return of the living dead

"The only cure for loss of illusions is fresh illusions."- William John Locke

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Self destruction is the only thing keeping me sane.

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[strangersinadarkparadise]

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[the-crescendo-complex]

Oof, I almost forgot about this blog, even though the last time I reblogged something was about 4 months ago...

So, uh yeah. I guess I made this blog when “I’m not seriously ill, I just have dermatillomania and maybe a tiny self harm problem, mayyybe I’m a bit depressed sometimes, but who isn’t?” turned into suicide ideations, and now I’m just looking forward for the end of the month, the start of my second time inpatient. (Because the second I actually got professional help, they basically wanted to send me to a hospital pretty quickly. Apparently they didn’t really know how to help me yet.) Now... all of this turned into kind of more, OCD, “some personality disorder, probably BPD”, definitely depression, horrible episodes of derealisations, some paranoia and irrational fears, an ED fueled by gender dysphoria and a self harm problem that isn’t exactly tiny anymore. (More like... actually seriously dangerous by itself already.)

Uh, yeah, that was me rambling. (To nobody I think because no-one knows that I have this vent blog?)

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mark kenly domino tan fw16

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this user has intrusive thoughts 

[the-crescendo-complex]

You wanna know what’s pathetic?

Short answer: me

Long(er) answer: me still trying to do everything to make the person who broke up with me in maybe the coldest way possible happy the second they decide to talk to me again, even if it’s just because they’re horny

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NSFW ban fail

Reblog if you’re still seeing porn bots despite the NSFW ban. I’m still seeing them. Plenty of legitimate followers seem to be blocked from my feed, however.

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