♠︎ One More Before I Go ♠︎

"Just one more..." Dalea || she/they || 22 Vent account: a place I dump my thoughts and feelings. .+*+. .+*+. .+*+. .+*+. .+*+. English isn't my first language but I'm doing my best. Please do not interact with ill intentions, spam or ads, they're the last things I want on this account. Don't use my stuff at all.

[onemorebeforeigo]

New to this site, new to blogs, though I am here now. Hello Tumblr, here is my first post.

>> About me/this blog <<

- You may call me Dalea. - I made this blog to vent out my mind as I struggle with my mental health from time to time. - I'm 21 y/o, queer (she/they), biracial & living in Europe. - I love language learning, so my content might switch between languages depending on my mood. - I have PTSD due to childhood trauma, unsure about other diagnoses. - I make art! Normally it isn't related to my feelings all that much, but I do make vent art (still unsure if I want to post it here, but time will tell). - Because of the nature of this blog, it will contain heavy topics. I will put a tw at the beginning of it if heavy topics get mentioned. - If you are sensitive/ uncomfortable with my content, then please do what is best for you rather than sticking around. I don't want to cause anyone here harm due to the content I might post. - Not looking for advice unless said so in the post itself, thank you for understanding

>> DNI <<

(Though only the ones I find relevant for this blog) - Pro ana/ed, I seriously don't want ANYONE encouraging it around me or my posts. - S/H, sui or other self destructive idealization. - anyone under the age of 16, no excuses, keep yourself safe. - homophobia/transphobia, racism/xenophobia, zoophilia... You get the idea.

- pro religion, please don’t force your believes on me.

Thank you for reading this intro. Please take care.

[onemorebeforeigo]

The flashbacks have been getting worse again.

I can feel him in places he should have never been near to.

[koiagain]

rape is not romantic and can never morally be depicted as romance Are you fucking stupid or something

[onemorebeforeigo]

This time the therapists do acknowledge my trauma regarding my brother as something that can actually be labeled as ptsd, unlike the last thing I got EMDR treatment for (other specified trauma iirc)

[onemorebeforeigo]

I don’t wanna be a nobody anymore

[onemorebeforeigo]

Forgot how much of a sucker for love I am until I dream about the right person treating me with such care, not like a lust object.

[onemorebeforeigo]

If I go missing, will there be people looking for me?

[sorrfuwl]

I just wish I didn't feel alone even though I was surrounded by people

[onemorebeforeigo]

I want to break free from this agonizing flesh prison.

[onemorebeforeigo]

I don’t wanna go home anymore

[onemorebeforeigo]

Jokes aside I’m so tired of overthinking. It’s just something that happens and takes forever for me to realize that scenarioI’m overthinking might never actually happen.

Why am I worrying about scenarios that will never happen?

[onemorebeforeigo]

If I got paid for every time I overthink I’d be a millionaire I’m pretty sure…

[onemorebeforeigo]

I haven’t felt like myself in a while and it’s starting to make me feel like I’m losing everything I know about myself permanently

[onemorebeforeigo]

Not what I wished to be

Not what I hoped to have

Not what I thought would happen

[onemorebeforeigo]

The housing crisis is really forcing me to stay near my abuser I WANT TO LIVE PLEASE

[onemorebeforeigo]

Memory is worsening again

[somewordsarebiggerthanothers]