Happy New Years Day, yāall!!
I did not even make it to midnight but I woke up next to a few of my favorite things:
1.) My cat, Tail
2.) My husband
My husband has always been there for me and this year was a very difficult year for me. I went well down into my anger and depression and started to see a therapist (2 therapist, actually. Stupid insurance changing). With the first, we figured out that Iām scared that Iām not loved or wonāt be loved by those who love me or that I just donāt feel like Iām enough. Which made a lot of sense cause there have been moments with in my family where I donāt feel any love and yet Iām suppose to still be here. With my second therapist, sheās giving me advice on how to work on controlling my anger/irritation and to get back to my old self again, let my guard/wall come down for good.
Iām learning again to communicate and talk my emotions out, instead of keeping them inside and building up my anger and negative thoughts.
Iām learning how to reconnect with my husband again and to make him feel loved too.
Just lots of other things that I will do in this new year, and I want to see a difference by the end of 2024.
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