soak it all in.

Drinking in the lights. Following the neon sign.

[the-dead-starchild]

Perhaps you should stop saying sorry if you don’t mean it. Sorry without changed behaviour is meaningless.

Nothing has changed.

[the-dead-starchild]

And you doubted yourself… even though time and time again you have proven yourself.

Look at you making waves, Assistant Manger 🥰

Aldi never deserved you.

[the-dead-starchild]

Tired. Very tired of trying everyday. Can’t help but think “is it really worth it anymore?”.

When do I get to stop being strong and just be vulnerable?

Drained.

Sleep.

[the-dead-starchild]

Why does it always seem like if I’m not the one initiating something, nothing will happen? I won’t hear from you, little to no effort will be made? No calls returned, messages answered when only when it’s convenient for you?

Just seems like it’s one sided at this point. Why does it seem like I’m the only one trying to keep things alive?

[the-dead-starchild]

A lot of people met me when I lacked boundaries and was a people pleaser.

Let me reintroduce myself now. I burn bridges as needed.

[the-dead-starchild]

I think it’s about time to match the energy and effort being put into me.

If people wanted to be in my life then they would.

Nothing should be one sided.

[the-dead-starchild]

Choose your own peace. Always.

Don’t compromise it for anyone.

It’s okay to tolerate less.

[the-dead-starchild]

Start doing the stuff you said you were going to do, even if you don't like it! If you don't feel like going to the gym but you said you would JUST GO.

Go and have the worst workout you've ever had but at least you SHOWED UP for YOURSELF. That's all that counts.

Start speaking back to people. If someone is disrespecting you, don't tolerate it, say "Hey, why did you say that?" "How did you even think you could talk to me like that?!".

Put people in their place and you'll see how your confidence starts to rise. No one is defending you but yourself.

In order to get your confidence up, you do NOT allow people to talk down on you, it doesn't matter who they are. Don't allow them to speak to you with disrespect. They shouldn't even approach you with that energy! They shouldn't even feel comfortable to! You shouldn't even give off the aura that they are allowed to speak and treat you like that.

[the-dead-starchild]

This is just a set back.

Get up. Get the FUCK up.

You have things to achieve.

Remind yourself how far you’ve come.

One fucker can’t defeat you. You can’t let that happen.

[the-dead-starchild]

Why is it that the people with the body of a hot air balloon seem to be the most entitled for an opinion on MY body after I’ve put the work in?

You guys seem to have to most to say “nutrition” wise. Perhaps you should take your own advice? Idk seems quite hilarious to me.

Stop projecting.

[the-dead-starchild]

My mentality has shifted so much in the right direction recently.

I will pour all that love, attention and hard work into myself. All the love I didn’t get from family.

One thing I realised is that absolutely no one will save you. Only you can do that. Only you can bring the changes you want and deserve. Keep getting back up no matter how much it hurts, no matter how much you cry.

Keep getting up and keep showing up for yourself because ultimately no one else will.

I deserve love and I will give it to myself.

I deserve kindness and I will give it to myself.

I deserve to be a strong woman. I’ll make that happen even if I’m standing alone.

[the-dead-starchild]

'Cause every time I'm with you, I go into a zone

And I remember all the places you wanna go

Take me all the way

Ain't nobody gonna touch it, touch it, touch it

'Cause every time I see you, I don't wanna behave

I'm tired of being patient, so let's pick up the pace

Take me all the way

You… of all people. Reignited something in me that was lost and buried deep within me all these years. I’m terrified but…

[the-dead-starchild]

I am really trying to be kinder to myself.

I am really trying.

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[everythingfox]

The void is happy

[stealingpotatoes]

How does Cal meet Merrin in the fix it au? Does Cordova borrow him for Zeffo research?

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[the-dead-starchild]

The recent flood of emotions have been too incredibly overwhelming to me.

Can’t seem to shake this feeling and it’s incredibly painful.

I really don’t understand why I seem to care so much about it though considering the entire situation is pretty stupid.

Parts of me want to forget, to move on but for some reason this feeling is really sticking with me and I absolutely HATE it.

The amount of crying and sleepless nights because of all of this is ridiculous. My mental fortitude has been shaken beyond belief.

There’s just so much that has happened this year and I’m really not coping anymore. It fucking sucks.

I just want to rid myself of these emotions but I know I need them to grow as a person. I’m having trouble these days telling if someone is genuine or not.

The paranoia is killing me.