to take a walk in the freezing rain. I was super cold but I still enjoyed the walk regardless. Last night Sylvera and Sydney both pierced my ears and they're still a little sore but I think they'll be fine. I had a strange dream about this guy I had added on Facebook that I met at this game and he fell in love with me and it was nice. It made me feel warm and homey. Then all three of us girls woke up at 8, refreshed even though we had crashed out late.

I'm very scatterbrained, though I meditate, so if anyone is to ever actually read my blog they would probably be like "what is going on???". Basically this is my blog to help me let out what needs to be let out or just jot down what's going on in my head or my life. It's my first actual blog but I figure it will help me :) Moving on , haha. Yes, I am dating Jared. I asked him on Friday & he said yes, of course. Sydney told me that he was a total douche when he dated his last gilfriend, Kelly. She said he didn't even break up with her to her face, he just told everyone else they were broken up and that's jow she found out. It confuses me because he was never like that with me before her. Then again, I broke up with him.. We'll see how this goes. He still hasn't messaged me .-. I hope he's not bored of me already. As for Ana, I miss her so very very much but even though she says she's staying faithful to me I really don't think she is. She's posting all over her Twitter about how she's "sexcited" about going out or how she thinks some girl in her class is cute so ._. So glad I'm not trusting her enough to be in a long distance relationship with her. We'll see what happens when I go to Cali, though, because she is absolutely amazing to me and I think she's my soul mate /.\ It probably sounds fucked up that I'm dating a guy yet I'm in love with this girl in California but this is just how things have to be. One day I will be in Amsterdam smoking all of my troubles away and laughing at how foolish I was at this point in time. Who know, mabye I'll still be blogging by then c: Anyways, I'm just sitting here waiting for Chad and Sylvera to come to Seguin so Chad and I can "talk". He's being an ass again and I'm so tired of it *sighs* .-. I wonder if I made a mistake chosing Jared over Josh .. But then again, Josh is all about being intimate and shit waayyyy too fast soo... no -.-

I just need to breathe, relax, and meditate -w- :p

I have a desperate urge to eat the chilli that my father made but I would be throwing all of my Vegetarian progress away by doing so. I have to remember my morals ! >.< Oh well, until next time - thank you for letting my awkward little panda self vent :3