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[kkittycult]

[cherryst4rg1rl]

Oh to be a girl in the 80s waiting for her boyfriend to climb through her window is my dream

[the-angsty-snail]

I am an unlikeable character. I hold grudges, I’m judgemental, I make snide comments and have enormous amounts of self-pity as to which I can only presume is insufferable to be around. I spend most of my time on my phone. I don't complete school work, and when I do, I fail miserably at the work itself. I don't study. I lash out at those I love because I don't know how to deal with my emotions in any other way. I’m insecure about my weight and body but not disciplined enough to stick with dieting and exercise to change it. I’m a functioning depressive, and actively work to make my mental health worse because I find comfort in making myself sick. As a human I believe I have some sort of moral failing because I behave like this. I don't want to move away from home, I’m losing my second language, and I can't find a good way of expressing my emotions. All of that is to say that though i have a few friends, and I hang out with people who i kind of hate, if you were to boil down my soul, you’d get the only character without any edits online, the annoying character who speaks out of turn and the character whom nobody enjoys any of their screen time.

[quotes-from-teachers]

“I think everyone is too obese and lazy to start a civil war”

[oncce-againn]

it hurts to remember and it hurts to forget

[vexheart]

[the-angsty-snail]

It's not that I don't like myself.  I just find it very hard to love myself. Sometimes I see another girl walking in public. I get jealous, oh so very jealous that I want to rip out my hair and scream in her face, asking her how she is so perfect. I want to ask how she got her teeth so white, how she got her hair so shiny, how she got her legs so thin, how she got her stomach so flat, how she got her skin so pale, how I can be like her. Of course I never do, I don't want to be put in the mental hospital now, do I? Of course I'm not fishing for compliments, I'm just so tired of being the girl with the scars, the weird girl, the girl who is the biggest in a room full of skinny people and the smallest in a room of big people. I’m tired of my wide feet, awkwardly taking up too much space. I don't even have real talent. I can't draw, paint, or sculpt. I wish I had been born one of those perfect girls. I always feel so gangly, but at the same time round. I can’t talk to boys or girls with any luck, and it’s nobody’s fault but my own.

[vaxana2]

All my friends keeping saying it’s hot girl summer but all I’m working towards is cold girl summer lol.