of course i don’t wanna feel better!

vent blog for [?] call me void. no pronouns. they/it if necessary. minor. i talk about sh, eds, sui ideation, and general mental issues. please leave if that triggers you.

[the-loud-abyss]

i’m back and incredibly suicidal as ever

[the-loud-abyss]

sorry i’m not very active here anymore,, i made another sideblog to test a possible new name and i’ve been using that to vent too. don’t know if i’ll be back on this one much, but i guess that doesn’t really matter since i only have two followers anyways 🤷

[the-loud-abyss]

i hate how fucking dependent i am on attention and reassurance i hate it

[the-loud-abyss]

“i won’t leave!” except you’ve already found someone better.

[the-loud-abyss]

i need a tag for reblogs,,

[sparklingspirals]

all the roads lead back to the loneliness ive felt ever since i was a child

[the-loud-abyss]

people who were excluded often as children grow up to constantly self isolate.

[tyynicbubul]

I need reassurance the way other people need air and I hate myself for that.

[the-loud-abyss]

everyone would be better off without me to be honest.

[the-loud-abyss]

it’s getting harder and harder to keep the mask on.

[the-loud-abyss]

what’s the point in trying to talk to people when all i do is annoy them.

[dra1nedbl00d]

i hate feeling mediocre at everything i do i hate it i hate it i hate it

[jealous-bitch]

I’m slowly realizing that you never really needed me the way I needed you.

[sillyloserlesbian]

If I was bleeding out on the floor, I’d be more worried about the mess I’m making in front of you. My last words would be “I’m sorry for the mess I left on your floor, please don’t hate me.”

[pastelcottoncandyunicorn]

being dead sounds so much better than living a life that hates me

[the-loud-abyss]

all i want is to be loved, properly.

is that too much to fucking ask?

[the-loud-abyss]

once again being reminded that my friends like each other more than they like me and they’ll all ditch me eventually.