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[the-andrive]

My personal archive

Terms and resources for my future reference

Tagging system:

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Likely won't be using any tags other than personal ones

Main blog: @andr3w-th3-w0lf

Anti-abuse/pro-consent and radqueer critical (not radqueer myself)

Other stances found here on my main blog

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

I so badly want to write a factual narrative about the events of my life regarding my wolfhood. Everything from my birth, to the testing, to every transformation I've ever had.

But they took my memories. I don't remember most of it. I don't remember some of the most important pieces of my life.

And I don't know if they actually took my memories or if it was just so traumatic that I blocked it out. It could be either or both. Plus, a lot of it happened when I was really young, so I wouldn't remember much anyways.

I hate not remembering. I hate it I hate it I hate it.

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

Saying you are something and saying you identify as something are essentially the same. But there's a level of separation with "I identify as _" that makes me, and seemingly others, uncomfortable.

I think it makes me uncomfortable because humans are not required to say "I identify as human" to be taken seriously as humans. They can just say, "I am human," and no one would bat an eye. While myself and others who aren't human are expected to say "I identify as [x]" because then others can separate our "belief" (our identity) from what they deem "reality."

Yes, I identify as an animal. Because I am an animal. I identify as a character because I am that character. I shouldn't have to say the "identify as" part in order to be respected in my identity.

Not to mention how this relates to different levels of identity. If you say you're not human biologically, others automatically assume you're delusional or not mentally sound (which is rooted in its own issues)... That is especially the case when you simply say "I'm biologically not human" rather than "I identify as _ biologically/on a biological level." Again, it's so others can separate your claims and beliefs from what they think is real and possible.

I guess in other words, it all has a feeling of "well if you say you identify as something rather than saying you are that thing, then you're not actually that thing." Which can also relate to transphobia and the like... but that's a whole other tangent. Even if it's not intentional, it can be implied.

I don't know. I'm just thinking. Anyways, from now on I'll be making more of an effort to say "I am (a) _" rather than "I identify as _."

[thetadelta]

"Identify as" vs "is"

The more I see confusion about what words like "therian" mean, the more I resent the community's switch to using the censored phrase "identify as" to describe people's experiences.

"I identify as" is not a statement of fact, it is a statement that you purposely align yourself with a concept in social settings. I don't mind saying I identify as a therian because that's a label I opt in to, but no matter what words I use to talk about myself I am a snow leopard. It is a truth about me that does not rely on language. "Therian" is a community word for that truth.

"Identify as" was a way to soften and add deniability to "is". The community started using this phrasing because outsiders are more comfortable with the idea that you're claiming a personal label than the idea that you genuinely think you are something. If I say "I identify as a snow leopard" it carries the implication that I've simply made a semantic choice, and that someone else respecting this part of me is optional. If I say "I am a snow leopard" there is no room for uncertainty or debate, and that challenges people to see me for who I am. The trans community has pushed back against "identify as" phrasing for this exact reason.

The modern online landscape has turned the concept of "identity" into a badge of sorts. Your personal essence is expected to be displayed as a set of words and symbols that announce which groups you align with, as though the self can be distilled into a marketable aesthetic. And with this trend the difference between "identity" as in "I align myself with this label/group" and "identity" as in "this is what it feels like to be me" has gotten lost.

Who you are is not what you call yourself, it's what you see when you look inward.

Therians and otherkin should not have to say we "identify as" nonhuman, we are nonhuman.

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

Little do they know that doctors do know about this. They tested on me. It was horrible. The medical and scientific industry is aware of people who can physically turn into animals. The public isn't supposed to know about physical shifters, but I don't care. I want to talk about my experiences. And I don't care about the doctors finding me anymore. I don't care about my life so if the doctors come back to me to experiment on me more I don't care. In any case they could fine tune the implants in my arms because they obviously aren't functioning properly since I'm able to transform partially.

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

I get very bothered when I see people describe otherheartedness as "having a strong connection to an animal rather than identifying as it." It's not just animals. That's animalhearted. It's not an alternative to therianthropy or nonhumanity as a whole. It's its own, beautiful thing. Treating it as only applicable to animals or as a secondary, "Oh I guess it could be that..." concept feels hurtful, especially as someone who's otherhearted with something that's not an animal.

My connection to water cannot even be put into words. That's how deeply apart of me it is. That's why I prefer the "identifying WITH something" definition much more.

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

I have this irrational worry of others telling me that I'm a coyote and not a wolf. It's silly because I know I'm a wolf, but I get worried that others will think otherwise.

I'm still unsure of my subspecies, but I am pretty aware of my coat coloration. This is where the issue is. I am a grey wolf, but I have a significant amount of reddish, orange, and tan undertones. This is something I've always known, even when I was a young child.

It's very hard for me to find accurate pictures for reference. It's also quite the challenge to find gear that matches my fur colors. Most people think of wolves as very grey. Even if there is variations with the gear it's usually more of a yellow-tan rather than red undertones.

Anyways, back to my main point. I just worry about others telling me I'm something I know I'm not just because I may not look like other wolves.

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

I’m not sure how to really ask this and I’m not sure if this is still accurate, but are you male in the same way you are a wolf? Like as in, you are biologically male, but the genes aren’t expressed?

I believe so, yes. I don't really talk about it because I don't want to potentially upset someone over it. But yeah I do consider myself male in the same way I'm biologically a wolf. Since I was supposed to be born as a theriform male wolf, this makes sense I believe. I think it might be important to note that I know my body and what it needs and how it functions, so if anyone reading is worried I don't take care of myself, don't. I mean I don't take care of myself but this isn't the reason.

[spongeagir]

psa

if i ever can catch one of you physical nonhuman accounts using "bioterms", a term created by an anti-shifter and their friends who literally tell shapeshifters that they're cult members, im making sure you get gone off here because fuck you and fuck your anti-shifter bullshit.

this isn't unprompted either, ursacanid has been spreading lies about people and accusing my mutual of "feral nsfw" in an 18+ zine literally about nsfw and alterhuman bodies. they and wolfgirlcoven have been spreading blatant racist lies about pshifters and were supposed to forget that ans say "bioterms can be reclaimed!"

Hell no. If i catch you, you're cut.

I didn't contribute to the pshifter community to watch you people water it down, I didn't help build physically nonhuman and help coin holothere for your anti-shifter beliefs, and I damn sure am not going to sit back and watch you lie about who my friends are.

it either I start getting more aggressive or nothing happens.

[always-remain-deactivated202506]

I'm getting angry that some therians have gotten ahold of the term holothere and are trying to exclude biological nonhumans out of its definition by saying, "It's clinical zoanthropy if it's biological. All holotheres know they are biologically human. " Okay, but you can still be a clinical zoanthrope AND a holothere. And also, like why tf in almost every mainstream nonhuman space must you acknowledge your "human" body. You must acknowledge how you're still "human" at the end of the day. Imagine telling a trans person they still need to hold significance to their deadname or their AGAB, and that they need to remind themselves what gender they got assigned every time they say they are trans. You know how odd that is??? Like, no, I was never human, I never felt like one, so why must I acknowledge something that never came naturally to me??

I don't know where the hell they've gotten these rules that it's entirely non-biological and purely physical. They keep ignoring the second part of the definition, which is "...and fundamentally nonhuman in every way." I am nonhuman in every way. I am a holothere. I biologically identify as nonhuman.

I'm so sick of folks trying SO hard to distance themselves from clinical zoanthropy to the point of excluding folks like me from definitions that were meant to include us, including physically identifying folks who are non-delusional. I'm so tired of the "We actually know we're human" schtick. I'm not human. Never was. Stop trying to water down a term to make you comfortable. I'm an animal. I'm nonhuman. I'm a holothere. I was born this way. My blood, organs, and bones are nonhuman. Deal. We were always here. You guys just pushed us away. We have been here for centuries.

We finally got the term holothere, and of course, once some therians caught wind of the definition, they put their own "they must acknowledge being human though" spin on it. I'm so tired.

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

Hello! Could I ask about your biological nonhumanity?

I have a TikTok where I clarify nonhuman/alterbeing labels and identities

Someone requested I explain biological therianthropes so I'm in the process of doing research

Your experience, thoughts and ideas, etc would be helpful

/nf! /Gen

Hello!!!!

I am biologically a wolf in the literal sense. I was born a wolf, but I have a "human" appearance and human-level sapience. As said in my previous answers to asks, I believe that I was meant to be born as a theriform wolf from theriform wolf parents. However I was born from human parents, which is why I look human. I am still wolf, though. I am still (almost) entirely a wolf. My wolf genes are not expressed because I was born from entirely human parents. At least, that is my theory. I also have been raised as human in human society, which is why I am able to act human and things like that.

Even though my genetics are a bit wonky, for lack of a better term, some of my wolf traits come through ever so slightly. In my teeth and eyes and even some amount of fur, or fur-like hairs. That is where my wolf DNA is present on the outside.

In short, I have wolf genes that aren't expressed because I was born from entirely human parents.

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

just curious, is there a reason that you believe you were born to human parents instead theriform wolf ones? Like not what evidence you have for being nonhuman but like why do you think you were born this way, like religious reasoning, luck, etc. /nf

I think it was just random! Things happen like that in the universe randomly, the way I see it. I don't consider myself religious, but I do have personal spiritual beliefs. Though I don't believe there to be any spiritual reason for my birth. I just know I was supposed to be born as a theriform wolf from theriform wolf parents. My soul, biology, mind, were all made to be in a different body, I think. Just how it is I guess,,, I'm still trying to figure things out though. I hope someday in our life time we can discover why our body isn't what it's perceived to be 🫶🏻🐾

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

How are you biologically a wolf?/genq

If you mean in what ways I am biologically a wolf, well: I have wolf DNA, in the literal sense. Wolf blood, wolf bones, etc. My current theory is that I was meant to be born from theriform wolf parents, but I ended up being born to two entirely human parents causing my wolf genes to not be expressed. Hence why I have a typical human appearance and sapience. To clarify, this is no negative remark towards my parents, I love them dearly. I am also able to behave as a human decently enough because I was raised in human society as a human. I do have some physical traits where my genes came through slightly, I think, such as my teeth and my eyes. But even these are only slight.

However, if you meant "how are you biologically not human," then my answer is I'm just not. I just know that I'm not.

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

Hewwo!! ^w^

U said to send U asks sooo?

How did U find the online alterbeing community?

/nf

Tiktok 😔 /silly

But yeah, I ended up finding the stereotypical tiktok therians (/neu) who do quadrobics and wear masks and stuff, then I wanted to learn more about it. I ended up finding the "someone who identifies as an animal on a non-physical level" definition on reddit, tiktok, and Google searches. I should have done more research in hindsight, but I was like 13. This is why it took me so long to figure out I'm biologically + physically a wolf... I found it applied to the majority of my feelings of being an animal. I already had an account that I was posting on at the time, so I decided to give quadrobics and mask making a try. It was fun and helped me lean into my nonhumanity, which was very freeing.

Anyways dumb kid me accidentally got hacked and that account was deleted. I later decided to start a youtube channel in beginning of 2024, where I share my experiences as an alterbeing and post silly videos alongside deeper ones. I am not a huge fan of the alterhuman community on YouTube, as it is filled with drama and misinformed beings (most of which are kids (<13) who shouldn't be on there or posting anyways). But I have tried my best to stay drama free and to educate beings to the best of my ability. On YouTube I learned about physical therians, and wanted to look into it more.

Somebody left a comment on one of my posts saying how there was more information about holotheres and physical nonhumans on here, so I came here! I was unfamiliar with tumblr at the time (I still kinda am haha) as I had only ever used it a few times and it was mainly to look at fan art. But the experiences of holotheres aligned with mine and I was able to discover that I am physically nonhuman. I much prefer the online alterhuman community on tumblr, as most beings tend to listen better and are willing to have respectful conversations. While that is not always the case, of course, and there is quite a lot of discourse in the community no matter where we go, I feel like I have found my creatures.

Anyways, that was much more than what you asked for, but I'm in a ranting type of mood, so there you go lol

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

Just because I'm a wolf doesn't mean I'm going to attack humans. I am not a danger to humans. Like most non-human animals, I'd much rather stay away from humans for the most part. I will only attack if provoked, like if I'm being attacked. And isn't that normal for most humans? Another point, just because I'm a wolf doesn't mean I can't live according to human rules and human society. I have been living in a human society and following the rules since my birth.

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

Yeah, I'd like to have a partner. But honestly? I just want Ashley.

I find myself overall disinterested with dating and romance because no one is her. I do feel romantic feelings towards others, but it's no where near the same. And I can't imagine actually being in- especially being happy in- a long term relationship with someone that isn't her. That's not to say I'll never enter into a relationship again or that I find no value in relationships. I know I probably will at some point.

I just know I'll never feel fully satisfied unless I'm with her. I don't necessarily mean a romantic or sexual relationship with her either. I just mean her. I can't fully devote myself to someone like I can with her. It's not even that I want to be fully hers. I feel like I have to be. Like it's my only job in my entire existence.

[andr3w-th3-w0lf]

ok I have a few questions:

do you know how you became a p-shifter? i saw a post that said doctors performed experiments on you. can you expand more about that, like when it happened?

what should i do if people are being jerks to me over being fictionkin?

how do you feel when people draw you with like sh scars or stuff?

all of this is meant to be genuine and not intruding- please decline any of them if it makes you feel uncomfortable! so sorry and thanks in advance 😓😓

I'll answer to the best of my abilities!

1) I've always been able to turn into a wolf. From the moment I was born, I have had the ability to transform. Doctors ran tests and experimented on me due to my ability when I was young. I shouldn't even be saying that much, so I'm not going to go into anymore detail for now.

2) I have no advice for you, sorry. I guess just ignore them?

3) I assume you mean me as Andrew. I don't really mind, I wouldn't be surprised if I'll self harm in my future life- it would make sense if I did. I just dislike a lot of people's perceptions of me, since I usually find them to be inaccurate. (Though I get more upset over people's depictions of my sister* as they are insulting to her.)

To note- green text referring to myself is used to distinguish between my current self and my future self. I am currently a wolf (and able to physically shift) however future-life me is not, which is why the distinction is important to me.