Space Junk Radio

Orcs and space, my funny headcannons, sketches and other stuff that's somewhere in my head and needs a place to be. Oh...and grab some Beasties on yer way!

[the-space-junker]

Sheev & The Force (TM) Sheev: Hmmm...Maul is reliving his childhood traumas. What can we do to make it even worse?

The Force (TM): Heeeeey Sheeeev? ♪ Remember D-9?

Sheev: Ohhhh yeeees! Good! Yeah, let's recreate that D-9 scenario! Hehehehe!!!

[the-space-junker]

OMFG...what was I thinking?! Ep. 7&8 hurt me on so many levels I never knew anthing ever could. Maul is just so f#cked up and it makes him so much more human and relatable. As a survivor of abuse with cPTSD and an unhealed inner child, I can truly feel him. Star Wars portraying an abuse survivor like Maul is peak fiction and at the same time just so REAL.

In order to survive, he acts tough, but hates himself deep inside. Not because he is weak (not only) but because everytime he sees his own reflection, he not only sees himself now, but also the child that could not run, was to weak to escape, to scared to act, to dependent to know how to function without his abuser. Maul was a kid. All he ever knew was abuse, pain, emotional neglect. But now as an adult, he hates what has become of him, his strenght is a facade and he hates it, he also hates what's underneath it. There is nothing that can fill the void in him because that void is everything a kid should have deserved and know - safety, love, care, empathy.

Maul never experienced any of this and he knows. He knows he is fucked up from the beginning and that he never had a chance to grow up to be a halfway normal person with dreams and hope and plans for the future. Everything was robbed from him, the moment he was born and then came Palpatine and it only got worse. Filone did a perfect job…showing a flawed human being that can't understand "normal", normal as in growing up as a kid, with parents who try their best, going to school, having a social life and becoming an adult who can reflect and understand what made him. So he poured everything into his anger, trying to cover up the pain inside. He had to, he needed to survive and hate and anger where the only emotions available. It works when he is with other people, where he can act strong, be a leader and keep his mind busy with tactics, plans and his own plots. But being alone is hard. Invasive thoughts, flashbacks, the smallest things can trigger you, you are always trying to find something to keep your mind focused on everything except yourself. Maul is drowning in misery and when he is alone, his mind travels to places so dark, he feels like a child again. His inner child is always with him and he hates it. Because his inner child is asking: "what if...?" And Maul's mind answeres in a million scenarios where he could have done something, or nothing, or prevent this, save that. And he did not. It lead to the very moment in Ep. 8. Maul hearing his inner child asking him for forgiveness made me cry, because it is, what everyone with a childhood trauma knows best: It will never go away and you can't change what happened. You can only live with what happened and it gnaws at you. Not just sometimes, not just for some minutes. EVERY. SECOND. You can be happy one moment and feel like shit the next - no warning signs, no time to prepare for the "gentle" reminder, that you are a complete wreck and suddenly the world feels like a place that doesn't want you. It's all in your head....but it's there.

That episode triggered me - but in a good way. It reminds me that you can't expect your abusers to ask for forgiveness. All you can do is try to forgive yourself, because it was NOT YOUR FAULT. "it's alright. It's alright." This! It killed me! Maul tried to be strong for so long, until he couldn't take it anymore. Him forgiving his inner child and himself for not being able to escape his abuser is like a bandaid for my soul. Maul...I love him, for all his weaknesses and the immense strength it takes to heal his inner child!

[missfangirll]

I normally don't repost stuff but OMFG

if anyone finds the op on douyin I'm grateful 🙏

[the-space-junker]

So cool...

[the-space-junker]

On AI Fanfiction...

I am floored...no really, I am not even angry or hate the person, but...i am sad.

I posted an old story of mine on fanfiktion.de some years ago (I am German, but I also write english) and deleted it, because...well not really writers block, I found so many plotholes and trying to solve them somehow discouraged me greatly. I didn't think about it for a while now until recently, when I was watching the series the fic was from and became nostalgic.

I went to AO3 just to look if I can find a fanfic for my favorite pairing and found my plagiarized story, translated from german to englisch and obviously rewritten by AI.

I tried to contact the Account, but I get ignored. So, what can I do?

It's not even the fact that someone stole and translated my story that upsets me, but obviously it was done using AI and I wasn't even asked.

[chaosdragongaav]

Sleepy dragon.

Chaos Dragon Gaav

[the-space-junker]

Source: https://arigatomina.com/

When I was young, I was obsessed with these two, love them still today. Somehow they are perfekt for each other...♥

Scanlations from Arigato Mina, Art obviously not from me.

[viny-kun]

Got it, friends! :D

(Thanks for all the little notes that was so funny to read!)

[the-space-junker]

So sweet, thank you for your art I love it so much! ♥

[viny-kun]

Don’t forget to hug your Valentine today !

For @vincentvalentineweek Day 8 : Love

(It’s a redraw of an old piece, I wanted to participate a little bit)

[viny-kun]

O///O

Sketch after the new FF.E.C outfil reveal

[the-space-junker]

I like his outfit, but he looks so insecure and wants to hide somewhere.

[alshtrikul]

Azazel art/2024

[rosy-crow]

I’m gonna throw up

I’m sick to my stomach. She didn’t get to hold him once and that’s part of her greatest lament as a mother and then you see what Sephiroth is dreaming of as a child and—

HE’S JUST DREAMING OF BEING HELD BY HER. SHE REGRETS THAT LOSS OF CONNECTION, THAT ABSENCE OF AFFECTION, AND HE’S OVER HERE LONGING FOR IT SUBCONSCIOUSLY ONLY A SHORT TIME INTO HIS LIFE AND HE DOESN’T REALIZE IT’S BECAUSE HIS MOTHER NEVER HELD HIM AS A BABY BUT HE CAN STILL FEEP THE LOSS ANYWAY UGHHDHDHD

[lesoldatmort]

Tw/tter doodles of Galian Loaf & Galian Baguette + ugly sweater time because I’ve been told that he looks like a hairless cat.

(edit: added another one hehe, galian sploot)

[viny-kun]

« Please someone give this man a sandwich! »

I don’t think Cid is going to leave him alone with this!

Ho and yes I gave him back his cigarette!

[the-space-junker]

One of my first favorite pairings ever...still love them to this day!

Two grumpy guys who play the opposites-attract-game and deserve each other! ♥

[flawlest]

[the-real-seebs]

The scariest shit I see always comes from people who are quite confident that, being very loving, they could not be doing anything abusive.

[dearestdrearilygirl]

THIS. THIS A THOUSAND TIMES. YOU CAN LOVE SOMEONE AND STILL ABUSE THEM. PEOPLE WHO ABUSE THEIR LOVED ONES DON'T AUTOMATICALLY STOP LOVING THEM. THEY HURT PEOPLE THEY LOVE. SOMETIMES IT'S BECAUSE THEY LOVE PEOPLE BUT THEIR MEAN OR SELFISH OR WHATEVER. SOMETIMES IT'S BECAUSE THEY LOVE PEOPLE BUT IT'S A TOXIC LOVE WHERE THEY OBJECTIFY OR ACT OVERLY POSSESSIVE OVER SOMEONE ELSE. THAT ALSO APPLIES TO PARENTS AND PEOPLE WHO AREN'T JUST ROMANTIC INTERESTS BTW. YOU CAN LOVE SOMEONE AND STILL ABUSE AND HURT THEM.

[sloanesmortuary]

drew azazel over a pic of dave navarro

[the-space-junker]

We need more Azazel art out there!

[daily-spooky]

[the-space-junker]

I know Eddie isn't THAT cute...but look at him! Also, it is canon that Zato has great issues with sleeping alone, so having Eddie is a great improvement for him!