:): still here

DONT REPORT JUST BLOCK | Active: August 2021 | 22 | minors dni | they/them she/her | 5'9" | HW: 319 lbs | LW: 94 lbs | SW: 305 lbs | CW: 201 lbs | GW's: 199, 185, 170 UGW: 160 lbs | I am pro recovery I just am not personally ready so my posts could be triggering use caution

[thecaseofthedisappearingel]

I've started being more active on here again so I need to pin a new post for yall🥰

Hey I'm El and I use this account to mainly vent and share shit I connect or relate to or need to get off my chest. If you aren't 18+ please don't interact. If you see something you disagree with or triggers you unfollow and block me please don't report me. Things I may vent about that could be triggering is sexaul assault, eating disorders/eating disorder behaviors, things of sexual nature or kink related.

I'm also a housewife who's really fucked in the head and so I vent about my day to day life and current situations at times as well!

I'm always down for new friends, messages as long as they are appropriate and respectful and anyone can send in asks!

[decidedlyunhappy]

PSA

I think i speak for every ED blog when i say that even though i hate myself and my body - i do not think the same about any of my followers.

you could weigh 200lbs more than me and i still would not think you’re ugly, MY body dysmorphia and MY ED does not extend to you

[thecaseofthedisappearingel]

Worst thing ever is having my husband so in the know now because I've been trying to drink a protien shake over the last few hours and I can't get it down and he's getting upset and I'm trying so fucking hard but I have no appetite and I don't want it.

[im7here]

YOUR ED IS VALID

Idk if you are gaining weight, loosing weight, eating regularly, eating irregularly, binging all the time, never binging, purging, or not purging

YOU ARE VAILD

[thecaseofthedisappearingel]

Heartbreak, coke and a need for control is a hell of a diet🤡🤡🤡

May 2020 vs August 2021

[lemonadeboy-deactivated20230320]

Am I the only trans guy who was absolutely not phased by some "awful side effects" of restrictive eating?

I mean, I was terrified by the bone problems.

But hair growing in weird places? Breast shrinking? Loss of period? Sounds good, sign me up.

[anarchy---boy]

exactly

there will be "here's why u should recover from ur ed:

1. infertility and period loss

2. no tits or booty"

don't threaten me with a good time, random cis tumblerina.

[thecaseofthedisappearingel]

I've been sick for 9 or 10 days now and it's absolutely kicking my ass but I'm 1 lbs away from being at my first major goal weight which I wasn't planning on reaching for another month. So thats fucking crazy. I've lost right at 13 lbs so far in total this month. I'm really hoping though that in the next few days I'll start feeling better and be able to hold more food down again because my body is fucking miserable.

[notsohotbod]

To all my fat girls with eating disorders:

- Your pain is not less valid if you are fat - Your eating disorder is still real - You deserve to eat regularly - I believe you - Fat is not a bad word - I love you

[positiveautistic-deactivated202]

You are still alive, and i’m very proud of you for that.

[chubbyybunnie]

So, I am scared to post this. But FUCK TUMBLR. I get weightloss ads all the time...yet so many vent blogs are getting t-worded. And ya know what, if we were honest...the fitness industry promotes EDs, yall just allow it because there is profit to be made from it.

[mysocalled-ed-deactivated202511]

TESTIFY!!!!! 🙌🏽 🙌🏽 🙌🏽

[reeferfox-deactivated20220116]

Felt cute might distance myself from everyone idk

[thoughtkick]

“You don’t have to have it all figured out at 21, or 30, or even 40. You’ll bloom when you’re ready. The only thing that matters is never giving up.”

— Aaron Mahnke

[konoko]

ⓘ this user has been flagged as: a disappointment

[crystalwaifu-deactivated2022122]

Biggest D you've ever had ?

Depression

[sadartistboy]

Dysphoria

[elli0t-b0nes-deactivated2024092]

disordered eating

[thecaseofthedisappearingel]

Daddy issues

[angelsklnn]

people don’t understand how mentally draining having an eating disorder is. they assume you just skip a meal a day and then boom you lose like 30 pounds then recover. they don’t realize that you lose all your energy and can barely even function. you lose friends over it, get horrible grades, have to stop working, lose interest & energy in pursuing passions and hobbies. it fucking sucks and they make it so obvious they don’t give a shit about us.

[thecaseofthedisappearingel]

I lost 5.2 lbs since Sunday. I'm not fucking proud of that but I'm not mad either. I'm literally 4.3 lbs away from my first major goal weight!!!

[thetattedstoner]

Tired of meeting people that’ll just become strangers sooner or later