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Cass wished he could say the same for himself, if only enjoying the moment for what it was until Jesse sobered up. But he couldn’t deny how Jesse tasted, nor how this moment was making him feel. The darker, ever famished part of him is intensely curious if this rather unique mix of alcohol, ash, and light and dark is any indication of how his blood would taste, and ruminates on how easy it would be to test the theory. Cass almost lets it – him? – speculate on the subject before his mind thankfully switches gears again once he feels Jesse squeeze his ass and drag him closer, which earned a particularly loud and gleeful noise from the back of his throat.
As if the hands on his ass weren’t enough to sever most of the few remaining strings of whatever was left of his control, the combination of it and Jesse forcing them together has expletive after expletive dribble out of his mouth with each string that frays. His hips rock back and forth against Jesse’s erection, a lust filled moan spilling out of him before he can stop it entirely. “Yer gonna start somethin’ ya aren’t intendin’ to finish if yeh keep grabbin’ me arse like that, Jesse,” Cass warns roughly through his unsteady, breathy tone that’s broken between sighs, moans and nips at Jesse’s lower lip. His lanky body practically quakes in an effort to keep him grounded from going much further than they already have. He wants to, though, more than anything else that he can come up with at any point in his life. It’s a battle that, despite his inebriation slowing everything else down to a crawl in the mental department, he’s all-too aware that he is on the verge of losing. He is not at all proud to say that if it were anyone else under him, he’d have given up on those strands long ago.
He is also not foolish enough to believe that he’s anything worth staying for. First, it was Tulip. And now, it’s Riordan – how on God’s green Earth could an undead alcoholic junkie like him stack up to a young demigod, much less to his Tulip? And how quick Cassidy is to accept the thought as a fact as soon as it comes. But, it is fun to pretend to be worth something, for a little while. And he’d rather be nothing serious than nothing at all. If this was as far as he was going to go… Well, Cass would much rather be in Hell with Jesse than live in Heaven alone.
Cass eventually refocuses on the hot hand on his back, focuses on Jesse instead of the fallout he’s sure is coming for him in the morning. What came after tonight was Future Cassidy’s problem. Fingers roam, though muddled and slow at first, and dip under Jesse’s shirt and begin to explore warmer, sun-kissed flesh – quite the stark contrast to Cassidy’s cool and pale, inked fingers that gently reach and hold, brush and press. Seeking those spots and areas that earn enthusiastic or otherwise pleased responses out of Jesse. All of it is an attempt to commit what he can to memory before the sun rises.
He wants to bottle those sounds up, wants to have more of them pour out of Cassidy, honey sweet and golden as the sun. Delicious, intoxicating, sweet as mead -- Jesse is dizzy with this, drunk on the feeling, breathless from the kissing they’ve been doing. Craving more, desperate as he pulls Cassidy closer, blood beating a dangerous rhythm against the confines of his skin. Moves his mouth over the taut line of Cass’ neck, biting where the pulse should be, not minding that there isn’t one. If he’d allowed himself to admit that he’d imagine them together, he’d have expected the lack of heartbeat to bother him. It doesn’t, not even slightly -- his heart is going fast enough for the two of them.
















