Eli

I'm so tired of trying to impress everyone KY

[sunbathe]

“All that once hurt (healed) goes on hurting in new ways.”

— Denise Levertov, from Poems: 1960 - 1967; “Joie de Vivre,” (via violentwavesofemotion)

[rruslana-deactivated20211012]

“Still dreaming and still suffering.”

— Rosemary Lloyd, from Critical Lives: Charles Baudelaire (via sweetsugur)

[lifeinpoetry]

The things we wanted but never got, those desires that were starved, stunted, thrust into a dark closet— what happened to them?

— Marge Piercy, from “The afterlife of old desires,” On the Way Out, Turn Off the Light

[the-overveiw]

they tell me im not normal. that there's something in my head different from everyone else but i can't help but ache for normalcy. on the outside i try to act normal, but i'm breaking. i don't know what's wrong with me anymore. somedays im great, others are okay, and then there just a week or a month where i can't handle being alive anymore. i long for the days when none of this was a reality. childhood with friends where it seemed everything lasted forever. and it sped by so fast. now, here, it really does last forever. im supposed to be happy, but how am i supposed to be happy when i never thought i'd see 18. now im 21 and staring at myself in the mirror and hating what i see, but it's not my fault. there's jsut something wrong with my head.

[the-overveiw]

i really wanna drop out of college but itll just be another reason im a family disapointment

[what-if-im-not-finished]

Does anyone else have breakdowns where you aren’t crying or yelling, but you just can’t think and you just want to curl up in a ball wherever you are?

[the-overveiw]

I don’t wanna tell my therapist I wanna die sometimes.

I don’t want to admit it’s hurts even when I smile.

I just want to tell them it’ll all be okay one day even if it’s not today.

I want to marry him but I’m scared he’ll get tired of me one day.

He holds me so close but what about the days when I’m tired and can’t talk.

What happens when I can’t tell him why I’m sad because I don’t know myself.

I guess I’ll keep waiting for the day when it’s all okay.

[spoken-not-written-deactivated2]

I’m just not happy with the vibe I give off. I’m way more punk rock than I look.

[cutegorl]

It’s totally okay to say “you know what, this isn’t making me happy” and to walk away from whatever or whoever is keeping you from the happiness you deserve

[c3po]

me halfway through unpacking the dishwasher when i get to the cutlery

[nightlock]

[yeehawlw]

it’s has been 3pm the entire time i’ve been in quarantine like i wake up and it feels like 3pm. i eat lunch it’s 3pm. i go to bed it’s 3pm. when will time move again

[pixalry]

Only Love - Created by Heather Edwards

[kitty]

[minuty]

[lsleofskye]

Untitled | michaelkagerer

Location: Bavaria, Germany

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[love]

The Dreamers (2003)