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It's funny that I'll be calling these songs new since they were recorded over two years ago, but that's what they are. They've been sitting on SD cards and harddrives while I've been waiting for something to compel me to finish them. Yet nothing inspirational came really, and instead of a big push in a short period of time, I mastered them in tiny fragments over the past two years, mood permitting.
And maybe these songs will be the better for it. They were recorded in a single night after all, so maybe they needed the time for me to forget how little sleep I had and even how tired I began that Friday night after work. Because of the single night session, there are takes which will not make it on the EP or on the B sides: mostly due to my exhausted voice, and then there are takes which will make it to a B sides eventually: songs which don't hold up for me but aren't bad in their own right.
The EP is called 'Magic Depressive', and when the album art is finalized it will be on bandcamp: http://internetcrushed.bandcamp.com/
I'm hoping to post more in general again, and to get my other projects collected into albums with art and credits and everything else.
There's another live EP coming too.
The song here is my personal favorite from the Magic Depressive night.
Where am I? I trace the line of her body with the palm of my hand, calloused but the touch itself is soft so that she does not stir. The moon throws itself into the room, silver, lighting all of those tiny, almost invisible hairs. She sleeps soundly; I lie awake, unless. No. She does sleep. The question repeats itself until the words no longer feel real, until the I is no longer me only an abstract sound with no purpose. I has become undefined. I have been undefined. Perhaps there is a relationship between these thoughts.
notes 1
I've been afraid to be myself around people I'm close to my entire life, which operates strangely in reality because as my all my new friendships get closer I drift farther away.
In the beginning there is the release of meeting someone new and baring yourself completely. It's the safest way to be open because it requires very little effort and no one can blame you if you suddenly decide you don't want to be that close anymore. It grows
until somehow I find myself in the middle and undervalued as a victim because the victim mentality is easy I told you all these things why don't you care like you used to, yet really I haven't ever said much at all, never knew how to begin and am lost by reality
live in my head.
I want to get it all out on paper and wind. I am more beautiful than I present myself, more detailed like we all are. I simplify myself for myself and no other, to make it easier to be constantly wrong.
Hi!
To start off the year and the devoted Internet Crush blog in general I’m going to be posting all of the videos from Supermoon which was recorded in 2011 after a successful student short Omar had written while I was on a high of restlessness mixed with accomplishment from that short and a new song I had written. I put Omar on short notice and told him that we were making a video of me playing guitar that weekend, and after over an hours worth of music recorded this is what we ended up completing.
This song in particular was written a few years before the recording in a single, manic sitting followed by a single, demo recording and then the feeling that I had lost the ability to play it the way I wanted to play it but I put it on the list that night anyway, not expecting to get it right and surprising myself by enjoying it, playing as well as hearing, for the first time since it was written. The title is a reference to the asthma patient in The Plague by Albert Camus who deals with the looming presence of the plague by moving peas from one pot on his lap into another.
As the year goes on I hope to grab more people’s attention as well as improve my writing, which I feel is only bad when I have to write in this specific context so I’ll be paying attention to and practicing it. In six weeks, a newer project called Magic Depressive will start appearing.
Hope you enjoy.
Note to Myself
I just found this in one of my notebooks:
"that movie where Cristina Ricci duct tapes her boobs to make them smaller because we all have BDD or are instead just like Morrisey."
which I think, in many ways, is a warning or just a truth, something to hold on to even though it really was only a fleeting thought that for some reason I felt compelled to make non-fleeting.
I have no idea what movie this is from but the scene has been in my head since I was less than 5 whenever I don't like myself.
Listen/download: Drift by Internet Crush
Two tracks I recorded over the summer. If you like them you can download them for free, and if you really like them you can buy them but I’d rather have your ears than your money. All proceeds will go toward my music in some fashion, either equipment to continue Internet Crush albums or for teaching music here http://www.drumlessonskylevardel.com/
