Heart Full Of Napalm

Just a guy. More red flags than a May Day parade in Moscow. Dumped more times than a garbage can at Disneyland. Hopelessly romantic. Still believes in love.. Poetic justice loves to visit me.

[thecowboyjunkie]

This is Macy. She and I are in love with each other. She was taken away in a car crash last month. I’m so fucking sad. It’s just not fair. I’d eat broken glass for one more minute with her. This explains my disappearance here, courtship, love, and loss.

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[horse-and-anchor]

Horse and Anchor shop from home sale continues! Vintage canvas tote with hand painted skull and bone. Made from vintage military canvas, leather foot, lined with Japanese selvedge denim, vintage military leather straps, copper rivets and brass hardware. $200 #horseandanchor #totebag #smallbusiness #handmade #ownermade #skull https://www.instagram.com/p/B-Pvv7JjXoc/?igshid=i1xorum9afc8

[thecowboyjunkie]

Horse and Anchor is having a sale. If you want a one of a kind bag that’s tougher than advanced calculus this is it. He’s a great guy also so you’re supporting a craftsman that’s a family man and just a good dude all around.

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[serpentinesheldonserpentine]

Isolation Drills

[thecowboyjunkie]

Because Johnny Thunders.

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Felt dirty. Took a shower and did my hair. Not like I’m going anywhere but whatever.

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Saturday was date and then snuggle day. I could smell her perfume on my sweater after she would leave. That smell is gone and I desperately want it back.

[thecowboyjunkie]

Such things I do just to make myself more attractive to you. Have I failed?

[thecowboyjunkie]

I wonder if you ever even think of me anymore. I know I’m unloveable, it just hurt a lot when you showed me.

[thecowboyjunkie]

When you love her but to her you are a fun distraction.

[thecowboyjunkie]

My heart is broken. The only woman I’ve ever been 100% honest and truthful to broke things off the day I got out of the hospital. She said she cares too much for me to be with me and have me die on her. She might as well have killed me herself. I left her house and fell to the pavement and broke down and wept for over an hour. She is the one. Everything clicked, music, life, politics, attraction, everything. I was 5150’d the next day as it just broke me in two. I deserve what I got, sins of the past. My heart is shattered into tiny shards on that street in front of her house. It can’t be put back together. She has a beautiful smile. I hope she finds something to smile about every day forever. I’m sorry I got sick Rach. Please don’t ever forget me.

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Hospital slippers for recovery.

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Back in the hospital and out again. Blood clot in the good arm. Staying with my brother, he’s helping me out.

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Hey brother, doing alright?

Back in the hospital. Blood clot in my good arm.

[thecowboyjunkie]

NYE 2017. She was always one step ahead of me.