You know what:
Cal’s musings about philosophical shit while in the middle of a high-pressure/high-emotion situation are probably his version of dissociating
Because he saw Niko doing it to survive Sophie
And Cal would always try to follow in his brother’s footsteps
Because he needed someway to survive Tumulus and Niko was always supposed to protect him. Always. He promised. And philosophical musings were all Cal had of Niko at that time.
If he was thinking about the meaning of life or other existential bullshit, he didn’t have to focus on whatever monstrous thing he was doing, and how he was becoming Caliban more and more
Happy fucking New year!












