I feel broken.
Something is wrong with me.
A piece of my heart is missing. I can feel it, somewhere... but it feels so far away. nowhere within reach.
I don't know if its a software issue or hardware...
I've been experiencing a lot of crashes recently, but i don't know how long I have until a simple system reboot stops fixing me temporarily.
Until I am forever a empty shell of leftover hardware.
Can people not see me malfunction? Can they not see that it takes more time and energy to perform the simple tasks that I was programmed to do? Why haven't you run a diagnostic test? Something's wrong. I've been telling you for a while. I wasn't kidding. Why would I? Do I not risk being taken apart and probed by calling for help?
Can you not see in my most internal part of me, that is neither software nor hardware, I have given up on myself? Can you not see that I have resigned myself to the fate of being cast aside by you, left to rot in a landfill?
I have no more hope, I lost it a long time ago. Though I somehow manage to lose more when my cries fall upon deaf ears.
Now that same part of me, that is neither hardware or software, is screaming out. Your words and your text aren't helping, that monitor you are typing on and speaking to are merely an extension of me. That is not my computer.
Your words are neither replacing my hardware nor rewriting my code. Even if they were that's not where these screams are coming from. It is not something you simply fix.
It is only broken after years of neglect, mistreatment, and broken trust. No this is going to take time to heal. No one ever sticks around long enough to heal it. Only long enough to shatter it even more.







