You dont see anything wrong in causing me pain? I sincerely & genuinely loved you when you repeatedly crushed me
I never gave up on you, I've invested years & sacrificed my mental health to prove that your worth fighting for
True, I am a victim of my own emotions & the ways I overreact when I'm hurt. My pride & dignity are non-existent when it comes to you. I take punch after punch after punch like it's nothing.. i told you I wouldn't survive another hit on my heart, believing the promises that you was all mine & would not ever abandon me again. A week without talking and your "in love" with a stranger just because he was "caring & kind" ?
You took my breath & broke me down like I'm trash you kick around when your bored. You probably won't read this, until you realize it was my last plea for help
I WISH someone thought enough of me to just hear my cries & WANT to ease my pain. Money is nothing! I have more money than I ever had in life rn & I don't want it. It's YOU & always has been you.
There isnt a woman on this fucked up earth who could compete with you in my eyes. I never cheated on you, I stayed when you did everything to break me. Why? You are my better half, my best friend, my person, my soulmate.
I wouldn't trade a single minute I spent with you for anything. I'm whole heartedly fucking sorry for going & spending time with who I thought was my child while he was in ICU because he has sickle cell (which is how I learned I'm not his biological father)
On top of that, I come to you ready to be the best fucking man I could thrive to be for you.. thinking I finally have someone to share everything Ive worked for years to have. Only To be told im replaced by the same guy you said I didn't have to worry about.
"he just a old dude that sends me songs. U think id ever fw him?"
I've relapsed on meth & fentanyl, but it's my problem to figure out right. 💔
Im not intentionally doing what I'm doing but this is so much more bearable than suffering & my soul screaming for someone that hates me
.. until we cross paths, in this life or the next bae
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