Chapter 11____To Strike A Match
(UF Sans/Reader)
Rated M...violence, profanity and much else soon to come
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summary
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burnt out sick of the recurring timeline everything is starting to break him down little by little... day after day drink after drink he needed something different a smoke would be good... just needed a...light?
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before...everything...
back when everything was quiet...repetitive ...peaceful...a time he now realized he used to silently wish to change.. growing tired from the same tasks and repeated news ...tired of all the worried gazes from the royals... each day ... everyone had taken their lives for granted hiding away in worry as their people who were none the wiser enjoyed each day as if life would never alter... even the guards began to doubt the royals worries and reasons for being so thorough in their rounds...slowly slacking as their faith in the royals concerns began to fade....and in doing so everyone had failed to notice the drastic change in the humans and their behaviors .
shaking in the grip of his fellow knights tears fell down his face looking at everyone...the royals were right...he had been foolish...everyone had been......his past friends...they all were just as he was....absolutely indignant.... after today everything would be in ruins...every monster in this sodding room would be nothing but dust in just mere hours...a battle would commence that no one had cared to have seen coming...
monsters, mages, doctors and knights of great strength would fall at the hands of humans....his society once believed were unstoppable against any force...families depended on them..depended on him... all because they believed the humans were allies...friends...some were even family...monsters being a mixed species...were free to be with humans if they so chose to.., as foolish as it was to him...knowing how his peoples pride and trust lead them to their downfall...
he couldn't count how many days and nights he sat staring at his wall looking at his cloak in remembrance lost in the spiraling questions staring straight forward to the outside from the window as his friends held onto him trying to get him to respond...but he was far to lost ....
the last trace of his mother's magic locked inside a gem... a cloak he was gifted the day he joined the royal guard as a teenager blessed by his loving mother.....oh how excited he was to join hands with the fellow guards and fight for his people whenever a threat emerged... they were always victorious...praised by their citizens...
every day walking home to be greeted with mother at the door thanking the stars as her arms wrapped around him...a secure hug full of healing magic... guiding him to the table greeted with his other family and friends where they all sat and ate...stories shared from one monster to the other.. as his mother served her meals happily sharing with anyone who was hungry that night as she did every night ......it never mattered the day or his age...his mother......she always took the time to feed them...she put her heart into everything she made nothing was ever rushed...and he could always taste it...everything he ate was warm for the soul...feeling his entire body relax as he ate...every ache or strain he had ..melted away by each bite... it never mattered how he was feeling before...after a meal from her...he always went to bed full and content...
.....he missed it...
countless nights he sat on his bed in the underground weeping silently into the cloak.. apologizing for his failures...begging for her and every other monster to forgive him for his actions... he had lost so much in a singular night...everything he held dear to him was ripped away...
feeling his gem on his shoulder his thoughts continued to race staring without a single word spoken...no matter how many monsters circled around him trying to get him to respond...he failed to notice the worried expressions..each monster attempting to speak to him..shake him ...but to no avail...his eyes were glazed in thought ...the panic in the room building by each failed attempt ...questions plagued his mind further trapping him in his thoughts as each question held him further into this trace like state...
how did he not see it...why did he doubt the king?.....how could he doubt his rulers??...how could any of them.. ...is it his fault?...why did they trust the humans...could he have done something ... why ...what had they done to deserve it?...
in a quick movement he had failed to notice a stinging sensation laced on his cheek...a smack...someone smacked him...
looking around as he started to focus...every sound was returning ...his once loud deafening thoughts froze....right he was here still...he needed to figure out why...
moving from the monsters grip he took note of everyone's worried expression...smiling apologetically as they all frowned in concern..the room was filled with even more monsters now...
"I'm sorry I spaced out...it happens.."
rubbing his head he sighed before his eyes widened as a monster spoke up.
"that he does...called em freezerburn for it..."
...freezerburn...he hadn't heard that name for so long he failed to notice it was a teasing insult directed towards him... with a swift pat on the back it clicked as he turned to face the now chuckling monster who smiled at him .
" very funny...ash hole..."
he caught himself chuckling as he responded without a second thought...in turn the male chuckled in response before side hugging Grillby...a hug he had forgotten felt so good.
" such an insult Grillb ya wound me!"
he winked smirking as he pulled Grillby out of the room as he turned to look at him crossing his arms with a look decorating his face his smirk falling flat as they were out of eye sight from the others.
"ya ok?...what happened back there..."
what would he say...what could he say...
shrugging he leaned on the wall of the hallway lighting a cig...in this time he was still a newer guard...his youth...he was a careless bastard...he could work with that... taking a deep drag of it he looked to the monster.
"just had a space attack...no big deal this once just hit longer..."
the monster nodded in understanding before snagging Grillby's cig taking a drag himself blowing out in a sigh, Grillby watching the smoke swirl and dissipate in mere seconds as it left the males mouth... Grillby's lungs aching at the familiar feeling from the substance...a habit he had shoved aside all those years ago was quickly returning as he fought himself to take it back for another drag...in the end failing as he inhaled the dreaded addiction reveling in the burning feeling as the smoke coated his lungs...each exhale the smoke spilled out as his worries began to slip away with each deep exhale...it had been so long... watching again as his gaze followed the whisps lost in the numbing feeling as it coated his mind sinking him into a calmer state as his body felt fuzzy and light... in the midst of the hazy feeling settling over his mind he barely registered when the male had spoken.
"wanna talk about it Grillb?..."
looking back over to the male slowly he shook his head smiling loosely, no reason to talk about it...it was just him spacing out....he did it alot...that was just how he was...talking about what triggered it?.. he didn't need to...he didn't care to....what was his panic over anyway?...it didn't matter at this moment...taking yet another deep inhale falling deeper into the haze...the male shrugged before grabbing his own cig from his pocket, as the two smoked beside one another blowing smoke at each other in a playful attack relishing in the bond the two shared in the silence of the palace's hallway... as the sun continued to shine outside the walls... inching closer to the darkness that was soon to come as the hours slipped by...
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hope this was ok.. im sorry its a bit short... but atleast its updated?
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