Currently Denying that I'm Depressed

[luchietheryoka]

People are strange. One moment, you're talking to them every day and the next, nothing.

[thehappymisery]

[onlyamir]

u ever just miss a feeling

[luchietheryoka]

I miss what Saturday mornings used to feel like

[the-melancholic-20something]

I’m inbetween tears and something resembling anger.

L. A Rubaine

[langleavpoetry]

[the-melancholic-20something]

I'm inbetween tears and something resembling anger.

L. A Rubaine

[the-melancholic-20something]

I fall apart everytime you call, as if you have never hurt me before

L. A Rubaine

[the-melancholic-20something]

Addiction

In one moment it feels like I am okay with letting it all go

And in the next I need it so bad.

L. A Rubaine

[smakkabagms]

October, I gather my shadows, not a hope my will could confine

[the-melancholic-20something]

This could only work if time never existed, three years wouldn't seem like a prison and mistakes wouldn't seem so permanent.

L. A Rubaine - Nothing like forever

[the-melancholic-20something]

I sat there for hours thinking of what to say to you and in the end I said nothing. I kept it all to myself as I always have.

L. A Rubaine

[the-melancholic-20something]

Is it selfish that I miss you? That I think of you daily? That I replay memories? That I dream about you still? Is it selfish that I think about your voice and miss you calling my name? That I love you in spite of things you feel would chase the world in the other direction? Is it selfish that I want to hold you everyday because most days it feels like you're the missing piece? That I want yo give you my tears when my head is in your lap? That I just want to hold your hands again without saying anything because even doing nothing with you feels like it's better than all the everythings I've been trying since I haven't been able to see you? Is it selfish that I want you here like a part of me? Is it?

L. A Rubaine - Something

[the-melancholic-20something]

If life were like the movies you'd be in my arms and everyday would be summer, in a field of tall grass where butterflies can land in your hands, you dance and sing silly nothing's into the air. But life is not like the movies and I'm here alone, winter lingers on like thick black smoke, stuck in my nostrils and I can't breathe. My world is in ruins. All the butterflies are gone.

L.A Rubaine - The Movies

[the-melancholic-20something]

The awkward beat of a heart as it stands inbetween the giver and receiver. As one refuses to hold it and the other to take it back.

L. A Rubaine

[the-melancholic-20something]

If I tried harder, grabbed your hand before you got in the car; would you have reconsidered? Would you have stayed a bit longer before you left? Would I have seen you again?

L.A Rubaine - Maybe it doesn't work like that

[the-melancholic-20something]

" after you leave there will be no roads to guide me and no rails to keep me from going over the edge"

L.A Rubaine

[the-melancholic-20something]

Sometimes I wish we didn't have to choose, sometimes the best things in life are actually the things that we lose.

L.A Rubaine