It's been too long since I posted here.
I've always felt that art should be accessible. I feel the same way about media in general, but as I continue to delve into my creative pursuits, I know it's never been about money (don't get me wrong, I want money so that I can do as I please and help the people I love) but it doesn't motivate me when it comes to creating. I like what I make, I do it for myself, and if it resonates with others...groovy. I think a lot of creatives lose themselves trying to appease the social media masses and I don't give a fuck.
I created this pleasure zine to express that side of myself more and encourage others to seek and indulge in pleasure, whatever that looks like for them. With only one week left for preorders, I'm so excited to hold a copy. With the zine, I also designed some condoms (something I've wanted to do for a LONG time) and will say it's pretty fucking cool to have a condom business card. I'd love to delve further into the realms of sexual expression, have found opportunities to do so, and enjoy the journey. With this, I've been studying sex education in my spare time, and that's been nice to understand myself better and know what works for me in that realm. I have heard so many stories from others about intimacy, pleasure, trauma, and overall, if I can help others to experience more fulfilling moments and be aware of consent and boundaries...well, that makes me happy. With that, perhaps the connection I seek will also come to me. There is something that drives me to understand and promote connection in a way that feels like it's dwindling in our world. I think it's a mixture of overstimulation and people believing they have more options within the fantasy than they do in reality.
I also went to Hump Fest for the first time and it was fascinating to see what films turned me on, intrigued me, and left me feeling like particular fixations are not for me. It was also cool to chat with others about what films were their favorites and what excited them. I can admit that what gets others "off" is fascinating to me from a psychological point and if there were some way to become a sex therapist without taking on a hellish amount of debt, I would have done so at this point. I have learned from therapy degree friends that there are other ways than schooling to do so, and I find myself researching and seeking those opportunities as well. I'm also looking to get back into nude modeling for art classes and becoming a rope bunny for workshops. Keeping myself busy seems to keep my anxiety and libido at bay. (lol girl...)
I'm always pleasantly surprised when I go back to old musings and journals, and seeing what has manifested from then. Looking forward to what comes from here.
Since my Tumblr is tied to my website, I'll update it in the summer. This space used to be an art journal for me of some sort, but with such a candid demeanor, most places I post are kind of like that now (lol)
Instagram is still the best place to see my art, but I'm looking for the best place to post that is a bit NSFW friendly and has good vibes.