Something’s been bothering me for a couple days…
At my school’s theater class, there was a senior (let’s call her “I” which I know sounds confusing, which is why I’ll use quotation marks when referring to her.)
“I” was looking for someone to take her place as the head of the costume department, someone to take up the mantle as the “sewing queen”
I’ve been cosplaying for 6 years (my first ever cosplay being max dressed as powerline from a goofy movie, and my latest is my red and purple Ditko suit, otherwise known as my V.5 Ditko suit) when I had met “I” during the winter musical rehearsal and found out she was the head of the costume department, I couldn’t help but to show her my achievements in making cosplays. She was shocked at my skill and told me that I’d be great for the role, but would still have to interview other people for obvious reasons.
From mid December to early may, “I” was telling me (and I’m quoting her on This) that I had both “and advantage above everyone” and a “good chance of getting the role” she had recommended that I created a portfolio of designs to better my chances and make sure I can create a design that people can understand. Which I did
By the time the interview came around, I made sure to show “I” the portfolio I made and the costumes I made and posted on Instagram to both her and her group (who were in the room during the interview) throughout the entire many-questioned yet short interview.
A couple weeks later I had not gotten an update regarding whether or not i (or anyone who had gotten interviewed) gotten the part, and as soon as i had saw “I”, I went up to her and asked her. But she told me “sorry, you didn’t get the part, I gave it to “A” she was more qualified”
Now, I don’t give a damn about the fact I didn’t get the role. At least I don’t at the moment of writing this, but in almost NO way had “A” given the impression that she was good at designing/creating costumes in any way shape or form.
Another thing I’d like to mention is that I had quit both musicals during the school year, the first one was because I had gotten my role demoted from a singing, speaking, secondary role. To a non-speaking background role because of me not being able to fix one of my grades (which I can excuse cuz my teacher took to damn long to grade it, it even took him until April to finish grading everything throughout that school year up until that point) and the second one was because I had an infection that stopped me from doing the footwork.
One final thing I’d wanna mention is that when I was doing the audition for the second musical, my phone wasn’t working (which we needed to use to sign up for the role we want via QR code) and when I went to my theater teacher between other people auditioning, she said I was being too “high maintenance” like WTF??? And I had went to my theater teacher (before finding out if I got the role or not) and talked to her about how I was stoked about getting the role. And then she had said “that’s good and all, but you quit things too often” (referring to how I quit both musicals. which granted was semi true, but this was something that I’m really passionate about)
So I don’t know if it was my theater teacher telling “I” about how I “quit things too often”, the fact that most of my designs were of superhero costumes, or some fucking how “A” was better at designing/creating costumes. But either way, I didn’t get it.
But on the last day of school a few days ago, it was a half for only 2 periods, and my theatre class was my first period for the day. And when the bell had rang I had to pack up, so I was the last to leave, and “A” her friend “K” and my theater teacher were all in her office with the door opened, so I was able to overhear the conversation.
Just as I was about to leave, I overheard “A” mocking what I was told by “I” that I mentioned whenever I told anybody about me having a chance to get the role (essentially just saying “yeah, she said I have a good advantage” in a mocking tone) and it’s not like this isn’t in character of her, she made fun of my looks a lot by comparing me to Charlie Kirk after me telling her to shut up multiple times.
But I wasn’t (entirely) mad that she was making fun of me, it was the fact that I didn’t hear my theater teacher telling “A” to not make fun of me, not only because that’s completely rude, but also because she was one of the people I had told that I did not like “A” making fun of my looks.
I don’t know if I should quit theater if there’s gonna be this level of ignorance and arrogance going to be there, or if I should just suck it up. Tell me what you guys think. 🤷♂️