A World Of Chaotic Thoughts

Just as it says. Too many things go in my head that get transferred to my blog. Name's Jasmine and my blog will always be a safe place. Tell me anything. I'll never judge you and I'll always give you the best advice I can. Have a great day :)

[the-candy-mans-sam]

2023 has been the shittiest year of my life hands down. I have lived in depression more this year than any other year. I have contemplated taking my own life seriously more times than not this year. I'm tired, absolutely tired. I'm tired of being demisexual and needing a connection I'm tired of the manic moments that just send me further into a spiral. I'm tired of not having people in my life. I'm just tired. I feel like I'm just on the outskirts of my own life and when I'm allowed to be in it I am just pissed off at everything. The depression is winning and I'm not completely sure I want to keep fighting it

[princvsx]

get to know the blogger

anonymously (or not) ask me any question you’d like to know about me

[tgwdlmreprised]

DID YALL HEAR THE NEWS

[tgwdlmreprised]

to the aphobes in the comments taking time out of their day to put down a fictional platypus 

“DON’T YOU PEOPLE HAVE JOBS?”

[justcatposts]

You’ve all know Walk of Shame, But have you seen Walk Of Pride? 

(Source)

[whitepeopletwitter]

[the-sacred-now]

The continuing adventures of people thinking Tony Hawk looks like Tony Hawk

[jenny-jinya]

CW: animal neglect

Can we talk about hamsters? ;_; Webtoons

[the-candy-mans-sam]

Everything is just crushing in on me. And I'm tired. I'm tired of being tired. And I can't stop it. Work is getting bad again. And I really want to just crawl under a rock and never fucking go back. I have two kids. One who seems to be hell bent on getting kicked out of school for behavior and he's only in pre-k and a kid who could possibly but probably doesn't have a life altering genetic mutation. I feel like I'm playing second fiddle to my husband. That right now he wants me because I'm here. He tells me I'm important but I truly don't feel it. And we fucking suck at communicating that I can't tell him. Our house is literally trying to fall apart as we are trying to fix it. Our fucking insurance is refusing to cover the cost of a new roof for some stupid ass fucking reason. Either or plumbing is leaking or out duct system is. Either way it goes the floor is trying to cave in all over the fucking place. And I just feel like screaming. I give up. I'm numb. I'm basically stressing eating and not eating at the same time and I can't stop myself. I feel like if I cry maybe I'll feel better but I can't. I have officially reached a point of no feelings. I'm basically having panic attacks for no fixing reason at random parts of the day and because I don't want to talk about it to one of my best friends I have to act like everything is alright. And I'm tired of it all. I love my kids and I want to see them grow but today is one of those days where I kinda hope if I fall asleep I just don't wake up in the morning. I wish someone would care enough to read this but I know they won't which is why I post on here exclusively. So I guess this is my new life. 🤐

[post-breakup]

This hit me hard.(Source: unknown)

[the-candy-mans-sam]

I don't know if I'm a downward spiral because of ppd or because the one person who should be willing to help me is constantly getting mad at me for asking for help because he works and I don't at the moment. I'm tired of feeling like the asshole. I'm tired of feeling like a bad mom. I hate my body but can't do much about it. And now I feel like we're growing apart and the only reason we ever have sex is when he thinks about 3somes or because he gets a random erection or because it's time for bed and I'm there. I don't feel wanted. I feel like I'm a burden he just can't get rid of. And there are points where I want to walk out the door and not look back for a couple of weeks. And talking isn't helping. But it's probably the ppd right?

[the-candy-mans-sam]

Gotta love being pregnant, insecure and full anxiety. And the only thing you can think to relieve some of the anxiety is cutting something you haven't done in almost seven years 🙃🤐💔

[mashable]

[so-doggone-funny]

#GrowingUpWithGlasses

[natashamaximova]

[chrisxscarlett]

BRB DYING OF CUTENESS

[ariadnesbishop]

the fact that the weight of chris and scarlett still doesn’t equal to thor look at their feet actually sliding lmao hemsworth is strong af

[ruffboi-mags]

Look how fuckin DELIGHTED evans is holy shit

[copperbadge]

Chris Evans is like a three year old who thinks Chris Hemsworth, age five, is a deity. In every image where they’re together he’s almost invariably adoring. There’s one where Hemsworth has him in a headlock and Evans is just like “this is my life now and that’s ok.” 

[the-mjolnir-owner]

[gahdamnpunk]

Can we support him please?!

[comfygiant]

I would love to share this with everyone who may happen to see this post. Please support this wonderful human being. He spent nearly a half century in prison for a crime he never committed. And the only thing that kept him going was his artistic endeavors. He deserves the best life can offer anyone ❤️

[othladies]

I just really want us all to be good enough friends that we can talk about stuff. You know? Even when it’s ugly, especially then.

[the-candy-mans-sam]

Gotta love when you're spiraling out. I can feel myself getting bad. I can feel my body going into shut down. And I know it has a lot to do with the fact that I took a week off and I'm dealing with work bs. And the fact that I just lost my last dog now even six months after the one before. But all I can think is... My kid tolerates me. He'll choose anyone over me. 90% of the time. I keep thinking. I've screwed everything up. And my kid and future kids will more than likely fight this same demons I've been fighting sice I was like 8 years old. And I'm terrified I won't see the signs. And I worry they'll be stronger than me and not as scared. And I'm worried. And all I think is it's my fault. It's all my fault.

[4gifs]

[scaredofgiraffes]

Oh, nuthin’. Jus’ openin’ my fresh container of sugar gliders.

at first i thought “oh that’s awful to jam them all inside like that”

and then i saw the hole in the side

like they had cut up the tub to make a little playhouse for the gliders

and these little butts just all decided to smoosh in there at once

because sugar gliders can’t take turns aparently

Yup. Sugar gliders like to sleep squished in a big cuddlepile. That’s how they do it in the wild, snuggled in treetrunk burrows.

It’s seriously adorable.

[badnovels]

[captaincardboardbox]

[howlermonkey69]