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@thebladeofbuffalo Hey babe?

It's been a few hours. Might want to check if your glasses are crooked. 😂

thebladeofbuffalo

I’m not even wearing them. 😂

queenofgoryselfmutilation

Everything that had been going on with Adam and Sasha lately had been on Allie's mind- both for the obvious reason of her worrying about her friend, as well as for a less obvious, more personal reason: her own husband's situation- possible situation- with Brandi.

She had tried to ignore it at first, pushing it out of her mind, not allowing her to think about it, but it kept creeping back in no matter her efforts. In particular, she remembered what Braxton had said about wanting to be in the child's life if he was the father, wanting to be responsible... and her response to that.

More and more, she was thinking that maybe she'd been wrong.

Padding down the hall in her bare feet, Toby trailing after her, she found her husband on the couch, phone in hand and Sir Didy curled up at his side. The sight of it made her heart swell up with love- amazing how that could still happen after all these years.

Making her way to the couch, Allie bent to kiss his cheek before sitting down beside him, tucking herself close and leaning her head on his shoulder, just breathing in the familiarity of his scent.

"Do you think... do you think we could talk?" The words were murmured quietly, as though she was afraid to say them any louder, her hand seeking out his free one and squeezing it.

@thebladeofbuffalo

thebladeofbuffalo

“Yeah of course I remember that.“ It had been a hard time for both of them. They had ultimately chosen to stop trying for a while and Allie had gotten to be more active in wrestling again. He squeezed her hand giving her a bit of reassurance.

The words seemed to spill out after that. It felt like someone had just socked him in the stomach. Braxton wasn’t sure how to feel. He sighed pulling her into a hug. “It’s alright. You have nothing to be sorry for. It wasn’t your fault. I’m not mad.” He reassured her pressing a kiss to her head.

“I do wish you would have told me though so that you didn’t have to go through all of that alone. I’m sorry you had to.” He held her comfortingly. “I love you and I have everything I want right here.”

queenofgoryselfmutilation

We are just painfully cute. 🥰🥰🥰

@thebladeofbuffalo

thebladeofbuffalo

Worth it for that laugh. 😍😍😍

queenofgoryselfmutilation

Everything that had been going on with Adam and Sasha lately had been on Allie's mind- both for the obvious reason of her worrying about her friend, as well as for a less obvious, more personal reason: her own husband's situation- possible situation- with Brandi.

She had tried to ignore it at first, pushing it out of her mind, not allowing her to think about it, but it kept creeping back in no matter her efforts. In particular, she remembered what Braxton had said about wanting to be in the child's life if he was the father, wanting to be responsible... and her response to that.

More and more, she was thinking that maybe she'd been wrong.

Padding down the hall in her bare feet, Toby trailing after her, she found her husband on the couch, phone in hand and Sir Didy curled up at his side. The sight of it made her heart swell up with love- amazing how that could still happen after all these years.

Making her way to the couch, Allie bent to kiss his cheek before sitting down beside him, tucking herself close and leaning her head on his shoulder, just breathing in the familiarity of his scent.

"Do you think... do you think we could talk?" The words were murmured quietly, as though she was afraid to say them any louder, her hand seeking out his free one and squeezing it.

@thebladeofbuffalo

queenofgoryselfmutilation

The words hit her like a punch to the gut- I always thought that if I ever had kids that it would be with you.

Biting her lip, she let her eyes close, trying to block the swell of grief that was trying to rise within her. It was something she'd kept neatly tucked away since it had happened, carefully locking it away to never be examined again.

But now here it was, at the forefront of her mind again. Having kids had never been something she'd thought she really wanted- she hadn't been against it, but it hadn't been something she'd desperately wanted, either. But back in 2019, after her anxiety at the poor responses to her matches had made her think about quitting wrestling, something had changed.

She'd thought about it, talked to Braxton about it, and they had decided to try for a baby. They hadn't yet started their open marriage, and she had stopped taking her birth control. As far as Braxton knew, they'd never had any success, and neither of them had been too into the idea of going to a fertility specialist- especially her, too anxious that she'd be told something she didn't want to hear.

"I... there's something I need to tell you. It's something I should have told you when it happened, but I didn't know what to do, I was scared, I was upset, I didn't- just please don't be mad at me. Please promise me you won't be mad at me."

thebladeofbuffalo

Braxton could tell that something had changed. The mood had shifted slightly. He knew Allie better than most people. Sighing, he wrapped his arms around his wife holding her close.

“Hey. Shh. It’s alright. I won’t be mad. You can tell me anything, Allie. You know that.” He pressed a kiss to her head. Braxton hated that she had felt so upset and scared that she couldn’t talk to him. In a way, he understood it though. He knew how she got when she was upset and anxious. So he didn’t blame her.

His hands ran up and down her arms rubbing them soothingly. “Take your time. I’m not going anywhere, babe.” He kissed her head again.

@xlittlebunnyfufu On the very first try. Sorry Butch! 😂

queenofgoryselfmutilation

Me and QT slated for the same Unrestricted.

Awkwaaaard.

thebladeofbuffalo

I’ll be there glaring at him.

queenofgoryselfmutilation

Everything that had been going on with Adam and Sasha lately had been on Allie's mind- both for the obvious reason of her worrying about her friend, as well as for a less obvious, more personal reason: her own husband's situation- possible situation- with Brandi.

She had tried to ignore it at first, pushing it out of her mind, not allowing her to think about it, but it kept creeping back in no matter her efforts. In particular, she remembered what Braxton had said about wanting to be in the child's life if he was the father, wanting to be responsible... and her response to that.

More and more, she was thinking that maybe she'd been wrong.

Padding down the hall in her bare feet, Toby trailing after her, she found her husband on the couch, phone in hand and Sir Didy curled up at his side. The sight of it made her heart swell up with love- amazing how that could still happen after all these years.

Making her way to the couch, Allie bent to kiss his cheek before sitting down beside him, tucking herself close and leaning her head on his shoulder, just breathing in the familiarity of his scent.

"Do you think... do you think we could talk?" The words were murmured quietly, as though she was afraid to say them any louder, her hand seeking out his free one and squeezing it.

@thebladeofbuffalo

queenofgoryselfmutilation

God, his smile always made her want to just melt. Nervous as she was, she couldn't stop the small smile of her own that broke out in return, the squeeze of his hand reassuring her.

"I'm just..." Allie trailed off before she'd really even begun, biting her lip and looking down. She fiddled with the bow on her pajama shorts for a moment before taking a breath, looking up at him again. "I've been thinking a lot. With Adam and Sasha, it's... the whole thing with Brandi. And... you."

She held a hand up before he could speak, shaking her head a bit to indicate that she wasn't finished. "I know you had said if it was yours, that you'd want to... be there. In the baby's life. Be responsible. Is that... is that still true?"

thebladeofbuffalo

He wasn’t surprised to hear that was what was on her mind. After all, it was on his mind too. Before he could respond, Allie had held her hand up indicating she wasn’t done speaking. He nodded his head in understanding letting her finish what she was saying.

When she was done, Braxton sighed. “I don’t know. I pretty much settled on the fact that you didn’t want it and I was willing to sign the rights away if it were mine. I figured the kid could have a better life that way. But I don’t know. I’m not sure I could handle not raising her if she were my kid.”

“It’s all so messed up. I always thought that if I ever had kids that it would be with you.” He admitted to her.

queenofgoryselfmutilation

Everything that had been going on with Adam and Sasha lately had been on Allie's mind- both for the obvious reason of her worrying about her friend, as well as for a less obvious, more personal reason: her own husband's situation- possible situation- with Brandi.

She had tried to ignore it at first, pushing it out of her mind, not allowing her to think about it, but it kept creeping back in no matter her efforts. In particular, she remembered what Braxton had said about wanting to be in the child's life if he was the father, wanting to be responsible... and her response to that.

More and more, she was thinking that maybe she'd been wrong.

Padding down the hall in her bare feet, Toby trailing after her, she found her husband on the couch, phone in hand and Sir Didy curled up at his side. The sight of it made her heart swell up with love- amazing how that could still happen after all these years.

Making her way to the couch, Allie bent to kiss his cheek before sitting down beside him, tucking herself close and leaning her head on his shoulder, just breathing in the familiarity of his scent.

"Do you think... do you think we could talk?" The words were murmured quietly, as though she was afraid to say them any louder, her hand seeking out his free one and squeezing it.

@thebladeofbuffalo

thebladeofbuffalo

Braxton was relaxing on the couch with Sir Didy curled up at his side. His attention on his phone as he checked his emails. He smiled when he felt Allie press a kiss to his cheek. It was only moments later that he felt her sit beside him.

“Of course.” He squeezed her hand back. Setting his phone aside, Braxton turned to face his wife. “What’s up? You know that you can talk to me about anything.” He assured her.

Things had gotten a little tense lately, but they had smoothed it out just as quickly. Still, everything with Sasha and Adam had made him think of his possible situation with Brandi again.

thebladeofbuffalo

BOOBS! 😍🥰

queenofgoryselfmutilation

All yours, baby! ❤

thebladeofbuffalo

Sorry didn’t mean to perv lol. They just looked really good in that gifset.

BOOBS! 😍🥰

queenofgoryselfmutilation

@thebladeofbuffalo Hey, can we talk? It's nothing bad. I just want to check in.

queenofgoryselfmutilation

Are you sure? Between everything last night, the way you answered when someone asked you, I just... wanted to make sure.

You known if it ever came down to it, I'd always pick you, right? Every time, without hesitation.

thebladeofbuffalo

Yeah I’m sure. I’m fine, really. Things were just crazy last night.

Of course I know that. You already proved that, babe.

#*private*

queenofgoryselfmutilation

@thebladeofbuffalo Hey, can we talk? It's nothing bad. I just want to check in.

thebladeofbuffalo

Sure. What’s up, babe?

queenofgoryselfmutilation

Are you still okay with me being friends with Kenny? And... a couple others that I've been with. I just wanted to make sure you're still comfortable with it.

thebladeofbuffalo

Bunny, it’s fine. I don’t mind you being friends with them. Kenny... is Kenny. I’m still getting used to it. It’s okay though.

#*private*