My Journey to Mommyhood

Hi I'm Megan! I'm 20! My baby boy was born on September 4, 2015! "Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart" Winnie the Pooh

[thatreallyawkwardmom]

I am sick and tired of my mother undermining my authority as Evan's mom and thinking she knows him better than I do 😡

[harryedward]

let your child be goofy and silly and make messes. teach them to clean up the messes without yelling at them. let your child be a child. not a mini adult who has to be perfect 24/7

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[mammalingo]

[thiswillbeourmonth]

[thatreallyawkwardmom]

I know it's gunna sound crazy but, is it possible for my son to be starting teething at 2 months?? He has been uncharacteristically irritable the past few days, crying nonstop and having trouble sleeping. He sucks hard on and bites on anything you put in his mouth. He is drooling bad. And today I noticed a little white spot coming out of his gums (this is obviously the point that makes me think teething). All the books and websites say not until 3 months but is it possible for him to get his earlier?

[wherethewildlingsgrow]

I’m constantly stuck between “I want my baby to grow up so he sleeps through the night and can be more independent” and “my baby is growing up way too fast he’ll never be itty bitty again and he needs me so much”

[thatreallyawkwardmom]

Ps: The first month "birthday" is coming!

The first month went by so quick! We spent it hanging out at home just the three of us! It was a nice day!

[thatreallyawkwardmom]

On Sunday night Evan looked so sick. He had a really stuffy nose and was wheezing and had a cough and was extra fussy and wasn’t sleeping. The symptoms continued through Monday and Monday night so Josh took him to the doctor on Tuesday while I was at school. While having lunch I got a call from Josh telling me they sent Evan to the hospital because his oxygen levels were low. I was distraught. But everything is going to be okay. They ran so many tests in him. He does not have any viruses. It’s not in his chest, so no pneumonia. The only possible explanation they can give is that he has very very narrow nasal passages which make it difficult for him to breath. We were told he will outgrow it as he grows bigger since his nose will grow and open up. So for now he is on saline drops just to try to loosen up the mucus so he is not in as much pain. But they are keeping us here until at least Saturday for observations. So he will be okay. I am dying to go home. I’ve been in this one room for over 48 hours and I am going completely insane. soitgrows18

[thatreallyawkwardmom]

There is nothing scarier than seeing your three week old son in a hospital bed

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[foxesandfables]

You won’t remember the way I stood in the bathroom late that night in labor with you, fearfully and excitedly gazing up at the moon, knowing I was going to bring you into the world soon and whispering to you, “We can do this.” You won’t remember the way you looked at me right after you were born, or the way I pulled you up next to my heart and marveled “Hi, baby” in your ear. You won’t remember the way you healed my broken spirit. The way you completed my heart. I was weak before I had you, and you made me whole again. You won’t remember the way I proudly watched you everywhere we went, you were always the most beautiful boy in the room to me. You won’t remember the way you made me laugh with all of the silly things you did. I saw how kind your heart was. You won’t remember the way I would brush the hair off of your forehead and the way you’d look up at me. Without any words, our souls could touch and say everything to each other that words couldn’t. You won’t remember the tickle fests we had, and how I always cheated so I could hold you close and cover your salty little face in kisses. You won’t remember all the times I went to bed at night and felt such fear being your mother: Am I doing okay? Have I messed up too many times already? Can I be the kind of mother he needs? You won’t remember the way my heart broke and grew a little bigger each time you passed a milestone, watching the sand fall through the hourglass while feeling overjoyed witnessing you expand and grow. You won’t remember the way I would hold your little feet in my hands, imagining how much bigger than my own feet they will one day grow, and how I will have to let you go. You won’t remember, but I will… and I’ll hold these memories in my heart for the both of us.

Jessica Dimas The Huffington Post (via make-it-rainicorn)

Absolutely beautiful 💖

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[thatreallyawkwardmom]

Congratulations!!!! I hope everything is alright with you and your little baby boy <3

Thank you so much! Everything is going great! Me and Evan are both healthy and happy! Josh and I are settling into our new lives as parents!

[thatreallyawkwardmom]

Welcome Evan Richard to the world!

My sweet Evan bear was born in Friday September 4 at 1:52 pm! He weighed 5 lb 7 oz and 19 inches! I cannot believe my little bud is almost one week old already! Time is flying by!

[thatreallyawkwardmom]

Who should have the final day in who is in the delivery room?

I really want it to be Josh and my mom in the delivery room. Obviously Josh has to be there. And I want my mom there because I feel like she will be able to calm me and make me feel better since she actually understands how labor feels. But tonight Josh told me that his dad thinks that the delivery room should just be me and Josh and that it is inappropriate to have my mom there with me and Josh agrees. But I really feel like I will have a better delivery experience if she is there. I feel like my say is more important because I'm the one doing the work in the delivery room but is it wrong of me to put my wants above Josh's?

[thatreallyawkwardmom]

Practice run went well today!

So this morning I had a routine biophysical sonogram to check Evan's movement and growth and to check my fluid levels. My fluid levels were less than half what they were last week so my doctor was concerned that I was leaking fluid and that my water might be broken. So we were immediately sent to the hospital. I was hooked up to all he fancy monitors to check baby heart rate, baby movement, and contractions. They monitored me for two hours. Baby looked happy and healthy. My fluid was checked and there is no leak. So I was sent home. So now we are totally prepared to go through all this again in two weeks when we get to have him for real. I was slightly nervous that we would have him today because we are so not ready. So now we have a little more time to get ready. Keep growing little guy! Mommy will meet you soon!

[thatreallyawkwardmom]

ITS BABY MONTH!

By the end if this month I will have my little boy!!!!!!! 💙💙💙