I am here to share my writing's to the world.

An idea occasionally comes to me ; a story , a poem , a scene . However they never seem to have a plot. These excerpts don't belong to a larger work. They're just stories with no start and no ending . They need a place to live and in this blog they shall be; And if there is only one person out there reading my blogs. I'm here writing just for you with all my love. XOXO

[thebohochicc]

Chapter 3 of the story:

It was the first time for him to bunk any of the lectures but walking around with her on the way to cafeteria was so overwhelming that make him forget all of his worries.

"Do you like to have coffee?" She asked. "Yeah, sure ". They sat at the corner of the room.

" Oh God , she talks too much" . He thought while looking at her talking incessantly.

Her adorable smile and appealing gestures make him fall for her even more. He was looking straight into her bright eyes admiring and humoring her.

" So, tell me something about you ". She broke in .

" Ah, What should I tell you , I dont belong to those people who have cool stories to share. My life is just attending lectures daily and I have hardly two friends who are my roommates too."

" Now you have three." She said in good faith.

"Did she just said that she is my friend" .His head was buzzing with exhilaration. He took a deep breath , desperately trying to keep calm .

" I have to leave." She said after a long and healthy conversation .

"Sure" . He said on false pretences.

She stood up , waved him a good bye and leave .

He came back to his room . Contented and thrilled.

" What a day it was!!." He exclaimed.

He was is in seventh heaven repeating all the conversation he had with her in his head.

"Oh , I just can't wait to see you tommorow" .

He contented to get off a flying start to their friendship .

He went to college the next day . She came wearing a plain basic salwaar kamiz with her hair kept open. His jaw dropped looking at her. "She is looking gorgeous". He thought in his head.

She came straight to his seat and sit right next to him.

"Hey! Friend " She waved . He smiled and waved back . During the lecture, the long lock of her hair constantly falling over her face which aids more and more to her beauty .

They started talking a lot during lecture breaks , bunked so many classes to hangout . Even started meeting after college hours. Everything seems complete to him .

But wait !! Is that all he wanted . To be just a ' friend' to her . All those casual meetings and hangouts fanned his feelings for her so much.

He put himself in the horns of a dilemma that what should he do . Should he just continue to remain a ' friend' to her? Or should he confess his feelings to her?

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" You're so fat."

" Your body is disgusting."

" You should not wear that dress. "

" You are so skinny , you need to eat and put some meat on your bones."

" You are ugly , you have scars on your face."

" Your skin is so tanned, why don't you do something to detann it."

" You should not wear body hugging tops as it shows your curves ."

These things must have been said to every person at least once in their lifetime . Do you ever think how it feels to know that our body is disgusting ?. That person was already struggling inside to cope up with the society's benchmarks . But rather than going penny for their thoughts , we ended up being a critic. It lowers one self confidence and self esteem to such level that a person start taking his lumps thinking that he is not worth of anything.

The society has spelt out noxious standards of beauty and how one must look to garner appreciation and if we do not attain those benchmarks then we summon condemnations that make us question our own bodies and this is what we call " BODYSHAMING".

Bodyshaming is lot more dangerous than we think , its one of the major problem of mental illness which leads to depression, anxiety and social isolation.

Many people think that they are doing a favour by telling others that their body is not perfect . No you're not. Words matter, and have the power to hurt. Even when we don’t realize it, words can cause someone to pursue unrealistic expectations about their body.

We live in a society where it is considered OK for someone to judge another person, on whatever grounds they feel. Being scrawny is bad, and being stout is unacceptable. If a person is too dark or too fair, he or she should be mocked. Again, if you are too tall or too short, you are definitely not acceptable in society.

I just want to emphasize on the fact that every living creature is beautiful in their own ways. No one deserve to be criticized on the basis of how they look. Bodyshaming is so common that we don't even realize doing that. Just choose your words wisely before you speak because it really effects other person mental health, peace and confidence.

[thebohochicc]

chapter 5 :

" I am outside your door" . He texted.

" Why are you here ? I've already said I don't want to talk anymore. "

" But Why? Did I embrassed you last night? Please atleast let me know my mistake ? "

" There is no fault of yours."

" Then why are you pushing me away my love ?" He said trying to hold her in his arms.

" Look what happened last night was just the heat of the moment . I was not in my senses as I was drunk. " She said .

" Look boy!! I know you like me .........."

" I LOVE YOU " He said interrupting her.

" I am not denying it but there is something I need to tell you . I know I should've told you this earlier but there is someone else."

For a few minutes he stood there in shocked silence . His head was trying to pile up every word she said. He was moving from one emotional extreme to another at this sudden turn of events.

" What? What you mean that there is someone else? "

" There is someone else whom I love and we are dating each other from the past three years . It's a long distance relationship. I just didn't tell you because I don't want to hurt your feelings ."

He clenched his fists to stop himself trembling. He go postal after hearing that.

" Hurt my feelings, oh really!! You really cared about those. Oh God!! I was so blind in your love that I can't even see that you are just using me for your comfort . You said you knew about my feelings very well then why didn't you tell me earlier. Oh wait!! How could you ? Then you'll loose your side dick in the college naa. I was such a nut case to always care about you more than anything else . I've always make sure that you are alright. You know , I've ditched my friend's so many times just to hangout with you . How could you do this with me girl?." He said dropping a clanger.

" Please don't take me wrong my friend, I have no intension of hurting you " She said in a low voice.

" No , I tell you what your intension was . You were just fulfilling your guilty pleasure by adding my name to your fucking love list.

I loved you like a dick from past two years and you just made a exhibition of my feelings. You know what , you're a narrasist and a person like you will never understand how I'm feeling right now. " He said quivering.

"No, it was not like that ". She said while tears started rolling down from her eyes.

" Hey, I'm sorry if my words hurt you . My mind had lost its ability to think. I shouldn't have talk to you like this ." He said

" No , no , please don't apologize . I deserved that. I know it's all my mistake but I just didn't want to lose a friend like you "

" You just did . " He said in a exasperated voice.

" You will never really understand how I'm feeling right now but you know what I believe in parallel universes. There’s a world somewhere where you love me as much as I love you . Maybe we are not meant to be in this dimension, but I’m sure we are somewhere else. i’ve never known what it felt like to yearn the sensation of being wrapped in somebody’s arms before you.

You've hurted me , you've hurted me so well my lady."

" I just want to say please forgive me for what I did " She said in sorrow .

" No , I can't right now . But one day I'll surely will. You know what you have just taught me ?

That love is a dumb luck. You can't make people love you just by loving them with all your heart. It is in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped. You know what there are so many people in this world who are in love, but not together. And also so many who are not in love but together . There are all kinds of ways for a relationship to be tested, even broken, some, irrevocably, it’s the endings we’re unprepared for. There are many people you will love and they are not necessarily the same people you will make a life with."

He said while about to leave her place.

" Please just don't hate me." She said .

" No, I'll not . Because if you want to forget something, never hate it. Everything and everyone that you hate is engraved upon your heart , if you want to let go of something, if you want to forget, you cannot hate.”

He just left the place without even looking at her.

" What happened between you guys ? Did you propose her? His roommate asked excitedly.

" Well I did !! But I screwed up everything. "

" How? "

" While proposing her , I had lost my senses and I forced kiss her and tried to make out with her with my dutch courage."

" You're such an asshole boy "

" Thatswhy we are not friends anymore."

" You actually deserve that, kid "

He just don't want to defame his love by saying ill things about her. He just kept all that thing upto himself.

His heart was broken and he decided not to visit college for few days .

He just knew that he need some time to accept all the things that had happened. But he knew one thing that he is not the same kid as he was in the first year of college . He've learned so much about life , about failures, about acceptance , about healing . His self- confidence was much more higher than before. He started working on himself . He knew that someday he will be happy again and will able to love someone once again in his life. Because one day you're gonna meet someone who appreciates you for who you are and will love you back like nobody else can.

[thebohochicc]

Chapter 4 of the story :

"You should definitely tell her." Said one of his roommates.

"No, I can't . I don't want to ruin what we have right now . " He said in exasperated voice.

"C'mon dude!! Don't be a pussy . Just man up , and make the first move."

"But , I don't have the faintest idea how to tell her ."

"Just call her and ask her out on a date . It's that simple."

" What if she doesn't feel for me the same way I feel for her and ended up breaking even our friendship."

" Oh boy , if you don't tell her, you will regret this your whole life."

He picked up his phone and dialed her number .

" Hey , you free to talk for a moment. ?" He asked courteously.

" Yeah!! totally. " She replied .

" Ahhh.. I called you to ask if you have any plans tonight ? "

" Not yet ."

" Okay !!Great . So, would you like to join me for a couple of drinks ? "

" Why not ? , I'm always up for a drink you know ."

" Okay then , I'll pick you up at 7 . "

" Cool."

He hanged up the phone and was stagnent for few minutes. He never thought even in his wildest dreams to propose her. But the die has been casted and there was no going back.

He felt so nervous for the first time in his life .

But still he screwed up his courage and went to pick her up at her place. They drove off to a nearest lounge .

" You look strange today, is everything alright?" She asked.

" Yeah, all good."

He had to have a couple of stiff drinks for the dutch courage to confess .

He looked at her and said ," You're looking so beautiful today ."

" You're saying this 50th time straight ". She chuckled.

It's time for the evil hour of the day. He started having a lot of anxiety and his forehead started to sweat as he continue to look straight into her eyes.

" Did you know that holding hand is a natural stress reliever?" She broke the silence .

He immediately hold her hand into his.

" I need to confess something to you ,my lady".He said kneeling down .

" I don't know where to start . I know that we're just friends but i am here to confess that there is something between us and it is the most beautiful thing I've ever felt. I have fallen for you from the very first day I saw you. You make me so love sick that you are the first thing on my mind and the last thought before sleep . You're the passion I crave , the desire I dreamed and the love I always wanted . I know I may be not the Mr. Perfect you're looking for but no one else can love you more than me . If I could, I’d hand you my beating heart on a platter. All I wanted to say is I LOVE YOU . I love you and if I could stay here with you forever, I would." He said while tears started rolling down from his eyes.

She pulled him up and brought him closer to her.

" I knew it, I knew all of it." She said .

A bit of tension occupied the space , they continued looking at each other, saying nothing. But it was the kind of nothing that meant everything.

His heart beat faster and faster as her face came up to his own . He knew that when he kiss this girl, and forever wed his unutterable visions to her perishable breath, his mind would never romp again like the mind of God. But the best kiss is the one that has been exchanged a thousand times between the eyes before it reached the lips.

"Can I kiss you?" He asked.

"Close your eyes." She said.

She tilted her head, and he felt her hair brush his elbow as their lips met .

He moved his hand down her face, resting it on the back of her neck. She wrapped her arm around his waist as she moved her mouth against his, anxiety and worries making way to numbness.

It was the kind of kiss that was so intoxicating that his brain couldn’t handle thinking about anything else.

" We are in a public place." She interrupted his flow of emotions.

" Oh !! Sorry if I make you feel uncomfortable." He said restoring his mind back to his senses.

He sat their in a awe felt like a stupefying spell was hit on him.

" My head felt heavy, could you please drop me off to my place ? "

" Offcourse. " He said.

That night , he felt like he was on the top of the world . He could not believe that what happened was true. He got her, he got the girl of his dreams . That was the most delighted feeling he ever felt in his heart.

He went to the college next day waiting eagarly for her. He just couldnt wait to see his lady. He sat on their usual place and vacant a seat right next to him. He waited so long but she didn't arrived.

He tried calling her but she was not picking up his phone. He panicked.

"What happened to her. ?Why she is not picking up my phone .? "

After a while a text message arrived on his phone which says

" Please stop calling me , I just don't want to talk anymore."

He kept wondering why she did that .

" I am coming up at your place . We'll sit and talk" .He texted back.

[thebohochicc]

Chapter 2 of the story :

His heart always skipped a beat whenever he saw her . He was starting to develop genuine feelings for her . " Should I ask her out?" , "Should I tell her how I feel for her"?, "Should I just initiate a friendship?" . The plethora of questions overflowed in his mind everytime he went to sleep . He badly wanted to express that how much he love her for all her faults. But wait!! "Did she even know me?" He asked to himself. Probably NO. There is a yawning gap between their lives.

One year passed like this . He never screwed up his courage to tell his feelings to her.

Like any regular day , he was waiting for her to come to class so he could caught some glimpses of her. But that day, something strange happened, her usual place was already occupied by someone so she came and sit right next to him . A feeling of excitement started running high through his veins. He looked at her and couldn't stop admiring her delicate and feminine features. He had the courage of his conviction and said "HYE!!" . She smiled and responded the same.

He tried his best to keep a straight face all the time . After the first lecture, she felt bored and said " Hey!! I am not feeling good to attend more lectures, would you like to accompany me to cafeteria ?". He freezed for a moment . "Is she asking me to hangout with her?". Yes, she is. He deliberately said , " offcourse, Why not ."

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[thebohochicc]

Chapter 1 :

Okay!! Here I'm trying to narrate the journey of a kid who came to a college four years back. A quiet, decent, studious kid who had a dream to get into an IIT , who ply really hard but somehow ended up in a state college. His dream has been shattered .He took his courage in his both hands and decided to began his new journey of life . He was not aware of the fact that this journey will be the most beautiful part of his life . On the very first day he went to college wearing black trouser pants and white formal shirt . He stood in a group of complete strangers with weird faces and smiles. He paled into insignificance standing right in front of them. Everybody were asked to introduce themselves by some seniors whom we call " Bosses" . When his turn arrived , a panic attack flowed over his body and he was unable to utter a single word . Everybody laughed at him and thought he is just a pig ignorant . He ran back to his hostel room , frightened and humiliated . That night he cried himself to sleep. Next day, he was introduced with two lads, his roommates. Who could have thought that those two idiots would be his knight in the shinning armour. Days passed, he was just known as the " low key" buddies of the class . Hardly few people cared about his existence. He zeroed in on his studies only. But one day , a girl got enrolled in his class . "Oh damn! Who is she? She looked stunning ". He couldn't help staring at her that day. Some days passed , he was feeling some sort of emotions he never felt before. He wondered why his mind just kept thinking about her all day long. Is he jealous of her ? Because she is more confident , charming and popular than him . or is it love?