The Council Record

a detailed record of (nightly blog I'm committing to) the navigation of my brain (as I try to navigate life) I'm 31. I'm autistic. I'm clinically anxious, depressed, structurally-dissociated and in active therapy and treatment for all of the above and so much more. I'm starting this for me. You're free to stay if you want.

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Journal Entry

Day whatever

12-31-24

1046 am

Whats the fucking point

It's my favorite holiday and I feel nothing

I can't sleep

I cant eat

My job is fuxking with my mental health so bad

But that's part of being an adult?

Fuxk being an adult

I didn't ask to be born

Why the fuck am i being constantly punished for it

I can't even get a new job because the market sucks

And anyway I always get to this point with any job

I am fundamentally not made to function in corporate in a healthy sustainable manner

I've tried everything

Ive tried different jobs

Ive stood up for myself

Ive shut up and just taken it

Nothing works

So why bother

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Journal Entry

Night 3

12.29.24

7.51pm

Im tired today and everything kinda feels pointless. This happens. It'll pass.

We finished our second Veilguard playthrough. That was fun.

Im just tired and frustrated and burnt out and I don't want to do this anymore.

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Journal Entry

Night 2

Sat Dec 28

234 am

I have to be the responsible one and get us to bed.

Kit and Raya got to play Dragon Age all night and now I get us ready for bed. The game's fun to watch though.

This is also my project. So I need to make sure to start the habit even though I got way too high tonight.

[Necessary information: Luna has a stomach condition that often necessitates medicinal intervention.]

The active weed usage you'll get a sense for if you stick around here, but it's part of my doctor-approved care plan for a whole host of medical issues (little fun facts about me). So it's all good. Promise.

I said we'd do the introductions and such today but Luna's been pretty checked out tonight. It was good for her to just immerse in the game for a while.

But now we need to sleep. So hence. I am here to be responsible so we don't play the game until 5am like we want to.

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I'm starting this project.

Journal Entry

Night One

12-27-24

1:03 am

I'm Luna. The "prime consciousness" (see scratchpad note).

It would have been hypocritical of me to not do the first night's entry considering I've been trying to work up the nerve to do this for ages.

I think our story is unique and I want to share it.

I'll explain more tomorrow, but we'll tailor this so everyone engages as much as they're comfortable with.

Kira set this up and wants to do video entries.

We'll do the rest of the setup tomorrow/later today.

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Kira:

She's exhausted so she's been dormant while we had a few days off work and she could relax.

But I wanted her to explain this because I think it's cool and we have a lot of shit to say. This is all for tonight though cause now I want to go read my book.

Digital Scrapbook via a blog

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(Kira's Scratchpad)

(we really need to find a better way of referring to this if we're going to actually make this a project we track - figure out the typeface differences) -Kira annotation

Images. Poems. Pictures. 2000 word dissertations. Fanfic flash. Do something creative. Whatever works.

Submit a post. At least one post per day. Sign it. Either by name or with a gif that can be traced on the backend by the pattern recognition I don't even understand most of the time