thecoreofmysoul

[thecoreofanjali]

BlindShootsRootsSprouts

They say time goes,

The pain slows,

Healing speeds,

If we sow the seeds.

But I've planted so many,

Yet cannot see a sprout,

Has my hope diminished?

Am I rooted in doubt?

Longing for difference,

Yet embracing my circumstances,

Knowing duality is the mission,

And hoping for new chances.

I am here in this field,

Where my grass is all that exists,

As I cry and dig and plant,

I bring blood to my fists,

And the tears from my eyes,

Hydrate the roots,

Maybe it's all this hurt and pain,

That stops me from seeing the shoots.

- Anjali.H -

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iFeelSoFree

I feel so free.

Unchained, from restraints,

Of past traumas,

I feel like me.

I feel so free.

No frustration, from expectations,

Of someone else's love,

When I have love in me.

I feel so free.

No deprivation, of appreciation,

I work so hard, &

I am grateful for me.

I feel so free.

Separation, 1 is the equation,

No need for validation,

I see and validate me.

I feel so free.

Birthed life, amidst heartache and strife,

Found the tools to survive,

I re-birthed me.

I feel so free.

Taken time to connect, reflect,

Detect, reject and correct,

I see growth in me.

I feel so free.

Knowing the key is to accept,

Light and dark bring depth,

All part of the journey, to me.

- Anjali.H -

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Generational curse Love

My success is your success,

You're my husband and I'm your wife

Your success is my success,

As we chose to share this life.

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When you're down and empty,

I promise to fill you up,

And when I have nothing left to give,

I know you'll fill my cup.

Taking life lessons and growth,

As we learn individually,

Sharing our joy and pain,

As we ascend spiritually.

Holding hands on this road,

That we chose to walk together,

Dedicating to one another,

That we'll stay true to 'forever.'

And as time unfolds,

Our connection grows,

Love immersed on an incline,

Ready for whatever life throws.

And though some days are tough,

We choose to humble the ego self,

We choose to live in understanding,

Embracing every feel to be felt.

And everyday we each feel lucky,

To be able to assist one another,

In this schooling of the soul,

And grow as friends and lovers.

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Renewed cycles,

Nature connected,

Let our love be that,

Of which generations are affected

As they, Live. in Our. Love.

Because it, Heals.

- Anjali.H -

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Goodbye.

Sunsets in the sky,

Pastel oranges and blues,

Cloud Castles so high,

Make me think of you.

How we built together,

Yet watched it fall,

How we intended forever,

But had our time cut short.

Though I love you deeply,

It's time to let you go,

Though our bond grew sweetly,

The seeds have now been sown.

No idea what the future holds,

But I hope it heals us both,

Broken souls with trauma wounds,

We really need this growth.

Our wounded inner child,

Makes us hurt each other,

To protect how deeply we feel,

Connected to one another.

Our Cloud Castle in the sky,

Pastel oranges and blues,

It's time to say goodbye,

I'll always think of you.

- Anjali.H -

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MyGrace

You're here to heal me from mistakes I've made

Here to help me rebuild that bed I'd made

Here to show me how to grow my self worth

Here to show me how to put my needs first

Here to show me how to stop saving

Here to guide me to my safe haven

Here to help me discover my inner strength

Here to show what all the little things meant

Here to push the puzzle to completion

Here to show me those who need deletion

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Thank God I made the decisions I did

Me and you are so much happier than we would have been

And I can be my greatest self for you in Love

My cup is full, I could never ever give too much

And I'm the best that I have been for a long time

I see our closeness blossoming, we're on an incline

I thank God everyday for the direction,

Thank God for gifting me the grace of your affection

🌹

- Anjali.H -

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The Other Side

Listening to all the songs,

I just want to play to you.

Sit in the warmth of your arms,

And sing the way we used to.

How are we here?

On this painfully deep inquest?

You're so far away physically,

But yet I feel you so close in my chest.

My life feels like a movie,

So surreal yet so divine,

And you feel like a part of me,

That weighs heavy in heart and mind.

What seems so simple,

Has served to be so hard.

We went from open embraces,

To, two upright guards.

I see your faults,

I see mine too,

Though I cannot trust your word,

I still yearn deeply for you.

Is this a trauma bond?

Or are we twin souls that met?

Because I haven't felt a connection,

As deep as ours just yet.

I know if it's meant to be,

We'll find our way back to one another.

In time, maybe eventually,

Once again, we'll be best friends and lovers.

- Anjali.H -

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❤️

[thecoreofanjali]

WhatIsLove?

To Love someone truly, deeply, unconditionally, is to analyse and better yourself, for the Love of them.

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Soul Soliloquy

I'm on the dark side of the moon,

I still can't see the sun.

Under clouds of grief and pain,

From a life I thought I'd begun.

I can't distinguish my tears from the rain,

I thought I had found 'the one'.

Turns out my love was given in vain,

We lost, when I thought we'd won.

If hurt is all I gain,

I'll give myself to none.

Still on the dark side of the moon,

When will I see the sun?

- Anjali.H -

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Water&Fire

Calm and cooling like the sea,

you tame the flames in me,

See I am the element of fire,

and you are, water, completely.

Our union-ship creates the earth and winds..

- Anjali.H - 

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You are such a beautiful person

Awwww thank you so much! You're the sweetest whoever you are <3

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Finished.

How could we collaborate on something so profound,

But have the light of love drift away in the clouds.

How could the one who made me safe and secure,

Be the one to make me feel unsure.

How could a connection so deep,

Start to feel meaningless and weak.

How could a hug that felt like home,

Become a no-go zone.

How could a touch so familiar to me,

Become a trigger for intense anxiety.

How could a trust and loyalty,

Become disrespect and emotional infidelity.

How could the energy invested,

Become the energy detested.

How could something so beautiful,

Fall into something so unfruitful.

How could appreciation fade,

You forgot about all that I gave?

How could we go from sharing one face,

Into being away and needing space.

How could my love become an enemy,

I thought we were for eternity?

...

I was wrong.

- Anjali.H -

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AMAYA

Sometimes I'm swept in disbelief,

At the divinity of your being.

How you came from me,

My body is your body,

It's me in you, I'm seeing.

Sometimes I'm submerged in depths of love,

I could've never comprehended before.

How you teach my soul,

How you give me hope,

How you made me reconnect with my core.

Sometimes I find myself gaining meaning,

Understanding why I exist.

The connection we have,

The purpose you give me,

A role that fills me with bliss.

Sometimes I hurt from the growing pains,

But you remind me it's all ok.

You teach me to be me,

Express and be free,

And there is no right or wrong way.

All the time I feel blessed, to have received the best,

You heal my wounds with your smile.

You re-birthed me,

Connected me spiritually,

And made all the highs and lows of life worthwhile.

- Anjali.H -

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Question 9

The shocking sadistic nature of the human,

Broken promises and changed feelings,

Memories soured with ill thoughts,

When the purpose has changed it's meaning,

Energy spent in heaps of work and effort,

Nothing comes easy, as the creator intended,

Hopes and dreams are thus inadequate,

As their lines between reality are blended,

And though the sun shines in all it's awe,

And the sky gleams hues of both grey and blue,

We sit and wonder if we've reached the ending,

Would you have changed the trajectory if you previously knew?

- Anjali.H -

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To Have You Here, A...

To have you here,

On my side,

At the right time,

Elevating my mind,

Opening my eyes,

I’m on an incline.

To have you here,

Transcending the soul plane,

You came to find me,

Connect with me physically,

Found a home in my body,

I feel that you knew and know me.

To have you here,

Refreshing my perspective,

Teaching me a new way to live,

Elevating me to receive what you give,

Reminding me of the collective.

To have you here,

Has positively changed me,

Elevated me completely,

Never knew of a love so deeply,

You merge with my aura so sweetly.

To have you here,

When one day I’ll be gone,

But through you my essence will live on,

In the soul plane, I’ll be the one,

Coming to find you and watch over you.

To have you here,

What a gift to receive,

What a love to conceive,

One that exceeds my beliefs,

How you bring me relief,

To have you here,

The power you hold,

The love that you mould,

The lessons that unfold,

The teachings that I now hold,

Just from your essence

To have you here,

Is my world.

- Anjali.H - 

[expressions-of-nature]

by Ankhesenamun

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Stunted.

I looked to the sky to see how much you had grown,

But a stunted growth was all that was shown,

Like a blunt cut tree trunk that had no will to repair,

as it basked in a pool of pain and despair.

- Anjali.H -